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Deanna Del
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 48015.9
Today is the start of my third assignment. I boarded the galaxy class vessel, U.S.S. Romana NCC Registry number 03567, in hopes that this mission will go well and according to plan. This time I will be serving under Captain Veronika Goldman.
I have made it a point to become familiar with the fellow Vulcans on this mission. There are three besides me; Ensign Irik, whom works in Engineering, Sek, whom works in Security/ Tactical, T’Kara, whom works in Sickbay and Chief Officer of Security /Tactical Lieutenant Commander T’Saunna, whom prefers to be called Saunn for personal reasons she did not state. All of whom I have had the pleasure in meeting and communicating telepathically with. It has been a long time since I have been able to use my telepathic skills being that on the last mission, which lasted 5 months, I was out of contact with any other Vulcan and my family, with the exception of my brother, Vorik, whom is preparing for his first mission aboard the U.S.S. Voyager. I believe that his first flight will be well with him. Though a short term mission I hope that he will profit in the most.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48015.9
Today, we begin our mission, labeled Zeta-J Taurus, located in the Nafari Galaxy, in the Gamma Quadrant. It is a deep space mission expected to endure a five week course in search of inhabited or inhabitable stars and minor biological acknowledgements. I agreed to take this mission because I wanted the chance to manage my own Engineering crew, of whom I had the pleasure of becoming acquainted with today. Many of the staff had been on more than one mission and expressed their delight being placed on this one.
One crewmember, Crewman Faenna, stated that she always dreamed about working under a male Vulcan because they always explore giving and getting perfection. I believe her intonation spoke louder than her words. However, I replied asking if she was skilled in expediting perfection, to which she smiled and said I would find out soon enough, with the same intonation she used before. I said, that I’m almost too certain that I will.
I continued with the small briefing and answered questions as they arose.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48197.3
This morning at 0800 the Power Distribution Network went offline causing the a few main ship systems to stop operating, including sonic showers, holodecks and replicators. The malfunction lasted for 14 hours causing a bit of unsettling about the ship and pressure on Engineering. Being skilled in the dynamics of the electroplasma delivery system as other systems of Engineering, I knew that the problem was within the electrical voltage supply as opposed to the system subconduits as once believed by my fellow Engineering colleges. Once the correct voltage supply was reestablished the system came up and minor ship systems are up a running again.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48207.5
Primary systems went offline at 0300 this morning causing the ship to come to a complete stop. Life support failure was imminent on decks 2,4,7 and 14. Power from the replicators and sonic showers was rerouted to life support. Transfer was successful. Power distribution to the Transponder Power relays was online and then offline within a matter of minutes. Backup processors stabilized the main computer until the re-initialization of the subspace transponders came back online. Until which time, Ensigns Terrill, Green and I continued to work on the Transponder Power relays. The cause of the miscalculation within the relays was that they were fused once rerouted to plasma power couplings.
My idea about the power grid was correct. Ensign Terrill wanted to realign the lateral plasma conduit within the power grid thinking that we could increase power to the ship main systems by 4%. I stated that this would cause an overload in a series of systems including life support and the main computer. He disagreed with me and mentioned his idea to the Captain, stating that I would not allow him to be as resourceful as he could be which has become the result to our five hour emergency.
I am not offended by the young Ensign’s behavior because I myself have wanted to react the same way but I realize that I am a more intelligent and patient being than he. After the diversions were repaired, I pulled him aside and told him that if he wants to play with his ideas on the ship systems he should first run them in a holodeck sequence. This would allow him to see what can happen as well as allow others to sleep adequately before their shift begins. He smiled, though I believe he was thinking other than his expression. However, the matter was taken care of and hopefully Captain Goldman, will next time put more trust in my words rather than that of a decadent Ensign ready to outdo and outshine his Chief officer.
This is day 15 and we have yet to reach our location. We are not on a timed detail, which is helpful though not encouraging for a short term mission. We should arrive within the Nafari Galaxy, located in the Gamma quadrant tomorrow at 1700.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48273.1
The mission appears to be going slower than originally thought. Because we are now using impulse engines within the space surrounding and in the Nafari Galaxy due to the gaseous moons nearby, our warp engines are almost unnecessary. Though we can use them, it would be a disconcert to the surrounding atmosphere especially if there is life within the area. It appears as though the Captain will be placing a request for more Science officers for data retrieval and perhaps away missions. I was also informed that I too may be going on a few away missions especially if there are elements that may be used in Engineering. I would not mind the opportunity to an away mission. I have a sudden interest in interplanetary exploration and welcome the challenge.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 48393.7
Today I received a message from my mother. She notified me that the U.S.S. Voyager, where my brother, Vorik, an Engineering officer aboard that vessel was presumed lost today. I asked her how she accepted this report and she let me know that she had let her emotions take the best of her. Being strong in front of everyone, she wanted to cry but found a way to control herself. She also informed me that she was becoming worried about me being that my mission had extended from it original 5 week exploration to it’s now continually growing status.
I did not mention that my mission did not look like it was going to end soon being that more personnel had been requested, instead I continued to question her about the Voyager. She informed me that Voyager’s mission was to capture a Maquis ship that was also reported lost. She then continued that three ships had been sent on search operations for the lost vessels and that she would contact me with any information as it arises.
Later today I received a comm from the Captain asking me to meet her in her Ready room at 1900. On the way there I ran into Saunn in the corridor whom was just leaving the Bridge. We communicated briefly and she offered herself as a reciprocal of empathy. I thanked her and let her know that I may take her up on the offer. She continued about her way as did I. Upon entering Captain Goldman’s Ready room, she looked up at me with a destitute expression. I almost asked her if something was wrong but then she spoke ordering me to sit. She then let in with her worries and apologies upon hearing about the loss of my brother. Then I reminded her that these occurrences do happen and that it was unfortunate that my brother was aboard that ship, though the same could be said for any one of us.
