*~* The Boys You Don't Know*~*

I all I know is that I'm scared terribly, I'm pregnant with either Nick or AJ's baby...never in my wildest dreams had I ever think that my relationship with Aj would be so awfual, this is just so much for a girl to handel. but I had to get out right after AJ told me he did'nt want to see me, God how harsh and blunt can he be ?" That day right when I left the house I rode for two hours and cried m eyes out, my life was feeling like hell at the moment, I then drove to a nearby resturant to get some chinesefood, so many guys flirted with me but I didn't want anything to do with, I wanted AJ I butIi knew that I couldn't go back to our house hell would just break all over again and I couldn't have anything like me and AJ breaking up that would just kill me..when I finished my meals I then decided to go visit Nita and Nick and stay there for a while until I felt the need to go back and deal with AJ even though I knew there might be a possibility that Nick could be the daddy of my baby I still wanted to talk to Nita for a while there was'n't anyone else that I could trust or talk to about this dilemma. I then go out of my black lexus and saw that door was open, images then ran through my mind making m cry a little even though I tried not too, When I walked in the house there was Nita and Nick making out the couch. The picture just made me gross and want to puke which I had to at that very moment. I ran to the bathroom and puked into the toliet. I came out still those two making out and finally said "God damn if you guys could be any louder then the police would be coming after you two's nasty ass" Nita and Nick jumped up with astonishment seeing that I was standing there right infront of them. I began feeling more nervous seeing Nick with his arms around Nita, then it hit me it reminded me of the times that AJ held me in his arms and kissed me passionatley and left me breathless. I kinda turned my head not really wanting to look at Nick at that moment seeing that could be the second father to my child, and this wasn't good feeling at all. "Hey Court you ok?" asked Nita she could see that I had been crying really bad I then nodded my head and told her everything about what happened right after she and Nick had left my house with AJ storming off into the next room. I could see that nick was listening to what I was telling Nita and he wasn't feeling too good at the moment about what he was hearing So your saying I could be your babies daddy? Nick said as the crease in his brow that perpetually shows up in his brow showed up again. ummm.. no shit sherlock! Nita said turning around and hitting him playfully on the shoulder and then she nipped at his neck.

Can you be serious for a moment? I am having a crisis and all you guys are here making out, acting like this doesn't involve Nick as well but it does I said as I sat down on the chair and started crying Nick took a step backwards like it just hit him. can I stay here for a few days? cause I really don't wanna be around AJ till I know whose Baby it is I said as I glanced over the seemingly distressed couple.

Nita looked like she was about to cry This isn't Fair! She said and she broke down in tears and ran up the stairs. Wait baby! Nick said as he walked to the bottom of the stairs. He the looked up for a second and then walked back. so what's gonna happen? I said looking Nick over he didn't look angry he looked hurt and alone all the sparks that were in his eyes when he was with Nita seemed to have be smothered out by her absence. “You can stay I guess He said rubbing the back of his neck as he looked around the room it seemed awkward being in a room alone with him now after me and him had our moment of passion which was more like both of us envisioning that we were screwing our lovers instead each other. so I should just sleep on the couch then? I asked as I crossed my legs and looked up at him, he seemed to be refusing to meet my eyes. uhh yeah I'm gonna go up stairs now so Goodnight he said as he headed for the stairs ten minutes later he threw down a pillow and a comforter. I went to sleep.

I was awakened at about five in the morning by loud moans coming from up stairs. I placed a pillow over my head to try to drowned it out but it didn't work so I walked up stairs only to find the bedroom door wide open. I could see everything. I screamed. What the FUCK! I screamed and Nita fell off the bed. Nick was lying on the bed out of it. HE was flushed I walked in to see that Nick hadn't even tried to cover him self up and Nita was still on the floor go down stairs I'll be down in a minute! She yelled poping her head up from behind the bed.

