November 14, 1986 - December 6, 2001
I know graduation's here,
And though I'm now in heaven,
To me you're all still dear.
I graduated early---
God wanted me above---
But my heart's still with my classmates
And I watch you all with love.
Though maybe your eyes won't see me
As you march across that floor,
Please know I'm marching proudly
With our Class of 2004!
Written by Saralyn McAfee Smith
Used with Permission
Chrissie's graduation graphic above is a loving gift
from Diane, Billy Kayser's Mom
We little knew that morning that
GOD was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
in death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
you did not go alone;
for part of us went with you,
The day GOD called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
your love is still our guide;
and though we cannot see you,
you are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same;
but as GOD calls us one by one,
THE CHAIN will link again.
~ Author unknown
I didn't know Chrissie very well. Now, I wish I ad gotten to know her sooner. People hide behind masks to prevent others from discovering who they truly are, and Chrissie was no exception.
I have but few precious memories of her, locked away in my heart. She always seemed bubbly. Life was an adventure to be explored and conquered. Often, I think of how Chrissie's eyes must have sparkled and been full of mirth. How she may have laughed: a light, carefree giggle or a huge guffaw. Chrissie seemed to be filled with joy, and she spread smiles to all who met her online. She had the ability to make me laugh, when all I wanted to do was cry. She really loved her boyfriend and thought the world of him. Her heart must have been huge, for I think she genuinely loved everyone she met. I feel as if I carry a small bit of her with me at all times.
Chrissie's eating disorder took over her life and eventually pushed her to the point where she took her life. Chrissie realized anorexia was not a game to play; however, she did not realize it would control her and create chaos in her life, instead of allowing her to control it and create some form of structure out of chaos. In the end, Chrissie struggled to stay alive, but her eating disorder was too powerful and killed her.
If any good has come out of Chrissie's death, it has been that I have learned several valuable lessons from her. Chrissie's demise has given me the strength and courage to seek recovery for my eating disorder. I do not wish to inflict such pain on my friends and family. On days when I struggle with suicidal or anorexic tendencies, I remember Chrissie and weep. I weep for the beautiful girl whose acquaintance I was fortunate to gain before she passed away. I weep for the pain I feel inside, and I weep for the young woman that would not blossom if I chose to follow Chrissie's steps. I have learned to weep for Chrissie, and in doing so have learned to weep for myself.
My purpose now in life is to spread Chrissie's story, hoping to prevent others from following in her footsteps. I miss her so much. I cannot bring Chrissie back, no amount of wishing will change the fact that Chrissie is dead. The hole created in my heart by her passing will never be filled. I only hope others will not make the same choice she did, an if they have already done so will seek the help they desperately need.
Written In Loving Memory of Chrissie by Valerie
Pammi, 4 Ever Benjimans Momma"
It is my hope, and the prayer in my heart, that people will visit our memorial sites and see how suicide touches the lives of SO many people...leaving us heartbroken:("
My Diamond in the Skye
I am honored to present them to you."
My Home Page
Your life has not only touched my heart, but so many hearts.
Even though you suffered with so much illness in your young life,
you somehow managed to touch so many lives with love.
May you rest well in God's beautiful Kingdom
and share all of your love with those in Heaven
and those on earth.
and I just had to give you My Beautiful Graphics Award
for such beautiful design and photographs.
May God always be with you and may Chrissie be waiting
for the day when you will once again be reunited.
May you all find God's peace
and may Heaven's light shine upon you always.
With Much Love and Prayers
In Loving Memory of Laura Ann Kimble
dedicated to Chrissie by her sister Trevia ~
made by Chrissie herself, to promote her poetry ~
angel bear background for Chrissie's page!
and some of the graphics for Chrissie's page!
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