"More Interesting things 2"
Well today is the day. Luis and I are finally getting married! I have waited and dreamed about this day for most of my life. I can hardly wait to walk down the aisle and see Luis standing there waiting for me. We have overcome so many obstacles to be at this point in our lives. I wrote so many times about our rocky beginning. We did not like each other on sight. Well, we were attracted to each other but neither one of us would admit it. I guess I always knew what a wonderful and loving man Luis was. I was just hurt and a little jealous that he would never show that side of himself to me. I never in my wildest dreams would have guessed that he was so romantic. I cannot imagine any man being as romantic as Luis.
He tries to make my every dream come true. He tried to make our first date the perfect date and he made his proposal the proposal of my dreams. Last night we were supposed to sleep apart(for the last time) Luis managed to sneak into the cottage and scare me half to death. He only wanted to lay a red rose on the pillow next to me so I would see it and think of him when I woke up. Needless to say, I never got to sleep. We talked and then he put on a tango. Of all music. I guess you could say that the tango is "our song". We danced. Big mistake. He danced me into the bedroom and we made love. I knew we would as soon as he touched me.
I remember the very first time that Luis and I danced the tango. I walked in on Pilar's birthday party. It was a family celebration and I was not welcome. The music began and Luis challenged me to dance the tango with him. I took him up on the challenge. I was nervous but I could not let him see. The tango is a dance for lovers. Luis and I were far from that in those days. We were anything but lovers. I guess I wanted to prove that this spoiled Deb (as he used to call me) was unafraid of a challenge and that I did have some talent. We began.
I remember hearing the music pulsing and being focused on Luis' dark Latin eyes. I am surprised that I did not melt right then and there. I sure it was just plain stubbornness and willpower that kept me from melting into him. We just flowed together. He was the best tango partner I ever had.
We were completely in sync. I said to myself that being with him feels so right. I felt that the tango was just a preview of how we would be if we ever made love.( I was right.) Then the music stopped and I was still lost in thought and in Luis' arms. A little embarrassed, I reluctantly pulled away.
I was worried that someone may have been able to read my erotic thoughts. I walked through the backyard that night that was so full of music, laughter and family love. I was envious. I never had that kind of family love and probably never will. That is the one dream that Luis cannot possibly fulfill for me on his own. I will never have the love of my brother or my father.
Look at what they tried to do to me. Look are what they tried to do with my relationship with Luis. How could they try to destroy the only real love and happiness I ever had? Thank god in heaven I gave Luis a chance to clear himself. I am angry with myself for not believing him unconditionally. If the break up plan using the imposter wasn't bad enough a few days ago my father came to the cottage spouting fatherly love and concern for me. He tried to get me to believe that Julian acted alone in hiring the Luis imposter. He hugged me and tried to use my vulnerability for a family love against me. He tried to get me to break up with Luis. Thank god I saw what he was trying to do.
He underestimated me. I am not as dumb as my brother Julian. Thank god. Luis showed up and told my father that nothing was going to stop him from marrying me. Luis even found out that Father had the cottage bugged. Father was furious. Remember I said that he never loses. I can not imagine him letting our wedding take place but I don't see how he can stop us now. I can just pray that if he will not give us his blessing that he will leave us alone. I want to spend the rest of my life with Luis and I don't intend to let anything on this earth stop me. Until death do us part...