She offered me time off and I refused. She said that if I looked stressed in the next few days that she would order a three day leave from duty. Because I prefer to work through such events I told her that if I become stressed I would lighten my hours from 10-12 a day to 6-7. She reluctantly agreed and said that if I had any problems or just needed someone to talk to, a ship counselor would be boarding when we receive our new personnel and until then, I could come see her. I thanked her for her sympathy and concern and returned to my quarters.
Though I was originally scheduled off tomorrow, I will go in for a few hours and run a few system diagnostics. At least that way I am doing something other than thinking about my mother whom I know has a tough time fighting her emotions. She has ever since she gave birth to us. When my father told her to undergo the kolinahr ritual, she refused. I can understand her reasoning, though I choose not to make either of my parents aware that I do.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48474.4
Though, initially a deep space mission searching for inhabitable stars, this has become an ongoing scientific investigation for any sign of biological lifeforms within the orbital surroundings. I have informed the Captain, that due to the extenuation of the mission, Engineering can no longer operate under such circumstances and that notable changes need to be made. Because we are operating with a staff of 67, the extenuation of the mission has placed my staff and myself in a position of enduring long and laborious hours. The Captain then asked to look at the schedule of hours that I had implicated over the past weeks. As Captain Goldman over looked the shifts on the padd I presented her, she asked me why I placed my staff on such long hours. To which I responded because there was no other choice. We are short on crewman to man the shifts that need to be manned. The Captain told me that the matter will be addressed to Starfleet and that I need be attentive as to a response.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48602.6
At 0500, during a routine system diagnostics of the Matter/ Antimatter Reaction Assembly, power to the secondary propulsion system went offline. With only 23 people on duty running continuous scans, repairs are going slowly. Because we still are unaware as to what may have caused the power relays to misfire and stop responding to the fusion reactors we cannot be certain that it may not happen again. I will work on this setback until I reach a logical understanding of what has transpired.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48602.6
Supplemental
I have worked on the M/ARA for nearly 19 hours and at 2354, power to the secondary propulsion system was restored. During a level 1 system diagnostics, it appears as though the magnetic constrictors unlocked knocking the dilithium reactors offline. Once the warpcore pressure level was re-established the magnetic constrictor came back online allowing the dilithium reactors to reinitialize. Fortunately, throughout all of this, the Matter/ Antimatter Reaction Chamber was unharmed and continues to function normally.
This was a very trying day and I was told that I was becoming a very trying person. I can imagine such being that I have yet to come across anyone aboard with my Engineering skills besides Ensign Terrill, who is just as determined as I, though he still does not possess the knowledge that I do. Ensign Green’s skills are also impressive, and she did tolerate my constant disarray and seemed to understand my moment in derived frustration. When I tried to run a scan over the Class 11 Power Component within the M/ARA, I overlooked the setting and the reaction from the dilithium crystals threw a power flash which sent a shock to my hand. I spoke a little louder than intended when I mentioned something about the Captain and the much awaited crew that had yet to arrive. Ensign Green, whom was standing nearby overheard me and suggested that I take a break. I started to decline then I looked at her face which held a quaint smile. (PAUSE) (RESUME) Anyway, I agreed and stepped into the Engineering hall for a few moments. It was seconds after taking a few breaths that I was hounded with questions to which point I stepped onto the turbolift to my right and exited Engineering altogether. I rode the turbolift for 3 minutes before I decided that I would go to the Mess hall. I stayed long enough to order and finish a hot cup of Jestral tea.
Upon my return to Engineering it appeared that Ensign Green completed the task that I was working on and had done a rather satisfactory job.
We are still awaiting the arrival of the new crew. I hope the wait will not be much longer. The Engineering staff is becoming anxious and I too must admit that I am becoming concerned with how much longer we will have to wait.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 48602.6
The Captain called a meeting in her Briefing room at 1217 this afternoon. She stated that she wanted the holodeck usage monitored because it had gone offline a few weeks ago with a few other minor systems. When I stated that it was due to a failure within the Power Distribution Network. She said that she didn’t care what it was due to, she just wanted everyone to use 30 hours a month. Lieutenant Commander Saunn and I had no complaints though others in the room did. I don’t really understand Captain Goldman and I don’t really think I will. I believe what she is doing is trying to appear as though she is in charge when she appears more inept in her attempt. Saunn and I continued to converse and listen to the others argue with the Captain. Saunn mentioned that she had a strong dislike for humans before joining Starfleet. When I asked her why she said because of their inability to project logic without emotion. She then mentioned that she did meet a few humans that lived on Vulcan, who had traded their humanistic lives for ones of wisdom and logic. She decided to join Starfleet 25 years later where she met her husband who is an experimentalist of interstellar biology. She too began in exobiology but then turned her career towards Tactics. She figured that there was only room for one experimentalist in the family and that it should be him.
She then turned the line of questioning on me and began to ask me about T’Larka, whom I was bonded with. She wanted to know how long we had been together and if we were well with one another. I tried to change the subject but Saunn noted that every time we converse, T’Larka’s memory is present. I finally mentioned that T’Larka is my bondmate and that we have not seen each other in quite some time and perhaps that was why Saunn noticed her. Saunn doubted that that was the full explanation but she figured that if I want her to know, I will tell her. I figure that she is correct.
