Chrissie's trip of a lifetime.
November 14, 1986 - December 6, 2001
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.
Each morning when we awake,
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heart ache
As we try to carry on.
Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.
Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still.
There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.
If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts;
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
~ Written by Connie Dyer, BP/USA, Springfield, IL
Chrissie tried for October 21, 1986, but doctors managed to stop her. For if that date was to be the case,
we may not have managed to have kept her on Earth with us as long as we did -
15 years, 22 days.
with a sense of urgency - living each day to the fullest. Chrissie was a social butterfly, and made friends
like bees make honey. Her friendships spanned across the globe.
2 days in the hospital, and the first 2 months, 2 days in the isolate. We finally got to hold her after 2 weeks.
Chrissie spent the first year and a half on oxygen,
and the first year and ten months on an apnea monitor. Several times, we had the monitor go off in the night.
Each time, we were given our Angel back.
which eventually became Asthma. Unable to walk or talk for the first several months, Chrissie used sign language
as a means of nonverbal communication.
She received home schooling from wonderful and talented teachers and therapists
of the Ivymount School. These skilled and caring people helped her develop, while keeping me sane.
she developed auditory processing dysfunction. Chrissie had difficulty understanding the words spoken to her.
With a personal fm system,
she could understand and she started to excel in school.
Chrissie suffered from acute mold allergies and missed so much school in the fifth grade
that she had to be home-schooled that year. Chrissie went back to school in the sixth grade. On top of the regular stress
of handling a full load, Chrissie was exposed to endless teasing, and had to make new friends
since the school district had shifted boundaries, forcing her to attend a different school.
Chrissie excelled in her studies.
and lip sync contests. Even though she was rather shy, she overcame that when she competed in these contests.
She surprised many people with her angelic voice.
very well. Chrissie introduced Mai to American traditions, such as Halloween, sleepovers, New Year’s Eve, and the Fourth of July.
They learned from each other. With Mai’s help,
Chrissie learned how to speak, write, and read Japanese.
about being fat, even though she was quite petite. She became very self-conscious, and started to walk more
and ride her bike every day.
with Cinderella's castle in the background.
ahead of her. As the teasing continued, she became more and more unhappy,
and she lost more weight.
Chrissie joined the Peace Club at school and helped her school be one of the school to obtain a Kaki Tree (second generation of the tree).
The Kaki Tree is the tree that survived the bombing of Nagasaki, Japan.
Chrissie was loved by family and friends.
and Dissociative Identity Disorder), she always had a smile and kind word for everyone.
in fifteen years than most people do in a lifetime - and she did it with grace and love.
(Ivymount School and Northwest High School) that have been set up in her name.
and related neural illnesses. We hope that her memorial scholarships and the donation of her brain tissue will enable
future high school students
to go to college and help future teenagers to live without depression.
“Well, duhh!” Most of all, I will miss her “Love You More and Love You the Most” to my “I Love You!”
she lived with 5 personalities after she died and we got to read the journals that she left.
The one personality that was the strongest
was the one that talked of killing Chrissie.
This is the personality that we believe took over at the end.
It was our last day and she was missing Lace.
It is often evaded but impossible to escape. In death Chrissie Carrigan brought this school together in such a way
that is indescribable, but even more, she helped people in life.
She affected numerous people daily with her brightness and insight on life.
Many students who came in contact with Chrissie were often happier after hearing a cheerful “coolies” or listening to her expound on
saving the buffaloes. No words could give justice to who Chrissie really was
and how much she lived life to its entirety. She died young
but not without leaving her mark on the world and an impression on the hearts of many.
By Emily Thoresen, 2002 yearbook.
Maria - this was what Emily wrote for Chrissie's yearbook in 2002. This is from the best friend Chrissie had in school
at the end. This is also the young lady that brought me a ticket to go to graduation for her.
Geoffrey P. Edwards
But in our hearts you are always there,
The gates of memory will never close,
We miss you more than anyone knows,
With tender love and deep regret,
We who love you will never forget.
Let it not be said my life was in vain,
I've just moved on to a higher plane.
So I can keep better watch over you,
As you move on like you need to do
Though this life has reached an end,
I'm waiting for you around the bend.
I beg you please don't weep for me!
It's not so bad for soon you'll see,
That I will linger long past this sunset,
In the hearts of you who love me yet.
Where the day flows
And who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose
Who can say why your heart sighs
As your love flies
And who can say why your heart cries
When your love lies
Who can say when the roads meet
That they might be
In your heart...
And who can say when the day sleeps
If the night keeps all your heart
...night keeps all your heart...
Who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows
Who knows? Only time...
Who knows? Only time...
dedicated to Chrissie by her sister Trevia ~
made by Chrissie herself, to promote her poetry ~
Happy 22nd Birthday Angel Chrissie!
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