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SORRY...

Feeling like Shit....
His words tore through her like a thousand knives piercing her heart. This time she doesn't know what to say, her mind goes blank... He continues to speak.. Each word he says adds another knife to her heart.. She can't seem to figure out what he wants her to do.. She doesn't want him to feel the pain he's feeling, but she can't help. She doesn't know what to do.. She wants this to work so bad... She needs to make sense of her life.. Shes Sorry...

What do i do???

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Well i've been played again.... i don't know whats wrong with me... its not like i even was involved with this one, but for some reason it still hurts. what is it am i not good enough? why can't i find someone? why doesn't anyone love me... am i asking for to much... all i want is someone to truely love me. i had love once... twice but i fucked that up both times.. why do i do this.. i do i wreck things.. not just things, but the only things that mean anything to me... i'll never get what i had back. i wish i could.. but i guess moving on is the only thing left to do... it's hard letting go.. but i got tammi (my favorite) so that will make this easier... i guess thats all i got to say.

What The Fuck
I sit there and listen about how bad it was how much it hurt... how much you love her and blah blah blah... what about me? i was just a fling just sumthing that ment nothing? someone who was just there to make you feel good? someone you could use when ever it was convient for You??? Then when you were done you threw to the side of the road.i loved you... you ment evrything to me you were my evrything.... no one came before you... not me, not my family,not even my best friends and for that i'm sorry. i'm not sorry for loving you. i'm sorry for trusting you. but Most of all i'm sorry for still loving you.... Its not my fault.... i guess... you lied to me... you made me believe that you loved me that no matter what we'd be together... that everything would work out..... well,maybe thats just what i told myself.... maybe you didn't lie to me maybe i lied to myself... maybe i still am. maybe nothing is going to get better.. maybe i'll continue to wreck my life and every one eles..
i'm sick of jumping for you.. and doing your tricks.I've been used abused, confused and worst of all reused by you... where does that leave me now... Alone.....

When you think you know.....
what do you do when you think you know how you really feel....but you don't its like hell i don't know what i am going to do......

MY PAST
K i just wanna say that there are some ppl from my past that need to grow the FUCK UP...... Ppl need to realize that they aren't the tough Shit they think they are!!!!! and that when it comes down to it they will be the ones that fall and can't get up and can't breath and they'll LOSE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!! ha ha so if you know this is directed to you!!! GROW THE FUCK UP!!!!!!! BITCHES!!!! HOES!!! SLUTS!!!! SKUNTS!!! AND ALL YOU FUCKING WANNA BE PLAYERS!!!!

Quotes
First i want to share with you some quotes that really mean alot to me and one day may mean alot to you too.....

1. i always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh but i never knew looking back at the laughs would make me cry

2.dream as if you'll live forever live as if you'll die

3.don't settle 4 the 1 you can live with wait 4 the 1 you can't live without

4. My fantasy as turned to madness all my goodness in to badness.my need to have you has taken me soul my heart is trembling I"VE JUST LOST CONTROL.....

Well First Of All
I'd like to say Welcome....NOT....If any of you know me you know there's alot sh** eating away at me soul...HA! HA! and theres no return.I really don't know what eles to say so FUCK YOU!!!GO AWAY!!!!

The Beggining
Well welcome to Michaelle's Realm Of NO Return! My name is Pam and i'll be your tour guide for this evening tour. If you have any questions or concerns please feel free to ask... I hope you have an unpleasant eternity in Michaelle's Realm Of NO Return... OH by the way please keep all Body parts inside the bars at all time. Bwahahahahahahahahah!!!!!!!!