Chapter Seventeen
Breyana arrived home around 3 in the morning. Her flight was long due to the layover in Denver. When she got through the door of her house she realized how much she missed home. She couldn't help but wonder how AJ was coping with the way she left. She wanted to call him but knew if she did she would want to go back to him. As she walked through her house, she couldn't help but remember things that happened between her and AJ. Her house was filled with memories of him. She knew this was going to be a difficult 2 days. Breyana made her way into her bedroom and noticed the answering maching blinking on her nightstand. It said that she had 8 messages. "Eight messages" she thought, "I checked the machine in Denver, how could there be 8" she casually said aloud to herself. As Breyana pressed play on the machine she decided to sort through months of mail that Lynn made sure to bring in for her. The first message was AJ pleading with her to come back. It made her cry. She heard his voice and her heart started to ache. About 6 of the eight messages were AJ asking her to call him and begging her to come back. The last message she heard was Brian. "B, it's Brian, I'm calling to let you know that I don't think AJ is doing well. I know you've only been gone for a short time, but when I told him that you didn't want him to call you, he snapped. I didn't want to stay in the room for fear of my life..he tried to joke and make the situation a little less stressfull..but I figured I would let you know. B, I'm starting to think this wasn't such a good idea." Brian said with concern in his voice. "Anyways, I just called to keep you updated like you asked. I'll see ya in two days. LeighAnne said that she was going to pick you up at the airport, so take care and try to relax." After hearing the message from Brian, Breyana wanted to jump on the next plane back to AJ but she knew that she couldn't. She wanted to trust him and knew this is what she needed to do to know if she could trust him.
AJ didn't sleep at all that night. He felt hurt by Breyana's request of not calling her. He tried to understand why she was doing all of this but his anger wouldn't let him. He knew Brian would be keeping a close eye on him the next two days to make sure he didn't screw up. AJ tried to call Breyana one last time hoping she would pick up the phone but she didn't. It was alomst 4 in the morning and still no sleep. AJ tossed and turned that whole night. He wasn't used to sleeping without Breyana next to him. He missed her terribly. AJ thought to himself, "I must really love her if I miss her this much. It's only been 8 hours since she left." Finally around 5 in the morning he fell asleep.
Breyana was starteled out of a sound sleep the next morning by noise in her kitchen. The only people that had keys to her house were Lynn and AJ. She knew it wasn't AJ and thought it must be Lynn. As Breyana walked down the hallway she was happy to see her best friend. "Hi Lynn" Breyana said. "Hey Brey, how've you been and why are you home? I wasn't expecting you to be here. I came by for my daily house check." Lynn explained. Breyana explained to Lynn that AJ wanted her to move in with him and the reason she was home was to figure out if it was the right thing to do. Lynn asked Breyana how AJ took all this and Breyana told her that he didn't take it well at all. "Why wouldn't you want to be with AJ"? Lynn asked. "I do, I just want to make sure that he is "The One". Breyana told her friend. "Brey, I know you love him. I can see it in your eyes. Life is full of chances. You can't back away whenever a serious decision needs to be made." Lynn explained to her friend. "I'm not trying to make life difficult for AJ, I missed my home, my life, my "friend", and also my family." Breyana retorted. "Why couldn't you wait the extra week and then come home with AJ? I'm sure he wants to see everyone also." Lynn replied. "Why is everyone giving me crap on this one"? Breyana said in a loud voice. "Cause Brey, it just doesn't make sense. You guys are so perfect. You just told me about how you celebrated your one year anniversary and now here you are at home contemplating wheather you should move in with him?" What decision is there really to make? What are you afraid of? Your family isin't going to leave you and neither am I for that matter. Who cares about your job, if you want to work, find a job in Florida. If you ask me Brey, the whole thing doesn't make sense." Lynn said sternly to her friend. "Well, I didn't ask you did I" Breyana shot back. "Well, I would at least call him and let him know you got in okay. He's probably worried sick". Lynn commented. "I'll call Brian and tell him I got in okay". Breyana said. "Whatever, I can't tell you how to live your life, but just know that you just might be the one screwing up this time." Lynn left after making her last comment to Breyana.
Breyana sat down at her kitchen table and decided to finish going through her mail. She didn't get very far the night before. As she looked over all her mail she noticed a letter from AJ in the stack. She opened it and read what it said. It seems that every week since Breyana came on tour with him, he would write a letter and mail it to her house. They were letters of his feelings for her and of his personal thoughts of their relationship. It seems that whenever he would get frustrated, he would write. After Breyana read all the letters she felt awful for what she was doing to AJ. "He really does love me" she thought to herself. Breyana got up to collect the morning paper from her doorstep. As she read it she came across an article that was about her. The title read..."Is She Home For Good" and the caption said.."Breyana Thoss, girlfriend of AJ McLean of the Backstreet boys returns home". The picture they had was of Breyana getting off the plane looking awful. After reading the article Breyana questioned herself..."Do I really want to live my life out in the open like this. Do I want my every move in the media?" Her thoughts were disturbed by the ringing of the phone. "Hello" she said. "Hey B, it's Brian, I see you landed okay." "Yeah, I got in around 3 last night. How's everything?" She inquired. "Well, do you want the sugar coated version or the real version" Brian replied. "I want the real version Brian. How is AJ holding up?" "Not good. He didn't want to get out of bed today, and so far, he has managed to chew everyone out." Brian told Breyana. "I think he is really mad at you this time Breyana." "Well, I'll be back soon enough. Just tell him that I love him and I will see him in Orlando. I know you guys will be on the bus the for the next day so try to keep his spirits up okay Brian?" Brian replied, "I'll try, but it won't be easy."
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