However, we do share an acute aversion for the Captain’s actions and we both agree that she is incompetent as to what she is and what she should be doing. As we say in Vulcan, a simple mind cannot calculate that of the sensible mind.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48779.5
A primary warp manifold rupture occurred at 0600 hours. I have been working on it for the past 17 hours. I placed a dampening field around the ruptured manifold until all repairs were complete. As soon as the primary warp manifold came back online the auxiliary power went offline. When auxiliary power started operating, warp engine nacelles went offline and the thrusters stopped responding. Thrusters are back online and operating at peak efficiency but the nacelles remain offline. I ran a full scale Level 1 diagnostics on the PIS, which is still operating. Engineering should know where the main defect lies by 0500 hours.
Due to the lack of Engineer personnel, I have placed Ensign Catherine Green, Assistant Chief Engineer, on an extra shift until 1200 hours tomorrow. Ensign Charles Terrill, on a half shift as well on the Bridge until 0800 hours tomorrow. Both Ensigns have been notified to contact me in case of any changes or if necessary in event of emergency. The Captain has informed me that she has received word on the request for more Engineering personnel. This ship is equipped with 67 Engineering personnel when preferred operating minimum is 140. The lack of personnel is due to the short-term mission. Though this mission was set to be a five week’s course, it should not have endured more than 2 months. We have been en route now for the past 4 months, working long and laborious hours.
New personnel should arrive within the next three days.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48784.2
A timing discrepancy between the main computer and the injector, depleted real-time operation levels to 57% causing the chain of reaction in yesterday’s turn of events involving the primary warp manifold, auxiliary power, warp engine nacelles and thrusters. The discrepancies were repaired by a team of 6 running a predicative phase-synchronization routine, which resets the engines to an operation of real-time as close as possible.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48840.8
Ensign Green has bought to my attention that neither a Level 4 nor 5 system diagnostics has been ran on the fusion drive motors also known as auxiliary power within the past month. I was not aware that this main system had been over-looked being that I myself was rather busy with the M/ARA, though not an excuse for my negligence. A level 1 diagnostics is functioning and results will be ready within 12 hours.
Checking my notes, Ensigns Rokul and Irik, were assigned to run a Level 4 system diagnostics on the fusion drive motors four weeks ago but neglected to do so. When I spoke to Ensign Rokul as to why it was not completed he simply stated that he forgot to do it. I questioned him about his workload and asked for a duty report for the past six weeks. He said that I was the Chief Engineer and that I should have that information. When I told him that I was not his caretaker and that he should have personnel reports of his daily duties he said that he would try to remember to get a report to me soon. I then told him to make it his top priority and to hand it to me within five hours and if I didn’t have it by then, I would have to report him to the Captain. He scoffed and walked away.
Afterwards, I spoke to Ensign Irik about the incompletion of the task set a month ago. He stated that Rokul told him he would take care of it if he took care of the other items listed on the apparatus given them. He said that he completed repairs on the active magnetic interferometry scanner and the level 2 diagnostics of the Structural Integrity Field as well as the complementary report that followed. I asked him for a report of his duties for the past six weeks and he said that he would have a report to me within the hour.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 48840.8
Supplemental
The level 1 system diagnostic ran on the fusion drive motors was positive. All malfunctions that had been repaired are sufficient and auxiliary power is operating above standard operation levels.
Ensign Irik, reported to me at 1147 and delivered his daily duty report to me. I was pleased with his report including notes and workload. I did mention to him that the responsibility fell on both him and Ensign Rokul and in the event where he chooses to split a shared workload, he should always remember if the work set for the both had been completed and was sufficient.
I did not see Ensign Rokul for the duration of my shift which ended today at 1900. At which time I handed my report to the Captain stating that Ensign Rokul’s work had been unsatisfactory and that he failed to turn in a report of his duties and workload for the past six weeks. Captain Goldman said that she would take care of the mater and for me to leave Ensign Rokul to her concern.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 48840.8
This morning the senior staff had a meeting with the Captain and she informed us that we would take a rendezvous with the new crew of 436 personnel of which, 123 will be dispersed to Engineering, giving us a staff of 190. We currently have a crew compliment of 211 and with the new arrivals we will have 647 crew members aboard. I listened as Lieutenant Commander Saunn acknowledge the Captain that we can comfortably support a crew of 650 not including the visitor sleeping quarters, and that her request may be to large for such a mission. Because I agreed with Saunn, I was expecting the Captain to have a good reason for her excessive request. Though she simply stated that when Saunn commandeers her own ship she can put as many people as she would like. The Captain then continued her speech on senior staff behavior, the right to extend ourselves to the new arrivals and misconduct. Sometimes, I believe the Captain tends us as children.
We have an ETA at 1500 hours at Space Station 27, Alpha Centauri.
Ensign Green, seemed rather anxious and wanted my attention for lunch at 1300. She seemed rather upset by the arrival of the Engineering personnel and wondered if it would hurt her position as Assistant Chief Engineer. When I told her that that was not a decision of mine but rather the Captain’s, she seemed bothered and placed her hand on my arm and asked me to speak to the Captain for her. When Ensign Green touched my arm I had an indescribable sensation. I had not experienced anything like it before. It did not offend me, however it did become quite bothersome and continued to be so until about 1700 hours.
At the briefing with the new personnel I noticed that many of the students are straight out of the Academy and that this will be their first mission. The Captain asked me if this would be a problem and I told her that if this were a short term mission perhaps the situation would be different, but because this mission continues to grow lengthwise I had been hoping for an experienced crew that had worked on large ships such as the U.S.S. Romana. The Captain thought that I should go slow and allow the new crewmembers to become familiar to the atmosphere and ship surroundings before taking on heavy tasks, which is exactly what I did not want to do. Besides, I was also hoping that I would have the chance to collaborate with someone that had as much knowledge as I about Engineering mechanics. Though, Ensigns Terrill and Irik have come close, they are still no match for me.
