Mood:  a-ok

Well, we're decorating for Christmas.  The Sisters forgot to tell me that they'd start decorating yesterday so I had other plans.  Had to get some Christmas shopping done.  I picked up my friend Mindy and we went to the mall.

I found some neat lavender lemon scented candles.  I hope that they really burn to smell as good as they did in the store.  This is the first Christmas that I actually bought a few things for myself as I was shopping for my relatives.  I usually can contain myself long enough not to waste money like that.  Sheesh...we all know that things there can be grossly over-priced at the mall.  Should have went to Traders' World again.  But there I couldn't get the name brand things that my siblings want.

My last book talk with the vocation director and Sr N was soooo embarressing to me.  There were some things brought up that were too personal.  I was so embarressed that I could do nothing but laugh at myself.  I wonder how many shades of red I turned. And to top it all off, I cried in front of the both of them.  Why am I such a baby sometimes? That night I cried myself to sleep. 

Today Sr R came over.  It's been awhile since I've seen her.  Given that she was on sabatical.  It was nice that she stayed for lunch and helped with the decorations a little.

I hope that I'll hear some time that I can become a postulant.  I'm too nervous to ask that straight out though.  I'm afraid that what happened with the last vocation director will happen again.

Peace!