Broken HeartsThe next morning, the boys had to get up early and start work on photo shoots and some more filming. I had dreaded this day...it was Friday, the day I had to leave. I did not sleep well last night and I had all these emotions bottled up inside me. I didn't feel like talking about it right now. I did not want to leave and have to say goodbye to the boys, especially Nick. I had grown so fond of him in the last week or two. Well, I finally got up and realized that it was 9am. I got out of bed and took a hot shower, dressed and packed what I had in the bedroom and took it to the rental car. I went back in and went to the boys' room to see if they were there. Good, they weren't, because I didn't think I could take it. From there, I went to my office downstairs. It was so sad knowing that I had to pack it all up and go, leaving all the memories behind. I sat down and debated whether to even write a goodbye letter. Finally, I decided that I should, at least to be fair to them. Tears filled my eyes as I wrote. I never in the world thought that I would have to say goodbye for forever. ----------------------------------------------------------------- Dear Boys, If you are reading this now, I’m already gone. Sorry, it had to be this way. I wish that I didn't have to write this. I did what I thought was right, and look where it got me. When did doing the right thing turn into a bad thing? Anyways... I want you to know that the time we have worked and shared together has been great. I will treasure all those memories, the good and the bad. You guys are the best. I have never met more kinder, outgoing, funny, dedicated people in my life. Thank you so much for making me feel so welcome and a part of the Backstreet family. This is so hard for me to write. I never thought that I'd have to say goodbye to you guys. Well... whatever you do, you must promise me never to let go of your dreams and follow your heart because your futures are bright, and never let anyone tell you otherwise. You guys are a part of me and I take you wherever I go. I will miss you so much. I just hope in return that you will not forget me. God bless and take care. Love & Kisses, *~Brie~* --------------------------------------------------------------- I also wrote a letter to each of the boys. I put them together in an envelope and sealed it. From there, I looked around my office, thinking. I felt that I should start packing. I packed up plaques, decorations, picture frames, files but left the files that were needed for my.... *gulp* .... replacement. It filled box after box. I took it all down slowly to the car. During my running back and forth, Howie was standing around back in the distance where the guys and crew were and turned and noticed that I was putting a lot of boxes in the car. Finally, the last box was in and I went in. I bumped into Fatima and asked her if she could take me to the airport. She said she could and I hurriedly went back to office. I grabbed the letter off my desk, fingering it in my hand, wondering whether or not to give it to them. I finally got up the courage to go upstairs and slipped it under their door. I turned and put my hand on the door and said my last goodbyes out loud, even though no one was there. I turned and left with my eyes filled with tears. I went down the stairs and out the door. I shut the trunk of the car and looked back in the distance at the guys one last time, got in and we left. Meanwhile, Howie had seen me get in and drive off. Then he was needed and had forgotten all about it.
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