After my briefing with the new personnel I spoke to Ensign Green and she seemed at ease. Her worries had subsided when she came across an old friend Crewman Marjka Dentiil, of whom she attended Starfleet Academy with. I spoke to the Captain about Ensign Green’s worries and the Captain said that she would speak to Ensign Green herself.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 48840.8
This evening after I spoke to the Captain about Ensign Rokul’s insufficient work in Engineering and his failure to report to me with a roster of his daily duties, she told me that Ensign Rokul was a special character and that she would handle the matter. I believe that the Ensign is a special character indeed, however, if he is able to do something I do not see why he, under her wings, is excused whereas everyone else is to do as expected. The fact that she took this matter lightly disturbed me in the least. I know that this is the Captain’s second time in command and that command is still a fresh idea to her, being that her first mission lasted just under a year. I am beginning to have doubts in Captain Goldman’s command procedures and can barely fathom how she could have passed the Bridge Officer’s Exam let alone the Command Officer’s Exam.
For someone of her stature that has a career extending over 12 years in Starfleet and 7 years as a Commander, I would think that she should have some experience or be able to demonstrate her familiarity with procedures and protocol. It almost appears as though when she steps on the Bridge she forgets terms, simple codes as well as the complete modus operandi.
The numerous times that I have served with her on the bridge I excused her impulsive and languid behavior as clearly a human characteristic which has always room for fault. But I never would have expected such unprofessional conduct from one in such a position, to execute an act of favoritism. I am having second thoughts about this mission and almost wish that I had not accepted it after all.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 48936.8
I have been informed that one of Engineering’s personnel had been manipulating computer data banks in order to operate the holodeck after his allotted holodeck usage had expired. Ensign Rokul, had been warned in the past for over usage of the holodeck and I will taken this issue into consideration when speaking with the Captain at the next officer meeting.
I shared a rather enlightened luncheon with Ensign Catherine Green today after duty. She appears to be fascinated with Vulcan logic and lifestyle. I told her that I do not mind sharing my knowledge, however the computer database has a full scale of the information she seeks. She appeared upset by my advice and asked if I was busy; when I told her that I was not she insisted that I tutor her or at least have lunch with her on a regular basis. I did not refuse though I did not promise to do so, as I do require time alone for my meditation. Again, the Ensign seemed hurt and I told her that I would do what I could.
As we spoke, she informed me that she was “in love” with my logic and intellect. Though, she did not have much to share I concur that her interest in mine was quite illuminating. This is not the first time a person has taken interest in Vulcanology and has come to me for advice. I can remember a few times at Starfleet Academy when asked to contribute knowledge to fellow cadets. Ensign Catherine Green appeared pleased to hear what I had to say which in itself was quite interesting. She acted as though I were not saying enough though I spoke for nearly two hours.
I told her that I wanted to play a round of kal-toh with her so that I can see how perspective her thinking pattern is and she begged me to bring it on our next luncheon. I think it will be an interesting learning experience. Perhaps, for both of us. I look forward to our next luncheon.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 49001.1
This afternoon in the staff meeting I seem to have upset Lieutenant Monroe, Chief Operations Officer, when I mentioned that Ensign Rokul, whom works in Engineering, should be suspended for manipulating the main computer system banks. Lieutenant Monroe, insisted that I be less of an ‘overbearing tyrant,’ and perhaps that I should distribute my holodeck time allotment to the Ensign.
He then continued stating that it was normal for Ensign Rokul to need more time because he runs several Klingon programs and that it is difficult to end these programs once started until the mission within is accomplished. He concluded that I took pride in ‘throwing my weight around and trying to run Engineering under Vulcan procedures and protocol.’ However, when I told him that he should mind his own business and that there is more information about his private affairs aboard ship than there are Starfleet manuals, he stood up and demanded I engage in a physical confrontation with him. Apparently, it only upset him more when I reminded him that doing such could be considered normal if people reverted back to the ways of his ancestors.
Finally, the Captain ordered the Lieutenant to apologize and believed that my suggestion was suitable punishment and placed into action pending one month. The Captain also noted that Ensign Rokul, has had some trouble in the past with authority and discipline. I added that his past is not far behind him for he has often questioned my orders in Engineering as well.
As a matter of fact, I decided to utilize an hour of my holodeck time allotment and visit Vulcan. I visited my betrothed counterpart, T’Larka. I hadn’t realized that I missed her because in the past I hadn’t before. I am confused as to why this time is different, perhaps it has something to with Ensign Green’s sudden interest in Vulcan. As children, T’Larka and I met for the first time through our parents, we did not think that we were meant to be together. It took several attempts for us to bond telepathically and even after, we did not share the same ideas but agreed to say nothing to our parents because at that time, we decided that it was the logical thing to do.
T’Larka and I are no longer together because it was also agreed logical to separate on the account that we nearly killed each other during my last Pon-Farr season, two years ago. Since then I have had various disturbing experiences; such as a high tendency to read a person’s thoughts just by mere touch.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 49120.7
This morning in Engineering I noticed Ensign Green watching me in a questionable manner. When I approached her it took her a moment to realize that I had asked her a question. She apologized for her demeanor and responded to my question after asked a second time. She had taken the effort of completing the duty of labeling all the statistical infractions of the Particle Portal Relays for the past month. I was quite satisfied with her work, finding that her report was complete and correct. When I called her to my work station and informed her that I was completely satisfied and that I would meet her for lunch at our scheduled hour, she smiled quite content and walked back to her station where she continued to watch me. I don’t think she watched me constantly, though I noticed that she had been whenever I looked in her direction. I didn’t mind except for the fact that I wanted to know what she was thinking while she watched me.
