Red is the color
Now Playing: I should be in bed now!
Topic: bed time but up
Wen. Dec. 29
Today I didnt wake up until 12. I was suppose to be at the Real Change office by 1 pm so I made a mad rush to get my stuff together. I grabbed a piece of bread stuffed it in my mouth and ran out the door.
My rushing didn't do much good. I saw the bus pass by as I was running for the stop. I looked at the bus post the next bus wasnt going to be there for another hour.
I didn't get downtown until almost two. I went to Real Change and they told me I would have to wait until next week. I was a little upset,but it didn't bother me. I walked around took a few busses to see where they went. Hung out at Seattle Center for a while. Then decided to go up to Broadway.
I stopped at a few stores,then went into Hot Topic. I looked around the store a while and decided to buy shoes because my shoes were falling a part and sprung a leak. So I picked out shoes, then a belt,laces, a patch and well you know how that goes. I was sucked in by sales. After I spent all my money I figured I had better head over to Joyces house if I wanted to find it and get a ride back to Spokane so I caught a bus back downtown and then the 54 to West Seattle. I got lost.
I walked and walked trying to remember where Joyces house was then after walking about 30 blocks I decided to ask for directions.After I got directions it only took me another half an hour to find the place.
Ryan and Myra were happy to see me and I to see them. I told them what I had been up to and then we all went to the basement and watched a movie. When the movie was over Myra decided that she wanted to go out and do something. We didnt know what though. We sat and thought. Bowling?Skating?Coffee Shop? After about half an hour of research and a few dozen suggestions we decided to go to Beth's Cafe.
At Beths we ordered fries,ranch and I ordered a whole pitcher of 7up. As we waited for the fries we sat around talked,doodled and I started on my pitcher. I took some pictures of course and before we left much to my suprise I drank an entier pitch of 7up. I regret it now because I am feeling a little sick.
Anywho now I am sitting up at all crazy hours of the night dinking around on the computer. I really need to go to bed because we are going back to Spokane in the morning. Which by Myra's time really means we will get out of the house around noon or maybe 1.

Hurray For Eggnog
Mood:  special
Now Playing: It feels like a dream
Topic: Monkey Dance
Tuesday
I woke up at 11 AM which was a shock since I hadn't made it to bed until almost 5, but I think it was due in part that I was freezing and had a lot I wanted to do. I got up,sat on the couch and drew in my little notebook for a little while. Made some patatos for Me,Erin and Chris. Called Leola and figured out a time and place that we would meet. Then I grabbed a bus transfer and walked to the bus stop.
When I went downtown the first place I went was real change and figured out when their next vendor orintation was. Then I walked all around downtown and took pictures of buildings,traffic,one of the piers. As I sat on the water side I decided if I wanted to go to Broadway I had better get moving so I started my painful walk up hill to the closest bus stop I knew that went to Broadway.
At the bus stop, near Zeeks, I sat on the bench next to a girl. I asked her what time it was. She told me and I said,wow its nice and warm here compaired to Alaska. She said,are you from there? I told her that I had just recently moved down to WA from there. We had a long conversation about where we were from and found out that both our mothers are originally from Hooper Bay and we are related to a lot of the same people. In short making us distantly related. Tamara and I both agreed that it was odd having met like that. I gave her one of my cards before we got on the bus.
The first place I went to on Broadway was the Laughing Budha. Thats the place I got my first proffesional tattoo, although I had one done before then. Anywho, I went there looking for Cylest so I could show her my most recent tattoos and found out that she doesn't work there anymore. I was mildly disappointed,but tattoo artists do tend to move around. I didnt let that get me down though. I made a few quick stops at a few stores found the time and realized that I needed to get back downtown.
I caught the 43 and got off at Westlake Center where me and Leola had agreed to meet. I stood there for about 20 minutes, walked around the tree. Asked the time stood for another 5 minutes.Then went over to a table where people from the Church of Scientology were giving free stress tests. I sat down got the stress test which I thought was kind of funny and decided to buy there book because I was really curious to see what its all about. Then I went back to the tree for another 20 minutes and Leola finally showed up.That was great timing I was just about to leave.
First thing we did was go to the food court and eat dinner and talked about all sorts of things. Current events in our lives,church,future plans and general conversation that is conducted among friends who haven't seen eachother for a while. After we were both finished with dinner we went to kits cameras and I went to get my pictures on disc. They said it would take half an hour.So we walked around the mall. Went to a sock store,candle store and a few other places. When we both agreed it had been about half an hour we went back to kits to get my disc. As we were about to leave I realized I had lost my mittens. We searched the mall up and down retracing our steps and finally found them.