After about ten minutes I could hear them coming down the stairs "how could you do that to me!!??" Nita sounded very pissed off "What I have no controll over that" Nick said "yes you do... I can't believe you came before we even got started! I mean... damn is that what seeing me naked does to you?" she said teasingly I could tell by her tone. but this was a conversation I really didn't want to be hearing "Yes that and more!" "nick not now... courtney will be able to see!" "shhh... not if you don't make a sound then she won't know we're down here now shh..." "No.. lemme past!" "why should I let you pass??" "uhh... what ever!" Nita then emerged in the kitchen with a smile on her face wearing her favoite T-shirt and a pair of Capris.. "so are we gonna do that DNA thingie today?? you called right?? oh wait I called didn't I?" She said as she pranced off to the fridge to grab the orange juice she seemed to have the spiring of a ballerina. She then poured her self a glass and set it on the counter then she left the Orange juice next to the glass mean while Nick had came down the stairs in shorts and no shirt "ma petitte fille..... you called.. remember last night after you had your little I'm gonna whine and cry cause I wasn't the first one of my friends to be on mister Nicky's wild ride..." he then pimp laughted (IE:he heeeeeee) "Wild my ass!" I said as Nita then paused her shoulders slumped "NiNi whats wrong?" I asked as she pulled down a box of Count Chocula. she paused and wiped her tears "Nu-nu-nothing..." her voice waivered Nick then walked over to her and kissed her cheek and turned her reluctently around. Her eyes were red rimmed and she was shaking "now really... whats wrong?" I asked as I put my hands on my hips. She took a deep breath and started to cry again.

"Is this about the baby or the relationship between you and nick?" I asked as I frowned "... how you and Nick.... you knowed and... how the baby might be his... and how... I mean what will happen after all this!" She sobbed out as she hopped on the counter top.I sighed. "Look first of all we don't know if the baby really is Nicks... lets look on the bright side it could be AJ's" I then smiled and after we ate we left. When we got there it was tests tests tests I got in at nine and I got out at three. They said they'd call us to tell us the results. Nita and I were both shaking violently by the time we left. When we got home we did nothing but pace. We got a call three hours later. "you pick it up!" I said handing the cordless to Nita the phone rang "no you pick it up it's your kid" she handed it back to me the phone rang "I'll pick it up" Nick said as he clicked the button "hello?" "ummmhummm...... ummm huh...... here she is" Nick then handed the cordless to me "HEllo?" I said nervuosly

"Is this Courtney Marie Boyd?" the voice on the other line said it was distinkedly male "uhhhh,..... yeah" I replyed "well the results of your test are that it's a 99.9% probability that Nickolas Gene Carter is your childs father" "okay....... Thank you" Inside I was ready to explode I hit the button and I betrayed all my emotions "so.... who's is it?" Nita said as she grabbed Nicks arm and squeezed she looked so frightened. I almost couldn't bring my self to tell her. "It's Nick's" I said is an almost silent voice. I watched as her big green eyes fill with tears I had always thought as of her as my little sister and it broke my heart to see her hurt like this and to have me be the cause. Nick looked at nita who had since lets go of his arm "shit" nick said almost to him self as nita started sobbing loudly the only thing that was going threw my mind was "why did I go and tell them and why did I fuck him in th first place"

"Nita I am so sorry!" I said she didn't even look up at me "I know this and I'm not mad at either of you" Nita said as she stood up and started to walk up the stairs. I looked at Nick "hmmmm... man... what else could go wrong" Nick didn't even look really sad he looked more like he was still thinking. He took a deep breath. "What now...." He said as he sighed "I'm gonna go upstairs and talk to Nita" I walked up the stairs I noticed that the bedroom door was closed for a change. So I walked in the bed was made and there was a note on the comforater.

"I just can't take it any more!... Nick or Courtney who ever reads this I just want you to know that it's not because of you guys... It's just because I can't handle this anymore... and I don't think I could ever look at your child and not get some what angry... I love you guys and I'm sorry... I'm so sorrt by the time you guys get up here and read this I'll be dead.... I'm sorry... Nita" I then put down the note and looked around the room. I then noticed the door to the balcony was open. I walked out there to find Nita shakking and standing on the railing.

