The four of them soon sat
out by the pool. Matt sat on the steps that led down into the pool with Leah
in his arms. Jeff and Amy where diving from the diving board at the other end.
but they soon got bored and joined Leah and Matt.
"How is this going to
work?" Jeff asked.
"What work
Jeff?" Matt asked as he kissed Leah's shoulder.
"Us, the four of
us." Jeff stated as he watched Leah look at the three people around her.
Matt felt her tense up.
"I don't know yet.
All I know is I'm in love with you and Leah."
"And I'm in love with
you and Leah." Jeff followed.
"I'm in love with
Leah."
"And I'm in love with
all three of you." She said laughing at herself.
"What if we all live
in one house instead of three?" Matt said still trying to get Leah to
relax.
"That would be
better. At least Leah wouldn't have to choice a house to stay at."
"HEY!" Leah said
moving from Matt so she stood in front of the three of them. "Can you
talk to me instead of over my head!" She put her hands on her hips, which
were just under the water surface. The three faces just looked at her,
apologetic expressions on their faces. "It's a contest of who i pick to
stay with each night. I don't know how this is going to work but I just know
that some how, no matter how hard we try someone is going to end up getting
hurt."
"No one will Leah." Jeff said moving
in the water so he was next to her. Leah moved away from him and he took it as
a hint and he sat back down.
"Maybe if we do all live together it will
be easier, but people would start the Matt and Amy rumours again and you know
how much you hate them. I want what is best for the four of us but..."
"But what?" Amy prompted after Leah
fell silent.
"But...I just sometimes feel that the best
thing is...is for me to leave." Leah said as she turned her eyes down to
stare into the water.
"No Leah." Jeff said going to her
again. "How could you say that? we are all in love with you. If you want
what's best for us then don't leave, that would hurt us more than
anything."
"I do but...if i hadn't of shown up here,
if i hadn't of gone on the date with Matt then none of this would be happening
and you three would be in normal relationships."
"Leah." Amy said joining Leah and Jeff. "Don't you see that for
us this is normal? Can't you see that for us being in love with you is what we
know as normal?"
"I can't see that. look at it this way.
Matt and Jeff are brothers...and lovers...me and Matt are lovers, me and Jeff
are lovers and me and you are lovers...that's not what i call normal."
"Then maybe it isn't what you want."
Matt said from his spot on the steps. Leah looked up to him and nodded.
"Maybe it isn't." She said as she
climbed up past the three of them and out of the pool. She grabbed a towel as
she walked into the house and up the stairs to the room known as 'hers'. She
let the tears that had been stinging her eyes fall down her cheeks as she
crashed onto the bed. She curled up into the covers and pulled them over her
head.
Was this what she really wanted? Could she
handle the tangled web she had weaved? Could she lead a life like this? Who
did she love most? Matt? Jeff? Amy? Or did she just love them but wasn't
actually in love with them?