Leola gave me a ride back to the Kangaroo house. I gave her a hug and said I'd keep in touch. Then I went inside. Hung out with a the people that were there. Just for my own memories sake I'll name them. Chris,Erin,Kailee,Josh,Devon,Eric,Carson and Darah. We stayed up until 3 am making things and organizing. There was also a wrestling match, game of tag and a long conversation about americas youth which was very interesting.

Seattle Rocks My Socks
Mood:  accident prone
Now Playing: Take me to Neverland
Topic: I Love Micheal Jackson
Monday December 27
I went downtown with Myra,Ryan,Nick and Alexis. We didn't leave until about 1:00 PM because the kids were being slow. When we got downtown we went to Left Bank Books and dropped off copies of the finger there. After that we walked around Pikes Place Market for a little bit and had a late lunch in the park. I gave Myra a hug and told her that I was going to go adventuring and find some of my other friends.
I walked around downtown Seattle not really paying attention to anything and I thought to myself, it would be nice if I had a camera. I had been thinking about getting a camera for some time and decided this would be a good a time as any. So I walked to Westlake Center, went up to Kits Cameras and looked at all of there models. I had some of them explained to me because I never really used a digital camera before. I got a price quote for everything I wanted and then went to BOA withdrew some money and went back and got my camera. I wandered around town for a few more hours then decided to head over to Georgetown (an industrial part of Seattle).
I caught the bus and went over to The Fire Breathing Kangaroo, its a community home my friends run and live in. When i got there Kailee was the only person there so I talked to her for a little while, updated her on what has been happening in my life and asked if I could stay the night. She said it was fine I could even stay a couple of days if I wanted. Since there wasnt much going on at the house I told Kailee that I was going to go to the Marco Polo.
On the walk over I thought for a second that maybe I didnt know where I was going,but it just took me a few moments to regain my berrings and remember where the place was. When I got there I asked Robert if it was ok to take a few pictures. He wanted to know what they were for and I told him I was going to put together a list of places I like to go in Seattle. He said that was fine. After I took a few pics and was satisfied with what I had I sat down at the bar and ordered a shot of vodka and french fries with ranch. Seven shots and a few bad stories later I told Robert that I was headed out. He gave me his e-mail addy and said I should keep in touch.
I walked back to the Kangaroo house, for a moment I thought that no-one was there so I looked around. I found Chris downstairs and he said that Kailee and Erin took off to Stellar Pizza. I chilled with him for a little bit and then I was on my way. When I got to Stellar I was introduced to Ben,Michelle and Bedja. We sat around and talked a while, then I ran back to the kitchen and gave Perry a hug. Then I introduced myself to Aubrey, the beautiful punk girl waitress. Then I sat around for a while and waited for Perry to get off work.
When he got off we walked to the Nine Pound Hammer because he wanted to have a few drinks. I was good so I just walked around and talked to the different people there. Then I started asking people for hugs. After I asked a few people for hugs I decided that I was going to see if I could give everyone in the bar a hug before I left. And I did. I hugged everyone including the bar tender. Perry decided he wanted to go home so I gave him a goodbye hug and hung around to talk to people. I met a lot of people that I dont really remember. I got a group of people to dance with me. I even got a girl named Tracy to dance with me in the street.
I decided that I was going to go back to the Kangaroo house,but as I was leaving Tracy asked me if I wanted to follow them. I said sure and hopped in a car and we went and partied and danced for a few hours. At about 4 maybe closer to 5 I decided to leave because I was really tired.
That I have to say was a great day

Seattle so beautiful
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: my feet smell like berries
Topic: Going out at last
The ride over went pretty well as far as weather goes. It was long and I wanted to go to sleep. We had to stop a few times because Nick got car sick. I loved the hills and water and everything my eyeballs absorbed on the ride over. I wish we could have stopped and took a walk someplace,but I guess its not my place to say since I'm just hitching a ride. When we passed threw George, Washington I was mildly amused, I think that is mostly because of how tired I was. We had to stop at a gas station in Ellesburg I think it was because Nick puked in the car. Its kind of funny, Nicks puke smelled kind of like bannana bread.
When we finally arrived in Seattle I was so excited, although if you saw me you wouldnt have seen a change unless you were looking into my eyes. Crossing the bridge and having the city come into view was like a dream. Gawd, I love this place.
We didnt do anything exciting last night because we were all tired. When we got in we went straight to Joyce's house (Myra's sister) made dinner, relaxed for a few hours then went to bed. Joyce is so middle class. When we came in she told us that she didnt really have much food and that she didnt go shopping for a while, but when we opened her cupboards they were pretty full. I had a little trouble keeping myself from laughing.
I have to go put on my socks and get out of here. We're going downtown! Oh yeah, I called Leola this morning. I haven't seen her in years and we are going to meet up tomorrow to do something. I met Leola here when I decided to be homeless.

What a Queer Christmas indeed!
