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Once a person finds rejection, he'll make a point, even subconciously, to find it everywhere. And if he doesn't find that rejection he'll sabotage until it is there. Maybe this is why I'm such a fuck up in every goddamn facet of my life. I'm sitting here and my life has just gone to fucking hell. Downward Spiral. I haven't the faintest clue where to start to put it back together. Depression is as much a drug as drugs are. Once you get it and get some of that good depression....you know the kind that just settles in and pulls you like a strong undertow.....well, then you get used to it and you can't pull yourself out of it. I'm pretty damn up to my nose in it right now. |