I usually do not care when I’m being watched but there was something about the Ensign that intrigued me. When she smiled at me it was almost as though I received a pulsation to my chest. I can not explain why. Perhaps, there is no explanation for such a reaction. Besides, I always have had some problems with replicated cuisine. I will eat a light lunch.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Supplemental
Stardate: 49127.7
This afternoon I met with Ensign Green for lunch in Holodeck 2. I created a program on Vulcan mainly because I knew that she had never been there and she wanted to see what it looked and felt like. In images she noticed that Vulcan looked hot and I confirmed that it was much warmer than earth.
We walked along a small path I created that was similar to the one I often walked as a child, which ended at a small clearing where there was a table awaiting us. After we ate, Ensign Green, decided to make conversation. She mentioned that she felt a little uncomfortable around one of the Ensigns that worked on our shift though she didn’t want to tell me his name, just a situation where he insinuated that he was interested in more than just being her friend. I asked her if she told him how she felt and her response was negative. I wanted to ask her who it was but before I could say something she continued to talk. She told me that it was someone she knew for a long time and she thought had become a good friend. I asked her to detail the event has it had taken place. She told me while in Engineering working overtime as it was before the new crewmembers boarded the ship, the two were working on calibrating the master systems displays as well as a few other main board repeaters. As she reached overhead to run a scan on one of the repeater monitors, the fellow officer ran his fingers from her waist to her stretched out arm. She quickly put her arm down and asked the officer to stop because she was ticklish and that it was distracting.
When the Ensign had done it a third time he touched her breast. She told me that she wanted to hit him but controlled herself, because he might think that she was interested, being that the officer is half Klingon. I asked her why she hadn’t reported the incident and she assured me that she would if it happened again. I told her such behavior is intolerable and must not continue under any circumstance. Ensign Green told me that the Ensign stopped after she started talking about her boyfriend on Earth.
I told Ensign Green that I was not aware that she had a significant other. She said that she would say anything to get the fellow officer off her back. When I asked her how long she had been involved with her significant other she quickly changed the subject and asked me if I had someone waiting for me on Vulcan. I told her that my betrothed bond mate and I were no longer together. The Ensign wanted to know why and I tried to make it as clear as possible by telling her that we were not compatible. After which, Ensign Green took hold of my hand as a shared sorrow expression, I read everything that she was thinking that moment. Her feelings and desires became quite distracting and I told her that I needed to go because I didn’t want her to know that I was disturbed by her thoughts. She asked if I minded her confiding in me and told her I didn’t. She thanked me for listening. And I left. After I exited the holodeck on my way to my quarters I realized that the officer that had violated her trust was Ensign Rokul, whom was the same that had been tapping into the computer to steal holodeck time.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 49147.7
It has been bought to my and the Captain’s attention that Crewman Blovo and Crewman Jeson have both admitted to sabotaging the others’ work on the power couplings located in Jeffries Tube 47-Beta and the Amplitory Field Directors. I explained, that Crewman Blovo stated his subversion was over the affection of a female Crewman, Marjka Dentiil, and that the two had been at it for some time; unfortunately the three had all been placed on this mission together where the contention continued. I thought both crewmembers should be placed on detention relieving them of all special events and functions, but the Captain had in fact relieved them of all duties and both crewmen boarded shuttlepod Bannik, and are on their way to Starfleet Headquarters for further evaluation for their actions.
Ensign Green, informed me that an incident occurred where a male officer touched her, making her uncomfortable during on duty hours. I have reported this incident to my commanding officer and she will contact Ensign Green for a full report.
Ensign Rokul, became upset about his penalty of Holodeck usage which he made known to me today. Because he asked, I informed him that I had reported him about the breach of protocol of manipulating the computer system. He was quite upset and refused to follow my orders which were to report to the Transporter room for Security duty. Instead, the Ensign walked out of Engineering and did not return. When I reported to the Captain, what had taken place she told me that she would handle the matter. She said that she would place the officer in Security and Engineering, giving me control to station the officer in Security when Engineering became too great to bare. She included that Ensign Rokul, would return to Engineering in two days. I cannot say that I am looking forward to his arrival.
Crewman Faenna has caught my attention with her work on the AFDs (Amplitory Field Directors). Her work restoring their integrity to operational standard has not gone unnoticed. Her knowledge of several main and local systems is impressive. She is poised and intelligent and I do not know why she is not an officer at this point. I will look into her personnel files for further information.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 49147.7
Today I watched Ensign Rokul whenever he came near Ensign Green. I cannot explain my . . .perception when I saw him grab her hand. Even though she smiled it was clear that she was not comfortable. I walked over to where they were and asked if everything was coming along according to plan. Ensign Rokul, stated that it had been before I interrupted. I told him that I was not aware that he felt that way and that he was probably going to be more upset when I told him his duties; which were to download information from the Atmospheric Processing Network Monitor to pick up the cross-link configuration for availability of reserve and emergency power supplies. And for him to go into the Transporter room, locate the upper and lower weapons lockers and run a full detailed weapons range. And afterwards, he was to report to the brig for Security duty. He laughed and said that he refused and nearly demanded that I physically force him to go. When I reminded him that I was a Lieutenant and his superior officer he turned and walked towards the APNMonitor.