Mood:  caffeinated
Now Playing: I shant pick my nose but once
Topic: No sleep hurts the eyes


Earlier this week Annett came up from Clarkston to visit me. I met her on hot or not and I must say her picture does not do her justice. She is so cute. Anywho, I spent all day monday and tuesday showing her around town. It was great because I found some new things around here. I felt bad on monday because Myra asked me to destribute papers and I took Annett on a little 4 mile hike up and down Monroe and Garland. That was splendid, me on 4 hours of sleep and her on 2. We werern't exactly happy campers after that. We sort of ignored eachother for most of the evening. We went to Constant Creations and made an appointment for the next day.Then we went over to the Sattalite for dinner. It was wonderful becuase I got to see Lily. I really need to get that girl out of my head, she doesn't seem to like me much and she has a boyfriend.
On to tuesday. I got up around 7 AM and sat in my room for a while and doodled because Annett was still asleep and I didnt want to disturb her.I finally started moving about around 8:30 and my little couch patootoo stayed in bed until 10. We just sat around for half an hour before getting up the energy to leave and as we were walking out Colin came out of his house and said,"Hey, I'll be over there in 5 min." We went back inside and waited for him for about 15 min, then I decided to go over to his house and see what he was doing, his house is kind of creepy so we decided to just leave. Annett and I went downtown and walked to the Italian Kitchen. She didn't seem to like her food very much, but it could have just been her nerves. After lunch we went to Constant Creations because it was time for Annetts appointment. We waited for half an hour, looked around, then the lady came in and had Annett pick her tattoo design. She said we could go and come back in about half and hour. So we left, went to the bus station to see what times the busses went to Lewiston(which is a stone throw away from Clarkston) Then we went to New Age Books, talked about what we were going to do in the evening. Went to a liquor store and bought the biggest Vodka in the place.
We figured it had been about half an hour so we started back to Constant Creations. Then there was about an hour of look at this picture how do you like it.-It's nice.-Ok, let me see it, ok now look. -Thats great.-Let me color the other side. I spent two and half hours holding Annetts hand while she got tattooed, poor girl cried a little at the end, I probably would have too if I got a tattoo near my Cha-cha. We didnt get out of there until 7PM and we went there at 1:30. Neither of us wanted to do anything more downtown so we went back to my apartment and I tried to call people to come over and drink, but everyone was busy. So I gave Annett my phone and told her to call her friend and I went to the store to by cranberry and orange juice.When I got back there was a strange guy standing outside talking on his cell phone looking at my house. It was Annetts friend Dominick (who she also met on hot or not). We drank a few more people showed up, they didnt drink though. When I was nice and toasty I mooned Annett and Dominick. When Annett was in the bathroom he bet me I wasnt brave enough to show him my nipple and me being drunk and not wanting to lose a bet I showed him my boob and he kissed it. Annett gave me a kiss and cuddled with me for a while. In the morning I woke up next to Dominick.Ewwww!
When Annett got up I took her downtown, got her breakfast and walked her to the bus station. I was kind of sad,but also happy that she was leaving. I didnt do a whole lot other than paint that day.
Thursday Becky was going to pick me up but she couldnt because the pass was closed, so I decided to try and hitchhike, that was pretty lame, I was cold and sad and I had to sleep on the damp slushy grass thrusday night.
Christmas Was Super!
Ok, I got back into town around 4 PM then I laid about for an hour and a half calling people to tell them Merry Christmas and all that jazz. I called Myra and she said she was having dinner at the bookstore and told me to go over. I called Becky, took a shower and made my way to the bookstore. Myra,Ryan and Nick(Myra's son) were there when I got there and we enjoyed a vegan dinner. About eightish Seth showed up and I gave him a big hug, he had spent a week in a light house with his family. Anyways, not to long after that Anna showed up and thats when the fun began. Sort of. I drank a lot of cola and we all drank some rum. Ryan went home, soon after Myra and her son went home. Seth, Anna and I stayed a little while talking and then Anna invited us to her house. I took the skateboard that someone left here at the bookstore.
When we got to Anna's Anna showed us some of her painting. We watched her snail eat for a while and talked about weird things. Anna made pita pizza that tasted very good, emmm emmm. Anna found a MRE hot pack in a drawer and I told her how to use it. Oh yeah! Anna set a pan on fire when she was cooking and it made the house stink and Seth set it on a dirty old piece of carpet outside and then it stunk like catpiss for a while. Back to the hot pack, I gave Anna some water and she put it in the hot pack. We were all entertained by it getting hot. We decided to put things in it, I put a few carrots and I forget what Anna put in. We laughed for a while then I added some lemon juice and we brought it outside to see if we could get it to expolde. We tried with no success. We got bored and left it in the back yard. Anna put on some music and I started playing with a trumpit that had no mouth piece, Anna said she found it in her basement. Seth and Anna were both able to play it, so I said ,"hey lets go outside." We did and they played, we were trying to bother people. We danced around for a while, went back to the back yard and checked on the hot pack, the carrots were kind of cooked. We opened it up and it sort of smelled like cheep hotel. At that point I decided to go home so I took the skateboard and headed in that direction. When I got home I decided I wanted to skate longer so I went around the area for a few hours. I got home about 2AM, I couldnt sleep because I was wired on caffine so I decided to paint and I stayed up all night painting and drawing stupid cartoons.And now I have an art gallery that I am going to open to the public.
