I was wrong.
Maggie's chatting it up with Tim right now. And I can't stand it.
If only she hadn't told me they kissed.
*You can run, you can hide, but you can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide, but you can't escape my love*
Great, a love song on the jukebox. Stupid jukebox.
He's moved away and now she's talking with Anna. She's so happy. If I were a better person...
but I'm not as good as everyone thinks I am.
A good person wouldn't want what they can't have would they? If it means hurting people. And she likes him.
I can't stand it. I can't watch this.
I gotta go.
*Here's how it goes
You and me, up and down
But baby this time we'll get it right
Worth a fight
Cuz love is something you can't shake
When it breaks*
"Bianca? Hey, wait up!" Maggie calls as I rush out the door. She's following me.
*All it takes is some tryin'*
"Wait Bianca! WAIT UP!" Before I can respond Maggie's caught up to me, caught me, my arm, and more than that. If only I saw it before.
*If you feel like leaving
I'm not gonna beg you to stay*
Maggie's looking at me, looking through me. "Okay, that's it girl, you are gonna tell me what has gotten into you but you are acting too strange for words. I want to know what's going on and I want to know now."
What do I do?
*Cuz soon you'll be finding
You can run, you can hide,
But you can't escape my love*
"It's nothing. Just a headache." I smile weakly at her. "I try to leave again. Again, she takes holds my arm. Her touch is like a brand through my clothes, heating my skin.
"Like hell." She's not buying it. "Fess Bianca or I'm going to get angry."
I flounder. I falter. How can I tell her? But how can I lie more than I already have to myself?
"It's about me kissing Tim isn't it?"
Oh no.
"You're crazy." I laugh forcedly. "I'm the one who's been trying to get you two together. I just want you to be happy. If not Tim okay. But I didn't mean anything by it. Honest." A sigh escapes me. "I never want to do anything that would hurt you."
*You can run, you can hide,
But you can't escape my love*
Oh oh, now Maggie's looking really unhappy. She's angry.
"This is what is driving me crazy Bianca!" she shakes my arm, glaring at me. "You keep pushing me away and doing this whole noble routine. Didn't you listen to a word I said in there?"
"Yeah, you like Tim." I answer quietly. Despondent.
"No Bianca, I said I kissed him. In a moment of utter immaturity. It's what I said about you that matters."
*Here's how it goes
All it takes is some tryin'*
What she said? "What you said?"
Maggie lets out this loud exasperated sigh. "That you're smart, that you have everything going for you! That you're beautiful Bianca! That I can see why my sister loved you so much."
*Slow baby go
You should know (you should know)*
I wince away from her words and pull away from her touch.
*It's hard to just forget the past
So fast*
"Why Bianca, why does it hurt you for me to tell you how I feel about you?" The words are heartbroken. I raise my eyes to see the tears in hers.
*It was good, it was bad,
But it was real
And that's all you have*
"How..." I swallow around the large, heart shaped lump suddenly in my throat. "How you feel about me?"
*In the end our love matters*
Maggie gives me this shake of her head, and smiles at me. Now that I think about it, she smiles a lot at me. She's never smiled at Tim like that, with her eyes shining, her face filled with her happiness.
"For someone so smart, you can sure be dense sometimes." She says to me.
*If you feel like leavin'
I'm not gonna beg you to stay
Cuz soon you'll be finding*
"I don't understand." I tell her honestly.
"No, I guess you don't. I didn't for a long time either but it was always there. Maybe this will help clear things up for you." I'm not following any of this but the next thing that happens stops all train of thought I was capable of.
Maggie's kissing me.
*You can run, you can hide,
But you can't escape my love*
Lips on lips, soft and I yield. She's so soft. My senses reel. I can smell her perfume, under that, the clean soap smell of her skin, the shampoo in her hair. The feel of the lip gloss that I'm kissing away as I kiss her back.
Her arms come full around me and the kiss becomes even more demanding. The lightest brush of a tongue against my lips makes me moan. I open and the first touch of her tongue along mine causes us both to shiver. It's so intense. Sparks fly behind my eyelids, under my skin, along my body.
She pulls away, only far enough to see my face.
"Do you understand me now?" She asks breathless and flushed.
"No," She frowns at my answer. I take a couple of much needed breaths before I answer more. "But I'm willing to take a lifetime to find out Maybe you should help clear things up more."
Her frown becomes a smile even brighter than earlier as she realizes what I'm saying. "A lifetime?"
"If you don't object." I silently pray.
"I think it's the best idea you've had all night. Next to the first one."
"The first one?" Now it's my turn to frown.
"About me kissing you again, and again...and again..." She laughs leaning into me to do just that.
My heart soars.
*(You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love)
(Love, love, love, love)
You can run, you can hide,
But you can't escape my love *
Fin
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