I noticed Ensign Green, watched me the entire time I was spoke to Crewman Faenna which became quite distracting. I tried to ignore her but I could not. After a few minutes, it must have became noticeable to Crewman Faenna because she looked behind her, following my eyesight a few times while I was speaking. After conversing with the Crewman I walked over to Ensign Green and asked her if there was a problem. She stated there wasn’t one with the primary warp manifold. I got the impression that she was upset with me and I decided to leave her to her work. After I had walked a few feet away from her, she questioned out to me if we were still having lunch at 1300 hours. I wanted to say that I had no idea that we had plans for lunch, but I saw Ensign Rokul, standing at the APNMonitor look at me. After which, I responded to Ensign Green, ‘Holodeck 2,’ before I turned away and sat at my work station. I cannot explain why I did what I did, but I had an overwhelming notion afterwards. And I think that it may have had something to do with the expression I saw on Ensign Rokul’s face.
A few hours later I was surprised that Ensign Rokul, reported to me when he arrived at the Security station in the brig.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 49207.4
Yesterday afternoon, after lunch with Ensign Green, I thought about her for the remainder of the day. Because of the physical contact we encountered, I was not sure if the thoughts were mine or hers. I presume they were hers because I could not control them.
It started after our luncheon when she hugged me after I told her that I had reported the incident. I tried to explain that it is my job to report such incidents but she took it has something entirely different. She told me that she was sure that was my way to express that I cared for her. She told me that she wanted to kiss me, which I felt when she touched me. I did not know how to react being that I had never been in such a situation. However, I am well-versed in various forms of evasive maneuvers and I said nothing because she left.
Last night, I awoke to several unsettling dreams of seeing myself with Ensign Green in sensual situations. Several times I saw her nude and became. . .roused. It were as though I were in a Holodeck program I could not control. What became more unsettling was that the visions continued after I awoke and stopped after a few hours. Perhaps, strenuous meditation is needed. I’m not sure if I’m concentrating enough or too much.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 49220.1
This morning, I made my way to the mess hall because I like to read there on my days off. After I sat down at a table near one of the windows towards the back I saw Ensign Green, Crewman Denora and Crewman Dentiil walk in together. They were laughing a bit louder than standard level but quickly stopped after walking to the replicator. They took their meals and sat down a few tables away from me. I do not think they noticed me. I watched Ensign Green smile and laugh. I wanted to talk to her about last week when she had hugged me, but I did not know how to bring it up.
She was appealing to look at. Though we look the same age wise I need to remember that I am a bit older than her and therefore wiser. Sometimes, I have to remind myself that I am Vulcan and to conduct myself as such. I am beginning to wonder if I am Vulcan or volatile.
I couldn’t stop watching her and it was almost as though I. . .were embellished in derived appreciation. I forced myself to stop watching because it began to interfere with reason. When I did not look at her I started to remember visions from last week. As disturbing as they were, to some extent they were also . . .somewhat stimulating.
When I looked up the three female crewmen had stopped laughing and concentrated on Ensign Rokul, whom had just walked in the mess hall. It appeared he had not noticed them when he entered. After he sat down at a table a few feet away from me, the women started laughing noisily which was quite upsetting; I would imagine to everyone. Ensign Rokul, looked around the room before picking up his meal and walking to the table where the three female crewmen were seated and seated himself at their table.
I saw Ensign Green, smile at something he said before she looked at me. She stopped smiling. I placed my eyes down to focus on my padd which viewed page 877, the third page of chapter 58, of the Vulcan mystery I suddenly took interest in. I had only read a few pages before Ensign Green, and her friends came in.
Within a few seconds, she had excused herself from her table of friends and joined me at my table. She asked if she was interrupting me and I replied negative. She apologized for the loudness and said that they were trying to have fun because it was rare when the three had the same day off. She told me they would not have another day off together for weeks. I thought that it was probably for the best if this was how they reacted each time but I did not tell her that.
She told me that Lieutenant Baria Kotman, the ship counselor, spoke to her about the incident with Ensign Rokul. She said that Lieutenant Kotman told her that she wasn’t the only one to complain about the officer, and that he could be penalized, but she would have to sign a claim of accusation. Ensign Green, was still apprehensive about placing a complaint against him because she didn’t want it showing up in her files but there was nothing that could be done about that.
Ensign Green, thanked me again for reporting the incident and she grabbed my hand and squeezed it. I pulled away because of the visualization that came to me within seconds. I could sense that she thought I pulled away because her friends, Crewman Dentiil and Crewman Denora came over at that moment. The two greeted me and smiled. Nonetheless, Ensign Green, smiled and said they were off to the holodecks to go country side skiing on Trill. I wanted to talk to her about that day last week but there was not enough time. Ensign Green, looked back at me a couple of times before they exited the mess hall. I knew what she was thinking and I know I should not have thought this, but I wanted to comply. I will meditate tonight and tomorrow. I think that I may speak to Chief Tactical Officer, Lieutenant Saaun, whom, like myself, is Vulcan.
When Ensign Rokul, walked over to where I was seated he smirked and made a sound that sounded like a grunt of a lower species. Even though I know that, he is not intelligent and would not be able to hold a conversation that the Pakleds would take interest in, I must treat him the same way that I treat all officers. If it were up to me, not only would he not be an Ensign, but he would not be in Starfleet altogether.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 49344.3
A malfunction in the navigational sensors occurred at 0900 and sensors arrays were taken offline for maintenance. Ensign Green, asked why auxiliary power could not be rerouted to the long range and lateral sensor arrays during maintenance. Before I could answer, Crewman Faenna, whom was standing just next to us answered that the auxiliary power could not be rerouted to the main sensor pallets while a malfunction is current but that the malfunction needed to be repaired before attempting to operate. She concluded that it did not make sense to reroute auxiliary power to a malfunctioning system while offline for repairs, which sometimes is true.