"Nita Don't!" I yelled as I ran up next to her and pulled her over back on the other side she hit the floor of the balcony with a loud thud. "Why not... Your having Nicks baby and I'm not... you have done everything I have ever dreamed of doing! just let me..." she said as she the wiped her tears away I heard foot steps and looked behinde me Nick was there holding the note he looked like he was about to cry. "you caught her before she did it? please say yes" Nick said as he stood almost motionless looking at Nitas body "yeah I caught her" After I said that Nick ran over dropped to his knees picked up Nita and pulled her close to him. he beried his face in her hair and said something in auditable. We then walked back in side with Nick tring to get his arm around Nita... but every time he tried she pushed him away... We had pizza for dinner and we ate in the bedroom. something me and AJ never did Nita kept her self at arms length from nick at all time. we watched videos for hours untill about three when I got a call from AJ "baby... I'm sorry about eairlyier can you forgive me?" AJ said he souned so sweet and I wanted to cry "AJ... I forgive you but..." "but what" I felt nervose I really didn't want to tell him at all I didn't want him to know that the baby was Nicks but he'd probably know as soon as he saw it because the features would probably be very pale. "the baby... isn't yours... it's Nick's" I said slowly I broke out in tears expecting to have him scold me but he didn't. "ummm... thats okay... so how are nick and Nita taking it..." Aj didn't even sound upset fully "Are you upset?" I said as I took the phone down stairs awayfrom where Nita or Nick could hear "yeah kind of baby but theres nothing I can do if the baby was ment to be mine the it would have been mine... so I'm not really upset just alittle sad so how are Nick and Nita taking it..."

"Nita tried to kill her self.... and-"Aj cut me off "What?... when... wow I knew that must have hurt her alot last time I was talking to Nick he was talking about how much she was talking about haveing kids... but they haven't even... you knowed yet... She's okay now right and what about nick?" "I don't know if she's okay she's shoving her self away from nick now... and I don't know how Nick is taking it cause he's not really showing his emotions you know..." I then sat down on the couch. "yeah he's not into that... well I guess I'll drop by to pick you up in the morning..... love ya" he then hung up the phone. and I felt good all over. I whent back up stairs to find Nita Yelling at Nick "I hate you!" she screamed from the opposite side of the room

"Nita calm down" Nick said as Nita picked up a glass and threw it accross the room "No.... I hate everything about you!... I hate your stench... I also hate your homely, plain; bizarre, grotesque; repelling, repugnant, repulsive; unattractive, uninviting, unpleasing looks as well" she the walked over to one of the dressers and opened the top drawer "you don't mean this your just angry" she pulled out a playboy and then took out her lighter "you know what I also hate......." she smiled "no" "oh yes... I hate dirty magizines!" she the lit the magizine on fire blew it out then ripped in in little peices and threw them at him... "I hope that was the one you wack off to regularly too!... and now I must leave Adieu ass hole" she said as she walked down the stairs... you could then hear the car door slam and a car squieling away. For an hour after that Nick sat on the bed and cried his eyes out. he confided in me he told me everything. "you know I love her right... she is everything to me... she lights up my whole world..." Nick said as he sobbed loudly he was a pitiful site to see cry "yeah I know... so what did you do that made her snap?" I said as I sat on the bed next to him and put my hand on his back like a mother would do. "Nothing she just kept looking at me and then all of a sudden she just moved and sat on the other side of the room and then started yelling and throwing things she just snapped" Nick then looked up at me "I wanna go after her so bad but I know she doesn't wanna see me" Nick said as he stood up and got off the bed and pulled a shirt on "Why shouldn't we go after her?" I said getting up and crossing my arms "because she'll be in super bitch mode and I don't wanna see that... I really don't she scares the crap outta me when she's like this she reminds me so much of Mandah that I wanna hide in the corner and cry" he then sobbed and wiped his tears away with the back of his hand. "so lets go..." I said as I walked down the stairs Nick followed behind me and turned off the lights we then got in my Black Lexus and drove off to find Nita... which would be like finding a needle in a hay stack since we've only been here a few days..." I trailed off as we drove past a beach parking lot... and there was what looked like nicks prowler sitting in the parking lot "hey pull over!" Nick said as glanced at the car. I quickly pulled over nick got out and looked at the licence plate that read "MYBABY" on it "it's mine..." he ran his hand along the side of it and walked toward the ocean after taking off his shoes. after walking for ten minutes he gave up and I ran over to him "maybe she dropped the car cause she figured you'd know it was yours she is smart like that" I said as I rubbed his back... "hey don't give up yet" I then smiled and pulled him by the wrist down the beach after ten more minutes nick stopped and started crying again "we're not gonna find her this is it!.... no more Nick and Nita... the love of my life has rejected me again..." "calm down Nick we'll find her" "no we won't...." his voice trailed off as he looked at a small rocky part near the shoreline "nick whats..." I then turned around and saw it some one was sittin on the rocks and they had long long hair like Nitas. Nick took off I don't think anythin could have stopped him when he got there the person took off it was Nita for sure. Nick had no hope of catching her. cause she was FAST. she ran right past me. carring her sneakers and she suddenly tripped on something and Nick caught up to her and held her down. "whats wrong... why are you doing this?" Nick said as he frowned I kept my distance "I dunno... I just... I dunno I wanna have you hold me but at the same time I wanna hurt you... I feel like I've been pulled inside out.. I mean when she has it your gonna be a daddy and then we'll be no more...and I don't want that I wanna have lots of kids with you and if you already have one you might not want more" She then started crying again

