"What do you think of her?" Trunks said nodding towards a brunette in the corner, who was obviously eyeing one of the two. Sighing Goten narrowed his eyes and looked at Trunks, "she is looking at you" he said raising a perfect eyebrow.
"She isn't." Trunks said as he nudged him in the ribs, "go talk to her" he urged. Goten felt his cheeks burning with embarssment and the rush of the chase. Or could be chase. "Er. .. I can't. I told you~she is looking at YOU" Goten whispered heatedly.
"You are chicken aren't you?" Trunks snickered towards his friend.
"I AM NOT" Goten whispered back with just as much venom. "Then talk to her" Trunks challenged.
"What do I have to lose? EVERYTHING! Everything there is to lose. I mean. . .he is TRUNKS BEST FRIEND" I exclaimed as I rubbed my forehead in grief. Giggling Marron said nothing for a moment as I felt her stare on my face for a moment. Turning to her, my eyes narrowed, my mouth set in a firm scowl, "What?" I challenged.
"Nothing. . .You are just so much like Trunks." she said smiling slightly. "I am nothing like him" I insisted as I stood up in a sweeping manner as I clenched my hands together and walked towards the balcony edge and peered past it to the secret stars hidden in the dark skies. Ever since childhood I romanticized that each star was about a lovers story. And soon my story with Goten would be among the many. But slowly I had begun to let that go. Marron followed me towards the balcony as she leaned against it, her blonde hair tumbling around her, "Tell him." she said gently.
Saying nothing for a moment I let the air in my lungs completely disappate before I opened my mouth to let any air, or the thoughts into my body.
"Why? What could I say?" I said as I finally turned my sharp features to her heart shaped face. Her blue eyes stared into mine as she smiled sadly, "You know I really did love Trunks. But I couldn't even admit that to the GREAT Trunks. Dende forbid. And I think he almost loved me. . .but he~being the GREAT Trunks wouldn't ever admit that to me. So we left one another. The end. It wasn't some great dramatic loss. But I do regret it" she said gently. Staring at her for a moment I said nothing. . .the thoughts of what could happen ran through my mind. Regret or humilation. Shrugging her bare shoulders Marron walked away and towards the doors. Freezing the muscles in my body I listened to the exhaling of the door as Marron left me with only her words. "She loved Trunks?" I said thoughtfully but snorted at the same time. Exhaling I let the image of Goten infiltrate my mind.
Wringing his hands together Goten could almost feel the sweat accumulating on his brow. He would rather be facing the wraith of Vejita in the Gravity Room then where he was at that moment. The brunette didn't even grant him the thought of him being somewhat secretive about his intentions as she blantantly watched him approach her. Biting his lower lip he tried to compose himself. He would compose himself. Her bright green eyes smiled tenderly as he finally reached her as she pushed back her curly brown hair as her friend that stood next to her squeezed her arm and excused herself. Face to face with one another, Goten almost felt his heart explode as she said nothing but just stood there, waiting for him, her green eyes shining as her gold streaks in them almost seemed to be racing. "Hi" he finally managed out. Smiling slowly to reveal a set of perfect teeth she nodded slightly, "Hi."
Stuttering he shoved his hands in his pocket and tried to make his eyes look at her, but they weren't cooperating "I-I-I'm Goten. . ." he said finally. Nodding she extended her hand, "I'm Lelina" she said as he ecompassed his hand with hers as he could feel the gentleness behind her touch.
Gathering all the courage I could, as I quieted, or attempted to quiet the slight butterflys in my stomach I walked hesitantly towards the double doors as I imagined beyond them Goten waited. Maybe he would finally be MY Goten, I thought whimsically as I almost lost myself in the fantasy of his touch and love. . .almost. .. Pulling myself back from my fantasies I squeezed my eyes shut tightly for a moment. COMPOSURE. I told myself. Did it help? Does it ever? "He is worth it Bra. Goten is worth the risk of no." I gently told myself aloud. He was worth it. He was going to be worth it.
Trunks watched Goten fumble as he talked to the brunette in the corner, satisfied with his good deed for the day he jumped up from the chair and scanned the room for his own chase. Catching the sight of a well crafted bare back with blonde hair cascading down he raised an eyebrow but stopped in mid step as he watched her turn slowly to the side as Marron's features came into view. Inhaling sharply he narrowed his eyes and wrinkled his nose as he lingered for a moment on her. There was a time when he would have given all of him to her. But he never had enough courage to tell her. And she left him. He was much like his father. Too much than he liked to admit. He'd rather die than admit love. Shaking his head he sighed and turned his attention to the other side of the ballroom as he scanned through the dancing couples seeing if there was anyone worth cutting in for.
Walking slowly through the double doors I could almost feel Goten's breath on my face. Hoping he would be singing words of reciprocal love.
I guess in me I always knew Goten and I would never be. But it still didn't stop me from my attempt at Marron's words.
The noise hit me first as I reentered the mad house. No wonder why my father shied away from these events. Half smiling I couldn't imagine him in a tux, trying to enjoy himself without killing one or two vital execs to Trunks. Giggling at the thought of Trunks turning red from the scenario I tucked away my thoughts as I scanned the room first for Trunks. Not finding a trace of him anywhere I turned my attention back to the matter at hand. Goten. "Tell him. Tell him. Tell him" I repeated to myself as I linked my fingers together. Tonight would be the night I would take myself out of limbo. The night where my fantasy world would meet reality. The night where I learned real love. The night I told Goten I loved him. Searching for Goten I caught sight of his moving back out on the dance floor as I smiled to myself, 'Dancing with his mother. .. how sweet' but before I could carry the thought out any further I narrowed my eyes to see a brunette in his arms. A much younger one than ChiChi. My eyes widening at the sight I almost felt my heart jump into my stomach as the look in his eyes were so familar I almost wanted to die. They were the same look I maifested when I looked at him. It was so familar and so strange. So that was the first night where I took myself out of limbo. That was the first night where my fantasy world collapsed. That was the first of many nights that I didn't tell Goten I loved him. That was the first night where I learned real heart ache. And it hurt.