After Crewman Faenna completed the repairs to the navigational sensors, I requested her assistance in the IPS Deuterium Fusion Reactor. As we stood near the Impulse Propulsion System, I asked Crewman Faenna to describe the functions of the IPS. She was precise and detailed as she spoke about the DFR powered with a compact space-time driver coil. She further went into detail about hardware failures and override commands placing a stress on the total IPS, requiring various degrees of engines and systems shutdown which is what she believed to be the reason for the malfunction in the navigational sensors earlier. She insisted that we have normal emergency shutdown computer routines to prevent such occurrences. I responded that such operations like standard in flight preventative maintenance is not intended for warp engine, which is why it is important to make sure that the IPS is operating as much as possible so that auxiliary power can be used in case of failure to the warp engine. Although, her suggestion was ideal, it could not, at this time, be done.
I will inform the Captain of Crewman Faenna’s work progress I have observed for the past weeks.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 49344.3
This evening after my shift and after I had eaten dinner, Ensign Green came to see me. She asked if she could talk to me for a while since she knew that I would be off duty tomorrow. I hesitated and then moved aside to let her in my quarters. She sat on the chair just opposite of me for a while as she spoke about her time at the Academy. An hour later she wanted to know if we could move to the large pillows that she spotted in the background. I told her that I use the pillows for meditation and that we could use them. She happily walked to the other side of the room to retrieve the pillows and she placed them next to each other on the floor. I didn’t want her to notice that the pillow she indicated me to sit on was pulled a small distance away from hers because I did not want to touch her. Once comfortable, she continued to tell me times of her life as a child and while she lived at home just before she went to the Academy. Because my mind was elsewhere, the only thing I can honestly remember her saying was that her family doubted that she’d be accepted to the Academy and that once in, they doubted that she’d graduate. Only her mother had faith in her and helped her claim the resources that she needed to achieve.
I tried to seem as though I was listening though all I could think about was touching her and pleasing her. I tried not to look directly in her eyes because I felt I would become lost in my temptation and that it would have the best of me. After about 2 and a half hours of her talking about herself she asked me what it was like to meditate, and she asked if we could. I gave into her request and unwillingly ordered the lights from 65% down to 25%. Cathy mentioned that she thought dimmed lights were romantic. When she asked me what I thought I told her that meditation requires strict self-control and silence; one of which I was losing a battle in.
Ten minutes had passed and I was finding it hard to concentrate with her near me. And when she broke the silence and started humming I told her that we had to stop the meditation because she was not concentrating. To which she replied that she was concentrating fine in the thoughts she was thinking. I did not respond. She then asked me if we could mind-meld so that I could help to concentrate more Vulcan like. Several thoughts went through my mind in a matter of seconds until I heard myself order the lights back to 65%. I told her that now was not an appropriate time to experience such procedures with me. She smiled and asked me if I wanted to know what she was thinking. I told her that meditation should be private as it is a silent duty, it should remain as such. She smiled and said that she should leave because she did have duty in the late morning. I was pleased for her to go because I was beginning to wonder if I would have to ask her to leave which I wasn’t sure I could anyway.
I noticed that we had not touched during the past three hours, that is until I walked her to the door and she turned to give me another hug. This one was very different from the last. Not only was it longer but also the embrace was stronger and I felt her palms press against my back and her chest to my chest. I wanted to place my hands on her but my concern was that I would not be able to control myself. My hands resting at my side, grew into fists of anxiety. I knew that she wanted more than the hug and I would’ve probably complied if I touched her. I inhaled the scent of her hair, which smelled like Engineering and tried to think about something other than her touch. She held on for 8.9 seconds until I asked her if she was feeling all right, to which she responded that she was feeling even better than I could imagine. I could not tell her that I knew because she would not have understood. I, myself, do not fully understand.
NOTE: Stardate: 49351.9 is Taurik’s day off.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 49360.2
Yesterday was my day off from Engineering and I spent the day in meditation and melding minds with Lieutenant Saaun. During our mind-meld I allowed Lieutenant Saaun to see what I had experienced and my recent deficiencies. She asked me a series of questions during the mind-meld, such as if I had a successful Pon-Farr in my last season, and if I was bonded in marriage to my mate, and if I was compatible with my mate. When I answered no to all three questions she stopped the meld and meditated and performed a telepathic purge.
After 15 hours of rigorous thought and control exercises she told me that my conscious body and my subconscious mind were aligned and that my subconscious body and conscious mind were aligned, making it difficult if not impossible to be at peace within myself. My body needed to complete what it had started 2 years ago in my last Pon-Farr season and my mind was beginning to feel the strain from the lack of inharmonious sub-state being. Because the Vulcan mind and body can be in two different areas of being the mind and body can separate, though unhealthy, it can and does happen. She included that what I was experiencing is in fact Pon-Farr and that it was possible because my last season ended incompletely and that my physical body was lacking the fulfillment of Pon-Farr which I need in order to be able to concentrate and be in full control of my life again. She insists that I not fight the urges that I have towards Ensign Green but rather nurture and explore the feelings. She concluded that if not with Ensign Green, than a suitable mate that I thought could withstand the force of Pon-Farr.
After Lieutenant Saaun left my quarters, I thought about her. I almost walked to her quarters to ask her to mate with me, but I held back and thought about it more. I knew that if I tried to take her as my mate she might rather engage me in combat, which would purge my blood fever. However, I tried that last time with T’Larka and this is the result 2 years later. I think this time I’m going to take a chance on physical sensual activity. It is what I prefer and it does always work. I will set my sights on Ensign Catherine Green, though I cannot wait too long. The longer I wait the more strain my body develops and it becomes harder to behave reasonably and think logically.
