Undercover assignment with Jason to infiltrate robbery gang. Took a lot of pulling in favors to get assigned to this, but it was worth it. Jason is still as handsome and sexy as the first day I ever laid eyes on him. Still have not revealed my lustful feelings for him, as I fear he will be repulsed by me, what with me being fifteen years older than him and not pretty or cute. Cannot risk not ever being able to see him again, even if it's just as a work colleague in the police force. Pains me to see him dating one woman after another. Can see why it's so easy for him to get dates. Good looks, winning smile, tall muscular build. Oh, damn. Need to take a cold shower.
Diary Entry 2
Stupid young rookie cop stumbled onto key robbery operation in progress. Had to pretend to shoot him, but Jason rushed in and stopped me. Jason can't fool me. I saw the tender way he looked at the stupid young rookie cop as he tied him up and gagged him. After all this time working alongside Jason, I never knew he was bisexual. Why the hell couldn't he look at ME in that same tender loving way?
Diary Entry 3
Might kick myself for this later. Don't know why I did it. Cut off my nose to spite my face. Will explain. Saw stupid young rookie cop dressed in civilian clothes at night club. Recognized him. Same stupid vapid expression on face, same stupid blond hair. I slipped a drug into his drink while he went to powder his stupid tiny nose. Carried him out of the night club, put him in the van, and drove him over to Jason at the hideout. Didn't get the reaction I expected from Jason. No gratitude at all from him, the bastard.
Should have stripped naked that stupid young rookie cop and fucked him senseless before handing him over to Jason. Damn.
Diary Entry 4
Would you believe Jason didn't fuck that stupid young rookie cop last night? Claims he just drove him home, put him to bed and left. What the fuck is wrong with Jason? Maybe he's having doubts about his bisexuality. Wish he'd let ME help clear up any such doubts. Oh, Jason, Jason! If you only knew of the many nights I dreamed of being with you!
On another note, Jason and I stopped an armed robbery in progress at a breakfast diner. Fat lot of help that stupid young rookie cop was. And after we fed him breakfast, too, the mooch.
Diary Entry 5
A sweater! That bastard Jason bought a sweater to give to that stupid young rookie cop on Christmas! Had the nerve to ask my opinion on whether 'Kevin' would like it. "Don't you think it'll bring out the blue in Kevin's eyes, Hook?" Took all my strength to keep from puking in front of Jason to hear him talking about Kevin in that sickening lovesick voice. Never heard him talk about any of the women he ever dated in that lovesick voice before. But now that Kevin the stupid young rookie cop who stole the heart of MY Jason has come into the picture, Jason only has eyes for him. AAARRRGGGHHH!
Diary Entry 6
Busted the robbery gang. Operation is over. So relieved. Now Jason and I can finally fly back to San Francisco. SAN FRANCISCO! Miles and miles away from where Kevin lives and works! Hooray! Maybe putting some distance between Jason and Kevin will help me to one day become the special someone who Jason will finally look at with love and adoration!
Who am I kidding? That bastard Jason won't stop seeing Kevin or stop thinking about him.
Diary Entry 7
I was right. All during the flight back to San Francisco Jason kept going on and on about Kevin. "Oh, Kevin is so cute. Oh, Kevin has got the cutest little butt. Oh, Kevin has got the sweetest mouth I ever tasted." The flight attendant stopped me from opening the emergency exit during the flight, so I couldn't fling myself out of the plane to end my pain and misery. Told her I was confused and thought it was the door to the restroom.
Diary Entry 8
Jason asked me to apartment-sit his place for him while he flies to London with Kevin on holiday. How could I refuse? Also agreed to water his plants and feed his cat.
Ah, his pillow cases and sheets still carry his unique, sexy aroma. Jason, Jason, Jason. When will you come to your senses and realize that you and I were meant to be soul mates? Go ahead, be with your stupid cute pretty Kevin. But know this: Looks fade. Will you still love Kevin when he's no longer young, cute and pretty?
