*~*The Boys You Don't Know *~*

So It was all planned and perfect right? I would send my wonderful Nita home any from the truth and stay alone in my hotle room away from all the girls out there that were going to try to get me to slip back into my old habit. And then... there was the truth My four year old son Nickolas and His mother Abbey i paid her from going to the public about what happend it was a mistake I was at the wrong place at the wrong time. Abbey was a groupie and we met after a concert in '97 I was stupid and 17 and we had sex once. I left to continue touring and about a month later I get a call from her and she says she's pregnant and I offer her a million dollars to keep it on the down low and she accecpts. So I have all this regret over both situations filtering threw my head as I watch Nita board the plan for the States. "Yo.. Nick!" AJ yells as he hits my arm. I look at him. "what?" I said squeezing the steering wheel. "Lets go... NOW... I gotta talk with you" AJ said jestering towards the girls who were still looking at the car. Nita was stairing at me with her big green eyes glazed I could tell from here that she was going to cry. "Ok" I said as I reluctantly started the rental car and pulled out of the parking lot and on to the free way We were leaveing for germany in the morning. "Abbey's gonna tell" Aj said flatly as I zoomed down the freeway. as soon as what AJ said registered in my brain I slammed on the gas. "What the fuck! I am screwed AJ... Nita is now going to leave me..." I said as I squeeled to a stop in the parking gaurage of the hotel. "Dawg you don't no this... I mean.. she's understanding... she still loves you man whether you see it or not" AJ said as he opened his door and got out. "When did she call" I said as I pulled the key out of the ignition got out of the car and walked next to AJ. " She called a week ago... But I couldn't find a time to tell you" AJ said as we got into the elevator. I wanted to cry so bad. Me Nick Carter was going to cry over a screw up that I was sure I was done crying over.

"DAMNIT" I yelled slamming my hand against the wall of the elevator. "yo calm down I don't think she will" Aj said stepping off at his floor. "yo we all going to diner tonight come with us we'll all talk about it okay" AJ said as he walked down the hall. I still had two floors to go. I leaned against the back wall. When it got to my floor I stepped off slowly walking to my room remembering all the hustle and busle of this morning. Nita barely said two words to me. I didn't want to see her because I was sending her away only to cover my ass. And to make it believeable we had to send all of the girls away even leighanne. I get to my room and I open to door to find it the same way it looked this morning only theres a note on the night stand. I slam the door and I walk over to the night sand and pick it up. I opend it to find Nita's sloppy cursive hand writing. "hey babe! wassup! I've been thinking and I understand why I have to go back to the states I was talking with leighanne and she said that last year she got mobbed and stuff thrown at her while at the concert so I am glad you guys are thinking of us... I wonder if you miss me yet... do you miss me? I have my cell turned on and I'll keep it on during the flight please call me being apart is unbearable! Call me!!! buh bai much love Eturnally yours Nita" I folded the letter and slipped it in my back pocket. I walked over to the radio and turned it on. And to my suprise I find Drowning being played and I start to cry. And eventually I am waken up by AJ shaking me.

"Man wake the fuck up we gotta leave NOW" AJ said panicing. "wha-why?" I said sitting up and stretching "She told... and now there is a very large mob out side and we have an emergancy meeting on the Plane in thrity minutes" AJ said as he left the room. I looked out the window there were thousands of people outside and they weren't the normal crowd either there was a sign that said "Nick Is a PIG" in french. I quickly closed the window and started to pack. They took us out threw the backway. It was more hecktic than usual. I sat in the car with my cell phone in hand. I dialed Nita's number. " Hella?" She said in her normal voice she was still on the plane. "Nita.. I want you to come to germany as soon as possible switch planes as soon as you get to the states" I said as I looked threw the tinted windows at the crowd. "Nick?! why? you sound like something wrong what happend" She said she sounded scared. "shh.. no nothing happend to anyone yet just don't read the papers and don't watch the news just get here as soon as you can... Please?" I said as walked out of the Car and onto the plane. "okay Nick..." She said sounding slightly placid, "Nita.. I love you okay and no matter what anyone tells you about me I always will okay I gotta go" I said as I sat down. "I love you Nick... and I miss you see you soon" She said as she hung up. I put my phone back into my pocket and I laid down on the couch type thing. Just then the rest of the Boys got on the plane. "What the fuck is all of this about?" Kevin said pushing my shoulder.

"I didn't know she'd tell I had no controll over her okay!... Do you think I am being more or less affected by this than you guys!" I said sitting up. Just then brian sat down next to me. "I am going to take Nick's side He is being more hurt by this than we are he might lose Nita and his caree so give him some slack" Brian said touching my shoulder. I let my head hang low as Johnny our tour manager came on the bus. "Okay now this is what we're gonna do" Johnny said sitting in a chair at the bar. "Nick your going to say it's all a rumor and that the paternity test is a fake or doesn't exist... and We are gonna perform as planned After we get to Germany our lawyers are going to meet with hers and we are going to try to resolve this thing... Pull the girls out of the US and bring them to you guys... all of them even Kristen who is still in LA... I called most of them except Nita I'll let you do that Nick" Johnny said pulling a beer off of the table and opening it. "I've already sent for her" I said leaning back. "then I have nothing else to say... " Johnny said poping a video into the VCR. I walked to the back and fell asleep.

