I awoke in the morning to find Nick's arms still wrapped around me. I unwrapped his arm and stepped out of bed. After picking out some clothes to wear I stepped into the shower. The water awoke me right away.
Once I stepped out of the shower, and into the coldness of the lonely room. The white sheets of the bed laid tangled on the floor. I could hear the tv on downstairs. The thought of not being alone was comforting at times like this. I dressed quickly in order to see Nick and talk to him about my plans for today.
But before I could go downstairs I felt really sick. I felt like I was going to black out. My first instinct was to lay down on the bed, but that made it worse I felt like vomiting. The room spun in circles around me. I stood up and stumled into the bathroom. I poured cold water on my face until I felt better.
This hadn't been the only time I had felt like that lately. So I ignored it. I just thought that I wasn't eating well and that I was stressing too much. I hadn't told anyone either. I had kept it to myself so not to worry them. I walked downstairs and continued as if nothing had happened.
Nick was relaxing on the couch watching MTV. He smiled at me as I came downstairs.
"Nick, I'm going to call at work and see if I can get the day off, so I can go to the hospital."
"Sounds great."
I picked up the phone and sat next to Nick. He put his arm around me and kissed me. Then I started dialing my work number. The secretary answered and she transfered me to the boss.
He didn't sound to happy when he answered. I explained what had happened. At first he sounded concerned, but then when I asked for the day off, he blew a fuse, and started yelling. Apparently he wasn't going to give me the day off. Before I had the chance to say bye to him, he hung up on me leaving me on the line talking to myself.
I hung up the phone dissapointed. Nick looked over at me, "I guess not," he said.
"I guess not," I repeated.
"Tell you what... why don't I go to the hospital and keep Alexis company and when you get out
of work you can go and join me?"
I hugged him and kissed him, "You're the best."
And that was the end of that conversation. I left for work leaving a house key for Nick just in case he needed something. I took his car and he took my car. He told me he was going to stop at his place to pick up somethings.
I felt much better now. I knew that what had happened to Alexis was not my fault, and that she could get better. A funny thought popped into my mind. It was about Oscar. I compared him to Nick and I thought of how if this had happened when I was with him, he wouldn' have supported me. I don't know why I was thinking of Oscar.
I laughed at myself for comparing Nick to him. Nick was actually someone who cared. He was someone who would be there, someone who if lost was actually worth crying for. I remembered the first time I kissed Nick. So many things had been flowing through my head and the instant he kissed me all those thoughts evaporated into thin air.
That was the way I felt about Nick. He made me forget all my troubles. He made me realize that love should be all it actually is. I had never felt this way about it before. What I felt for Nick was far greater than anything I had ever felt before.
A few rain drops hit the windshield. I had even taken notice that it was raining. My mind had been to clouded with it's own thoughts. The sky was an ugly gray the kind of gray that always depresses the happy people. So, from each rain drop that fell, my mood kept getting worse.
I turned on the air conditioner and listened to the millenium cd. I practically knew all the songs by heart now. I had changed a lot since I met Nick. He sort of always brought out the little girl inside me. Nick and I had planned a trip before this whole inciddent happened. So, of course I couldn't wait to fufill our plans.
I parked the car closer, to the animal clinic, than I usually did. I wanted to get this part of my day over so that I could go with Nick, Alexis, and Belle.
I ran from the car to the clinic to avoid as much of the rain as possible. It had started to fall harder now. There were huge rain drops falling blinding my vision.
When I was inside I dried my hair and wiped off the water from my jacket. I started working not putting much heart into it, but not being mean to people either.
I had too many thoughts in my head to even concentrate in my work. I'm lucky I didn't kill a few animals.
It puzzled me thinking about how my mother had never believed in true love. She had always said that love was for fools and sentimental people, and to her I was both. We never had the daughter and mother relationship I had wanted. She was always too busy critzing men, and I was always too busy loving them.
My mother was very superstitious. She once went to a palm reader, and regretted it for the rest of her life. The palm reader had told her that she was lucky, because love surrounder her. In the other hand she told her that her only daughter would not find true love.... ever. That scared me for a few days. I wouldn't talk to anybody, but I got over it.
I think about it now, and I see how wrong that palm reader was. I had found love, and it was the one that lasted for ever. Just thinking about that made my day better. Time flew faster with that thougth in my head, and finally I finished my work and was let go early.
Outside the skies were angrier.
I could hear the roar of distant thunder. I ran to the car and got in as soon as possible. Before heading towards the hospital I wanted to get something to eat. So, I stopped at a 7 eleven and bought a bag of hot cheetos and a soda. I stepped outside heading to my car, but before I got to the car something caught my eye. A little girl wearing a red coat stood next to the newspaper stand.
She looked at me with black sad eyes. Her eyes unblinking followed my every step. It scared me at first, but then I felt sorry for her thinking she needed money. I walked over to her and her eyes followed my every step.
"What's your name, hon?" I asked her.
"Esmeralda," she answered in a whisper.
"What are you doing here alone, Esmeralda?"
"Why are you happy?"
Her question surprised me. I looked at her with a puzzled face, "What do you mean?"
"Your eyes are smiling... as if there were great happiness in your life."
"There is," I said touching her icy cold hand.
"You say that with such sureness, but your eyes betray you."
I looked at her even more puzzled.
"Your eyes can betray you sometimes... and that's when you have to choose. Your choice in life will be hard, but someone or somethin will help you make the right choice."
Her words made no sense to me, and as I was going to ask her something the car alarm went off. I turned around to see what had set it off. A man yelled sorry to me and walked on. I pressed the button on the keychain to stop the noise. I turned back to ask Esmeralda the question but she was gone. No sight of her anywhere. I stood up and walked towards the car. My legs were wobbly and I don't even know how I made it to the car.
I turned on the car and drove to the hospital. The thought of the little girl gave me chills and so I tried to put it out of my mind. It was already late when I reached the hospital. The sky was black and the stars were covered with thick gray clouds. The rain continued to fall even harder now.
After parking the car I ran into the hospital. The smell of sick peole reached my nose. I took the elevator to the 2nd floor were Alexis' room was at. I saw Belle asleep in the waiting room as to not disturb her I dropped my things on a chair near by, and proceeded to the door.
As I opened the door I saw an unexpect sight. Nick was kissing Alexis! He had his back towards me and he was crouched over the bed kissing her.
My eyes welled up with tears, and the next thing I knew I was running. I ran down the stairs and outside into the pouring rain. Not knowing where to go I picked a random way and contiuned running blindly. I bumped into lots of people, but I continued running. I ran and ran until I felt myself falling and the last thing I remember seeing was a familiar face.