"Shh... It'll be okay... courtney will have the baby if she wants to but AJ will be it's real daddy and I'll take care of our babies okay?" Nita nodded and Nick kissed her it was one of those beautiful passionate kisses that make you wanna say awwe. but I didn't. Nick then helped Nita up and put her in the backseat of my car, took the keys out of her pocket closed the door started up the prowler and drove towards his house. when we got there I turned off the car and looked at Nita who was staring blankly out the window "are you okay?" I said as I looked back at her she looked a mess her eyes were red rimmed and her hair was all messed up as well. "yeah I guess" She replyed as she opened the car door and got out I got out too "are you mad at me and Nick?" I said as we walked toward the door she stopped in her tracks in and looked at me. "I don't know... I really don't!" she said as she started to cry again. she then walked in the house. and I followed close behind.

That Night her and Nick didn't sleep in the same room Nick gave her the bed room and he sleept on the pool table in the game room. In the middle of the Night I was woken up by some one nudging my shoulder. "courtney!... you awake girl?" It was Nick clad in his pajamas ( a pair of flannle pajama pants and no shirt) "yeah well now I am" I said as I sat up on the couch "Do you wanna talk cause I think we need to work out this whole baby thing... since it is mine... and ummm... well ....."Nick trailed off and just looked at me. "you don't have to be it's daddy!" I said as I smiled and looked at him. "yeah but everytime I see the kid I'm gonna think... That's mine... I made that you know... and I'm not sure if me and Nita are gonna last now... she seems pretty messed up" Nick said as his shoulder slumped alittle "well I think she'll get over it hopefully I think all she need right now are a pair of strong arms to hold her and a pair of lips to kiss her" I smiled at Nick who actually had to think about it "oh... you mean I should go and talk with her? and tell her things are gonna be okay and stuff like that? do you know about the Backstreet Girlfriends show?" Nick said quickly cahnging the subject "Yes and yeah I can't stand the damn thing!" I said shaking my head "well I was gonna propose to Nita on there Next week but I don't think thats gonna happen now... we leave for newyork tommorrow for a whole Backstreet week on MTV and on the last day I was gonna propose to her...

I designed the perfect ring and I had a designer in New York tweek it abit and make it look perfect... all I had to do was pick it up next tuseday and propose to her on friday on the last show... but I don't know whats gonna happen now.. and It's eating me up from inside so slowly it's painful" he sighed "listen go to sleep I'm sure she'll have her head together by morning... I'm sure of it she just needs time to cool down" Just then Nicky the pug jumped up on the couch and started barking. "yeah well I hope your right... I cant stand to see her like this and you know that.. It hurts me so much... and it maked me realise I much I care for her... and that makes me vaulnerable and I hate being vulnerable... and I don't know what I'd go if she got hurt!" Nick sobbed and wiped a way a tear "I think yo should really go to bed Nick your getting way too emotional!"I said as Nick picked up and and scratched the minature dogs head "I guess so.. see ya in the morning" Nick said as he stood up and walked down the hallway and to the game room holding Nicky.