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To R----
i told you i had always wanted to do this *yeah, i always wanted to go to a hotel with someone who either doesn’t love me or is afraid to say that he does* and i wait while you get the key the clerk wants proof you are over 18 Hell, I want some proof you are over yourself i told you i had always wanted to do this be with someone who has more heart than fear who could speak without avoiding "those subjects, babe, you know" *meaning anything you were too chickenshit to own up to; feelings for example* and now I am too bad it wasn’t you too bad you couldn’t wake up before i did Didn’t you ever want to be on time for something? I told myself I had always wanted to do this face a future that didn’t serve you up on a golden ring a future where you drift through my life like a lazy wind called ‘old friend’ i’ll see you out and try not to hear that old cliche who might have been? i’m not who i used to be that’s one thing i *know* i haven’t always wanted but i’m starting to like who i’ve become without you amazing how fast skin will heal when you pour on some johnny walker and light up much pain brings much change that’s the one difference between us now: do you like what you are now? i have to laugh because i know exactly what you have never had the guts to tell me - or yourself.. Yeah, damn, I love you, too. Idiot. Next Previous Home page My replies aren't as wordy as my poetry! Email me |
