POETIC RAMBLINGS
Sitting in this room -
me, you
Not quite
comprehensive
us, them -
Looking inside this white line
of blurred reality,
Wondering how life could really be -
in this social dichotemy
of girls and boys,
right and left,
black and white,
so stark against the night sky,
seeking, searching to erase
the lines drawn all over this place.
To shout for all to hear
the silence is so deafening,
raging torrends of apathy in my ears...
Yeah apathy is violent and violence is a choice,
a choice to comply (you or I) with society,
Shut up and believe,
they say -
Shut up and behave,
put you in your place,
You've got a role to play -
But who really wants this role?
This mask noone can take?
'Cuz it's hot and heavy and I'm tired of holding it up,
Still i do for you to keep
hidden (your secrets) too
in a room so small,
standing so tall,
comprehending reality,
you - me- society?
Still not so easily seen....
Stereotypes and
generalizations, discrimination and degradation, heterosexism and homophobia,
genocide and ethnocide,
exterminate – eliminate – diminish and extinguish – alleviate, retaliate,
activate, annihilate, procrastinate,
deviate, deny and refute, focus – retribute –
take back the night, take back the fight, take back your dignity, impressively,
exquisitely, completely –
educate, propagate, erase the hate, equalate, you, me, we, them, same scope,
same life, same fight, same rights.
A voice, a sound shivering silently stalking walking talking to the night to the
clouds –
that’s right – we talk, we walk, stalk silently seeking freedom, alleviation
– respect is all we’re askin’, seekin’, needin’ –
to stand with our heads, our hearts, our hands held high – to the sky – in
pride – of ourselves when no one else will take pride in the lives of you and
I,
silent they say – closet they say, away – they say – not here, not now –
they say –
marching through the streets with hate on their arms - shouting for truth and
morality –
true love, they say –
and we run, hide, dive,
shadows know our names now- because morality is right, morality is life – and
they decide (what morality is) for us because we can’t –
stumble, fall, tumbling – dark staircase widening into a room only opened in
the dark,
shudder the thought, the voice – don’t speak she says – it echoes in here
–louder, shouting,
screaming frustrations only the oppressed, the suppressed could know…in the
dark, in the night,
will you fight – act up, speak up, stand up – for what is right, just true,
you, me, us, them?
Words
ink splots match
white paper
dark
to contrast the brightness
in tones left unheard
they can't see me
or hear
impossible - she cries,
and continues in fervor
to write....
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Torments line my memory
Quietly beckoning my consciousness
To remember, recoil the thought
Of Sanity.
To harbor hatred, loathing -
the curses from behind me
Silently beckoning still,
To release the bitter agony
The sensations -
running through my fingertipes
clasped around that trigger, that blade...
held in fight or flight,
A response to the driving question...
but my answer is no -
And I let go.
Always smiling, Slowly dying,
Hidden by the games of yesterday.
Society blinded, To the pain inside
As my heart fades away.
Masks unyeilding, To the pain I'm feeling
Keeping my brokenness hidden away.
While the inside is fading,, Slowly degrading,
As I run out of strength, To face the new day.
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Mommy, daddy, don't you see?
I'm the child you created me to be.
I was born to you many years ago,
But now lost inside a world of my own.
Mommy, daddy, didn't you hear?
The pain I went through was more than I could bare.
I cried out for you but you didn't resond,
Now I feel as if I'm far away, gone.
Mommy, daddy, why did you do it?
Why did you hurt me and let me go through it?
I asked you to stop, I asked you for help,
But you laughed at my innocent yelps.
Mommy, daddy, didn't you care?
Other people would laugh and stare,
I waited for you to plead my case,
Yet all you could do is laugh in my face.
Mommy, daddy, now I am grown,
And you hate to see what I have become,
I remind you of what you did way back then,
And what you continue to do over again.
Mommy, daddy, I won't let you go on,
I'm not going to watch another hurt spawn,
You can pretend you're fine and all is well,
But you can't continue to cast your spell.
Mommy, daddy, don't you see?
I'm the child you created me to be.
I was born to you many years ago,
But now lost inside a world of my own.
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