Chief Engineer Log
Stardate: 49500.7
Though less productive than most days, all systems are working at above standard operational levels and at peak efficiency. Level 5 system diagnostics were ran on main ship systems at 30 minute intervals for routine and to check for any time, space and other discrepancies.
I required the assistance of Ensign Green with the recalibration of the Harpititude Mason Coils located in Jeffries tube sector 3. Once calibration was complete, Ensign Green continued her previous tasks of surveying the status repeater boards for changes.
Crewman Faenna, completed her report on the Nacelle Support Pylon with the help of Ensign Terrill. Though, I requested Ensign Cathrine Green as my assistant in Engineering, I am not all that certain that I gave Ensign Charles Terrill, a fair chance to prove himself as a sufficient Assistant Chief Engineer. Both have exceptional work skills and at least for the moment I can focus easier on Ensign Terrill’s workload than Ensign Green’s.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Stardate: 49500.7
This morning things went according to plan. That is until I failed to notice that Ensign Green’s hand went to the keypad at the same time mine did allowing us to touch. After which I received yet another disturbing vision. The vision was not upsetting to the fact that I can receive it but the vision itself was disturbing. The Ensign smiled at me and continued to her station.
After a few hours of being forced to picture her thoughts of what she’d like to do to me against the warp core I tried to focus my attention to my work. The more I tried the more difficult it became. Her visions were strong and upsetting. I began to wonder if this was all she does everyday. I tired of the uncontrollable visions and decided that I would engage her to work with me on realigning the HMCs in the Jeffries tubes. I figured at least this way if I had her busy and in conversation then she would have to focus on something other than pleasing me or being please by me.
Unfortunately, my plan only worked momentarily, because she began thinking of what she wanted to do with me in the Jeffries tube. At first I tried to ignore it but when I saw her nude again, I stopped talking and looked directly at her to find that she was staring at me in a most disturbing manner. I felt that if we would’ve touched at that moment I would not be able to control myself.
Silence fell within the crawl space we shared and her thoughts began again. This time she was trying to figure out a way to fall on me and accidentally press her lips to mine, or imagining me closing the door and locking us in the crawl space and kissing her passionately. She continued with her thoughts until we’d apparently copulate. Suddenly, her thoughts stopped and I felt relieved. She then called me by my name which I truly do not prefer. Especially, since she refers to me as such in her secret desires. I have made it a point to tell each individual I encounter that I prefer to be called Lieutenant Taurik, unless I specify otherwise. When I pointed this out to her she quickly corrected herself and continued her inquiry about our luncheon. Though I wanted to turn her down, I couldn’t. My body wouldn’t allow me being that it had such control over me. My Pon Farr remnants would not let my logic intercede when the opportunity of fulfilling my physical desires arose. I agreed to meet her for lunch, and besides I had created a program for her a week ago in order for this event, it being her birthday. I have little doubt that she will be disappointed.
During the luncheon we touched again and I saw everything that she was thinking once more. I couldn’t take the thoughts. I thought that I was certain to attack her and I had to try to take control over my body though it was nearly impossible. I knew that she wanted me I just do not know how she would react. Would she give into my actions and react with the same intent with just as much animalism or would she scream and be offended at my physical contact and report me?
Just in the middle of her thought while she envisioned me removing her gown and exposing her body I dropped my utensil causing her to break her trance. She thought that I was in dislike of the food when in fact I let her know that I could no longer resist sitting there while she had such thoughts of me. She quickly became embarrassed and tried not to think about anything. She failed, she thought about all the times that she thought about us while I was nearby and she figured that I must have read certain thoughts when in fact there were a few thoughts that I had not known, but I certainly know them now.
My intensions were not to embarrass her but mainly to stop her excessive lust for me in my moment of weakened mental and physical state. After the luncheon I went to meditate in a separate holodeck with a background closer to Vulcan, hoping to get better results but believe I have failed.
Lieutenant Taurik Personal Log
Supplemental
Stardate: 49500.7
A little more than an hour before midnight, I tried to meditate again. Failing miserably in my attempt to control my physical behavior, I found myself replicating a dress similar to the one I saw Ensign Green dream about; only the color was different. I knew that she liked surprises judging by her previous thoughts. I was just hoping that she’s like the one that I had in mind for her.
Because I knew that her birthday gathering would end soon I decided that I would wait for her in her quarters, placing the dress on the table in the entrance. I placed a note on the dress, stating that I preferred her in blue hoping that she could figure out the dress was from me. I knew this had to work because I could only see myself attacking her and forcing her to bond with me through telepathic exchange, and I though I didn’t think it fair, it was becoming a logical idea. I find it amazing that I can think reasonably enough to stop my actions because the Pon Farr is becoming too much to bear. If this did not work, I would have had to resort to other measures.
Once in the Ensign’s quarters, I hid just behind a closet door where if she tried on the dress in front of the mirror facing the closet door I would be able to see everything, which is what I wanted.
The Ensign entered her quarters 12 minutes after I did and when she saw the dress, she dropped the items in her hand and brushed off the person that had walked her to her quarters helping her carry the other gifts and such. After his departure she quickly entered her quarters and locked the doors. She hastily took off her uniform and undergarments and placed the dress over her head and watched herself in the mirror for a few seconds until I spoke. She was surprised but pleased that I was there. She wanted me there. I kissed her and I could tell that she would do anything for me to be there. I knew that she fantasized about me but I had no idea that she felt so strongly and that she thought about me for so long. She had been thinking about me nearly the entire mission in several sensual situations, all of which I wanted to fulfill at that moment.
After we copulated I turned to leave and Ensign Green became upset and required of my presence. Though I felt that I had pleased her as well as myself she made it aware that she did not appreciate my abrupt attitude afterwards…..
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