*Always You & I*We got there sooner than I wanted, then the horrifying test began. Before I went in, Nick faced me and gave me a hug.
“ Just be brave and we’ll get through this…. I love you.” Giving me a kiss.
He had to wait in the waiting room. He tried to sort out his nerves, since they were all jumpy…and after while he could not stand the silence and the pain of not knowing. He got up and called my best friend Katie from the hospital.
“Hello?”
“Katie, hey, this is Nick”
“Hi, what are you calling me at this godly hour for? You know people do need their sleep.”
“ Katie, you have to come down to the hospital, quick.”
“What for? Nick, what is the matter? What is going on?”
“Just get down here as fast as you can, ok?”
“I am on my way.”
“Thanks.”
“Bye”
“Bye”
About 15 minutes later, Katie came through the door and gave Nick a hug and asked what was wrong.
" Somebody broke into the house and tried to steal some things, and they think that he might have raped Brie”
“Oh my god” was her only reply. She sat down and Nick filled her in with all the details. She was so distraught that she could hardly speak.
“I’m waiting for her to get finished with the exam.”
About a half hour later…. A nurse comes out and Nick and Katie stand up and the nurse informs them that the exam is finished.
“How is she? Is she ok?”
“ First, I think that I should let you know that Brie was a victim of statuatory rape. There is some damage done but I don’t think that it will interfere with her being able to have a child. Emotionally, she is how most women are after this type of assault. She’s scared and very vulnerable. Remember, she’s been through a great ordeal so I would be careful of what you say and do because it might upset her. “
“ I understand…”
“Can I go in and see her?” Katie asked. The nurse nodded yes and Katie told Nick that she would bring her out in a few minutes. When Katie opened the door to my room, I was sitting on the table crying and she came up to me and gave me a great big hug.
“Nick told me everything. Are you okay?”
“No, I am not okay! This… this was horrible, not to mention this whole terrifying night” “Did the nurse tell you the results yet?”
I cried harder. “He…he raped me, Katie!”
“ I am so sorry, Brie.. I am so so sorry that you had to go through this.”
“It.. it was so awful.. I don’t even remember it.”
“I know, sweetie.”
“This is going to destroy everything.”
“What do you mean?”
“My life, my family, my relationship with Nick.. Everything.. the promise that I made to myself was broken.. I am not a virgin anymore. I wanted to save it for the man I love, the man I marry. We both made the promise to each other.”
She took my hand and said “ oh, honey. “What he did to you was awful and I can’t imagine how hard this must be, but I don’t think that this will change anything between you and Nick.”
"Yes it will. I swore to him that I would save myself for him… that we would show each other how we truly felt about each other on our wedding night, both being virgins together. He… he wont want to now… not after this.”
“Yes, he will”
“How do you know?”
“I just know, trust me. This guy forced sex on you. You didn’t consent.”“No, it’s also the fact that another guy touched me! Not to mention that he had sex with me.” I turned away from her and looked at the wall “God, Katie, this is horrible. Nick is going to hate me..”
“No he isn’t.. He is waiting for you out there, worried sick about you. I know that you can get through this."
“I am glad your so sure.”
From there Katie turned and left the room , leaving me to get dressed and try to calm down some. She went back out the waiting room were Nick sat almost going out of his mind.
“Did you see her? How is she?”
“Yes, I saw her, she’s not too great.”
He ran his hand through his hair. “Damnit to hell… I hate this… She must be so scared and hurt. I gotta go see her.”She took his arm and said
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