When we got to Germany the press was worse than in France and I was actually convinced that this would be the end for me. When I got to the Hotel. I was met by a familar Blonde haired black eyed girl. With a little blonde boy holding her hand. "Nick... I still love you why do you have to be so difficult if there wasn't any love between us how could we have created sweet little Nickolas" Abbey said smiling. I ignored her and walked to my room and closed the door. "fine then Nick I will tell that little bitch of yours what really went on between us" Abbey yelled banging on the door. I tuned her out and thought of ways to tell Nita the truth how do you come out and say I have a child with a teeny boper. Thats what she is one of those screaming phycotic little bitches... who got he damn dream because of me getting drunk and being horny and yeah I did it a couple of times but every ones entiled to have a stupid moment of meaningless passion and if Abbey didn't have the Mind of a four year old she would know that I don't love her. I eventually get Tired and fall asleep. p>At about 4 I wake up and I see Nita curled up on the bed Next to me. not touching me at all just curled up. I touch her shoulder she looks so peacful and small. I watch her chest rise and fall with every slow breath. I touch her hair it's straight she had it straighend while in Paris to have something different. Her hair was long she was almost like my personal lady godiva. I watched the muscles shift as she rolled closer to me and she leaned her head against my chest. I had never watched Abbey sleep like this. It was relaxing to watch Nita sleep. She moaned softly it was breathless and she snuggled closer to me. It reminded me of the first time we had sex. I touched her cheek. and her green eyes slowly opened she looked up at me and smiled I all of a sudden shed a tear. Is she going to love me after this. I looked away from her. "Nicks what wrong??" She said as she sat up and ran her small hands up and down my arms to warm them. "Nita.. umm..." I sat up and leaned against the head board. "will you love me no matter what?" I said as I took each of her hands and kissed them. she smileed. "yeah why Nick?" she said laying against me. "even if I did something really terrible" I said as I playied with her hair. "It depends" She said looking at the wall. "what if it happend before we were together" I said playing with her hands "Then it doesn't matter it was the past Nick..." She said sitting up. "I have a son" I said looking at her she shrugged "Oh well" she said the she kissed me "Oh well.. all my fans are ready to kill me and your all OH WELL... god thats what I love about you once you open up NOTHING phases you" I said laughing and we Snuggled.

Later that day she went home. The riots were getting bad and I thought it was best but it wasn't. After I got in from the concert I was ready to pass out but When I got to my hotel room I was met by Abbey once again. "Nick I saw you on stage and it brought back memmories of this" she kissed me and I didn't stop her The old asshole Nick won over and before I could stop my self we were having sex on the bed that I had shared with Nita just four hours prior. In the morning she was gone and she also retracted her statement from the press. And we had one more stop before we went home. And that would be Austrailia. When I was on the plane I got a phone call. I pulled my cell out of my Back pocket and walked to the bathroom door and press the talk button/ "yellow?" I said sitting down on the toilet. "NICK?!?!?!" it was Nita she sounded pissed. "whats wrong?" I said as I started to play with my engagement ring "I'll telll you whats wrong.. I got back two hours ago and I check the paper and guess what I see... NICK CARTER REKNDLES LOVE WITH HIS CHILDS MOTHER... now tell me this how much rekindleing did you do?" She asked she sounded very angry. and I was too. "Can this wait till I get there.. Nita.. my dolphine I have a show todo as soon as I get off the plane and this radio person is gonna call un on the satilite thing in fourty minutes and I don't feel like telling you every thing infront of the boys,.." I said as I started rocking back and fourth I needed a beer. "Nick... fine what ever...!" Nita sounded pissed. "hey babe! I'm sorry don't hang up fine I'll talk about it now okay!" I said as I started to get loud. "okay then talk nick persued me not to go take a dorm" She said in her I am not playing voice. "Baby darlin babydoll I love you... your my everything.. I just have a hard time keeping it in my pants okay.. I'm not going to lie cause I love you! And I want you to know the truth... So are you going to stay" I asked slowly biting my bottom lip I didn't want her to leave. "I'll think about it" she hung up the phone. After that we did promotions and stuff in austrailia and I wasn't seen with out a corona With two lemon slices in it in my hand. I was constantly drunk or depressed and I did a show while drunk. And I passed out during a costume change. "Nick man whats wrong with you?" AJ said rolling me on my side "nothin man!" I yelled tring to sit up. "Nick man don't lie to me I've been there man.. just stay down we're cancelling the show you can't perform like this " AJ said kneeling over me he got up and left. The world was a haze. It looked like I was looking threw wax paper. Just then I heard wheels creaking and I was rolled onto streatcher. "can you see my finger" The paramedic said in an austrailian accent moving a finger around in front of my face it looked like it was in double vision and it hurt my head to follow it so I didn't. "yeah I can see it" I snapped trying to sit up Kevin put his hand on my chest "nick it would be best if you stayed down" Kevin said in his low country drawl. I stayed down I was taken to the hospital I had to stay for three days observastion and I had to go to Rehab. And I watched from my hotel bed as they annonced the cancelation of the rest of the tour. I had alcohol poisoning and they had to pump my stomach and the works. It wasn't a good thing. I watched as the fans cried on MTV. I turned off the TV and went to sleep. The next day I was woken up by my mom. "Nicky are you okay?" she said giving me a hug. "MOM I'm okay" I said straightening my sheet.. "I met your girlfirend today... She seems so nice... she has such a good head on her shoulder she told me about how she's going to college and she sang for me she has such a beautiful voice nick just like yours and I think that you two should talk out your problem... I gotta go back to the states cause Aarons tour kicks off tommorw so good bye baby" she kissed my forehead and left the room. My first day back in the states was hell. I wasn't allowed to go home not even for one day. And durning my entire two and a half week stay I didn't get a call or a letter from Nita and she didn't even come see me It made me depressed to think of her not wanting me so it made me want to cry to do something besides sit and think. One day I was told to list the reasons why I drink the paper was labled one threw twenty five and in every single blank I filled in Nita.