Help
I woke up. Head hurts now. Throat congested. Cold. Need Sleep but can't. Need out of here. Need job. Incoherent. No one cares. Everyone has their own shit. Fuck I can't move out. I need a good job and to get back in school. I miss my Robby Boy.

WILL YOU
I still can't really go out. Well I can but everyone is doing there own shit today. I may call Katie but she's going through a lot of shit. :-\ We're going to be moving out, hopefully in 6 months. I need a job and I'm checking out apartments in Alhambra. I really want to move out with her...I'd rather we have a rocky first couple of months before I let her family throw her on the street. Fuck, where are all my friends now?

@_@
I feel dizzy. I can't concentrate. I can't look at the computer screen. My eyes burn. I can't sit up straight. I look like I'm drunk. Where's all my sluts and whores? No one's online. I feel abadoned. Rob=probably crashing. Katie=restricted from computer. Alex=Riverside. Brett=Aunt's house. Matt=who the fuck knows? Heather=who the fuck cares? Jinney=no idea. Audrey=no idea but a good guess. That covers the major people. I have almost completely lost my voice.

FUCK CHRISTMAS 2
Stupid Alex made me drive all the way back to Alhambra when I was fucking asleep at the wheel. I drove to North Hills to LA, to Alhambra, to North Hills, drove around North Hills, back to Alhambra, back to LA. Got home at 1 this morning. Slept almost the whole morning. I thought it was like 6:30 when I got up but it was 8:30. I hope to see my Rob on New Year's Eve. Alex...YOU FUCKING OWE ME >.< I need a job badly. I'm moving out with Katie soon. Alex can't get his shit together and he honestly thinks he can get a free ride by living with me and Katie and not working. I'm going to have it hardest, balancing school and work as well as my own place. I need to work out...that should relax me.

FUCK CHRISTMAS
Fighting with my ex. Pushing the on and off one away. Trying to help Kate. Argueing with mom because I'm jobless. Getting upset with dad for leaving when I was asleep. Annoyed by grandma who knew I was home and left. Going mad. Hungry. Waiting for Alex to call. Waiting...just waiting for the skies to clear.

and the countdown is at...
6 days until New Year's Eve. Then I get it. Bring in the New Year with a bang. OH YEAH!! *dances* Fuck love, love relationships. I just need cock. :-P I need to get better though. My throat was worse when I woke up this morning. My bro-Chaarlie-is taking me to get a camcorder tomorrow. I hope to see my Rob this Saturday. I need a shower, fuck my workout.

I BETTER
I BETTER GET SOME ON NEW YEARS >:o

MEH
I woke up at 2 in the morning. I left the light in my car on and didn't realize it. I slept okay but not as well as I had hoped. I took Nyquil last night and it knocked me out. I'm still tired so I guess I didn't get enough sleep. My throat is still sore so I know my mom would bitch at me if I went out. I wanted to go see Lord of the Rings with Andres but I'll call him tomorrow and see what's up. I'm just so tired today but I don't feel that sick, just when I talk my throat hurts. I miss my Rob. I'll probably see him later this week. I hope. I can't wait for tomorrow and New Year's Eve. I'd like to appologize-in advance-to Alex for those "stains" on his bed. HAHAHA ;-) I was only half the mess. I saw Audrey last night and i got my gift. AAAWWW GIR IS SO CUTE!! I WUVS GIR!! "Someone needs a hug...I still got another hug in me." I'm going back to bed. I need my rest so I can go out tomorrow. :-D I need to get my rest for tomorrow.

GROTESQUE
I must look it today. I woke up and felt like shit. I think I'm getting the flu. I hope not. It's only 3 days until Christmas. Looks like I'm not getting what I wanted from Rob. ;-) :'( I miss him. He's at Disneyland right now as a part of someone's Christmas present. HAHA I really hope he can go to Alex's New Year's Eve party. ;-) Maybe I'll ask Andres but I think Alex is a bit more comfortable with Rob just because he's known him for a bit longer. Besides I don't want Andres near Kate with us all going to be drinking. >:( Going back to bed 'cause I'm sick.

I know I'm a horrible shitty friend whose selfish.