i remember injections of air into my arm,
reading the bible while a man was
crying,
'hes a lifer for sure strapped down,
feel the fear,i keep trying to die,
keep waking up,
swallowed my dixie cup, found glass in the solitary
room,im
gonna die, damn right they yelled back, so i
cut, pulled something out my arm,
gotta find an
artery, blood squirts.
they took peoples eyes , took peoples money
for being
sick, made me sick, took my faith in anything. why
live in a world
where you kill or be killed? i found
christ that way, nothing left but prayers ,
please
don't let that be my brother in there , with no eyes,
and half a foot
missing.catatonic shit himself, hasn't
been fed all week, i fed him,believe it
or not he
thanked me,the only way im gonna survive is to help
others survive.i
cant believe this place exist.i hear
my brother screaming,over schizophrenic
laughing
babbling, incoheirant, i couldn't sleep for two weeks,
pain on top of
pain on top of pain. and im sorry for
saying i came here sick, and left here
sicker. but its
true
2
i aint scared and i dont know why either,
bri drives by
in is purple low rider,
kid grew up in polk youth center,
where a guard hit him
so hard, that he's still seeing stars,
and stripes, down in fayettnam ,
outlined
in black lights,
late nights,
crack ho, pointer to nose,
street poetry flows ,
dyslexic , counting out doe, fingers and toes,
old school as hell, like
'nobody
knows',
i aint scared and i dont know why either,
i got a court appointed guilty
pleader,
i;ll get three a day,
meals and a bunk,
i'll sober up and still wont
give a fuck,
never sais i was hard , delt low cards,
or stuck on some side of
some tracks,
cant remember speaking truth,
but the i take that back,
concieled
realities
in oragami,
folds, i make statues with my collection of gods broken
molds, stories get told,
exagerate,
grow like mold,
truth spills steamin hot,
skin scolds,
red like lips,
secrets slip,
now we're at the bk, bri is talking
shit to the D.A.
throwin 'c' for crips, I;m wondering if,
hes ever gonna stop
pushin while they;re pullin,
his hairlip spittin droolin,
rabid dog vision, deep
in his eyes you see the bakin
soda fissin,
told the A.D.A tpo suck his dick
while he's jizzin,
says peopele like her fuck up like fission,
competes with
cell division,
and this situations repitition, got me under
susspicion,
cause
bri keeps talkin,
cant go no where , without them watching,
hopes my new
religion,
always gotta try,
decrease lateral tention so i can fly, up outta
here,
illegal means to get my provisions,
wishin my kids were near,
if i could
slow down change gear,
without getting locked down,
coanda effect got me flowing
like a river,
i aint scared and i dont know why either,
heart beating slow while
i reconcider,
life and death,
all of the sudden shit matters,
bri's sawed off,
blood spatters,
caught a bullet with his grill,
jaw shattered,
three days in icu,
kid is asking why, i have no answer,
3 yr old kid holdin tears,
learning to deal
with fears,
it was cld as hell last winter,
smokin antifreeze,
no pleasure,
i
was wondering about bri, no see in long time,
bass down the block, like summer
thunder,
then bri drove by in his purple low rider,