My Aunt Jennie was in the hospital. She had suffered with cancer of her spine for some time now. Aunt Rosemary called me to let me know that she was not doing well. I knew that I had to get to Cheyenne, that coming Saturday. Rita suggested we go on Sunday. I knew in my heart that I had to be there on Saturday!

Rita, Erika, Alise and I went. She was very happy to see us! It was so interesting because she had all these questions for me about dying. She asked, "If we were with my Dad when he died." We told her that we were. I told her he died very peaceful and I felt he knew he was dying. I told her that he told us what we meant to him and that it was a very beautiful experience. I told her that he even saw my Mom with a big red teddy bear. The last gift I gave my mom was a big red teddy bear. She seemed to be comforted by what I was telling her. She smiled a lot!

Rita and I would go in her room for a few minutes then leave so that the rest of her family could visit. We did not want to intrude; she had a really large family. We met a few second cousins. We saw first cousins that we had not seen in years. But when we would leave she would call me back in she wanted to talk to me. I think she called me back in five or six time. At one time she asked me where she would be going. I said " Aunt you know where you are going don't you?" She said, "I think I will go to heaven." I told here was going to heaven and she would see her Mom, again. She asked me, "How I knew where she was going." I smiled and said; "that a long time ago I had an aunt that taught me to believe in God." I said, "that Aunt was you." I asked her if she remembered when we use to pray for my Dad when he was drinking. She smiled and said, "yes she remembered." She said, "he finally did stop drinking!" She smiled a big smile! You taught me to believe Aunt and to keep the faith! She smiled and hugged me. She asked me if it would hurt to go to heaven. I tried to reassure her that her loved ones would be waiting for her. "This will be good," she said. I told her that it would be good. I said, "you will see my Dad and my Mom." She said, "your mother was a good mother, she tired very hard." I said, "she did try Aunt." She asked me what Rita and I wanted to tell our Dad, when she sees him in heaven. We told her to tell him that we were doing great and not to worry about us. She said, "I will let him know this." She said, "that she has really missed her Mother even after all these years!" She even cried out Mamacta, Mamacta, I have missed you so! She talked about how young her Mother was when she died. She said, "she was a wonderful lady, but she lived a very hard life!" She said, "I wish it would have been an easier life for her." She said, "it will be so good to see her again, I missed her so much!" It will be so good to see my family again. She asked me if I knew that she never really got over her Mother's death. I told her that I did not know but that it was okay. I told her you loved your mother very much and it would be hard to get over. She was surprised that I could remember my Grandmother. I told her that she was very, very special to me! I felt like my Grandmother has been watching over me all these years. I explained that I had an unbelievable closeness to my Grandmother.

One of the times she called me in to tell me she was tired of suffering but that her family would not let her go. She asked me if I would let her go. I told her if she wanted to go to our Lord, yes I would let her go. She said, "but the rest of my family won't let me go." I told her to ask them if they would let her go. She said, "can I ask them this question?" I said, "yes Aunt you can ask them to let you go." Ted was in the room saying a rosary and she called him over, she told him it was time for her to say goodbye. They hugged, cried and talked. I left the room and told her girls what she had said to me. I told them it would be wonderful if she could have their blessings, then she could die in peace. She started calling her family in to ask them to let her go. She told me that the people that were there would let her go. She told me she did not want any more pain, no more suffering. I need to rest now I am finished here. She told me to ask my Dad to come and get her. She was ready. She asked me, "how do you leave to go to heaven." She said, "she did not know how to do this." I told her she just needs to relax and the Lord will do the rest. She also said, "that she knew that George and Michael would not let her go." She asked me to call Uncle Albert and Uncle Gus to come so that she could ask them to let her go and she could say good-bye. She told me to tell Uncle Pete and Uncle Lloyd good-bye and that she loved them. George came in the room. She asked him to let her go it was time for her to go. She said, "I told Victoria to ask Alfred to come and get me." George insisted on praying for her healing. He kept asking him not to do that! Ted tried to explain to George what his Mom was asking; he did not want to hear it. She kept telling him it was time for her to go. She pleaded with him to let her go they both cried together.

We went back to see her the next weekend, she was not doing well. She could not talk any longer. She just laid there and moaned. I asked her daughters how much medication she was on. They said the same amount she has been on. I told them they can ask the doctor to give her more if they felt like she was in pain. I felt she was in pain. I explained to them that she was dying anyway so the medicine would not harm her. So they talked to the doctors and more medication was given.

I now realize why I was suppose to be there that Saturday, my Aunt Jennie needed to talk to me. For some reason she felt I was safe and she was able to talk to me about her fears and her needs. I feel really blessed by this experience!