Anywho, I have to get back home and pack a bag, I'm hitching a ride with Myra to Seattle and we were suppose to leave about an hour ago.
I'll write about my trip when I get back.
later later

Oh WOW!
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: As a stripper!
Topic: I want your baby's
Its been a horribly long time since I made an entry. I dont even know whats happened. I dont work at the bank anymore. I dont live in Bethel and I dont have a job. lol, anywho. I guess I'll just right about whats happened since I moved to Spokane, which was about a week ago, add a few days. I moved here last sunday. The first thing I did when I got here was found a hotel room. Went out to a bar got pretty drunk and decided I would try and walk back to my hotel, which was about 4 miles or more from the bar.
That was a bad idea from the get go. I was stumbling around walking down the street heading out to Spokane Valley (where my hotel was) I bumped into a hooker and she asked me for a smoke, so I took out my Camel lights and handed one to her. I asked her for directions, because I didnt really know where I was going. The hooker told me to go down this one street and I did. She followed me and we got into a fight because she wanted my bag.Luckly I won and got a way with only minor scratches. Hookers are evil!
Anywho, the next day I looked for apartments, and it wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be. I got an apartment within a matter of hours.
Lets see, I want to cut a lot of stuff out because I need to edit some stuff soon so here it goes.
Tuesday
I wondered town, found a lot of different places mostly by luck. I went to value village,bought a bike. Pushed it around until I got to Myra Sues books (myras now my friend) talked to her for a while, went down the street found a bike store bought a brand new bright yellow bike(i named it hanna) Road around town all day. Found my apartment after an hour and a half of seaching. Went to the store bought junk for my apartment. Went back to Myra Sues becuase there was a punk show. Met a lot of cool people. Went to my hotel room and picked up my bags with myra sue and ryan. Went back to my apartment and slept on a foam board and bubble wrap in my snow pants. I had no furinture or blankets.
Wend.
Went downtown and bought a bus pass, went back home. Took my bike and headed for SCC because I had to take a test. Got lost on the way, asked for directions, found out i was on the wrong side of the river. Found SCC then realized I left my wallet and ID at home. It was ok I had my check book. Paid for my test and then went to take it. Did better than I was expecting. Road back home. Got lost again. Went to Value Village to buy a pillow and blanket and other house stuff. Went shopping for food.Went to Myra Sues and she brought me to a finger meeting where I met Lily (a girl I'm obbsesed with,but I'm sad she has a boyfriend) Went home, slept on the floor,but this time with a blanket and pillow.
Thurs.
I got up early so I could go wondering. I found a place and bought furniture. I was suprized when they said it would only cost $25 to deliver it all. I went downtown.Went shopping, spent more money that I should have.Went out to SCC and registered for classes, I'm going to be taking Kickboxxing,English 101,Speach 101 and Math 91 yeah I suck at math. I went to a record store and bought some cds.Road my bike to Cricket (phone company) and got myself a cell phone.I went and hung out with Myra and then we went to a party at Jeremys house. I carried Myra on my back to her car just so I could call Lily. I told her I liked her. I think I scare her,but who cares? I went home and slept on the floor.
Friday
I got up early the movers called and said that they were coming over with my stuff. I sat and waited for about half an hour, they showed up and I helped them move the stuff in. I was so happy, one of the movers gave me her number, shes cute,but has a boyfriend. I didnt really do much on friday, went and hung out with Myra,Rich and his sister, I forget her name,but I think its Shanna.
Saturday
I got up late, it was horrible. I spent all day making sure my house was extra clean because Lily was going to come over. I went to the store and got some more food, I started cooking around three. I cooked and cooked. I ran to Value Village because I wanted to fix there bikes, they were being butts and said I couldnt so I went to Myras and got Seth and Anna to give me a ride to Value Village, I bought all of them and gave them to Myra. Geez this is taking for ever. I went back home and cooked for a few more hours. Looked at the clock, it was almost 7, so I went to Myra Sues and waited for Lily, we were suppose to meet there. She didn't show. I was sad, I called Myra and she said Lily wasnt coming. So I invited Rich over for dinner. He came over, we ate and then went to his house. I spent most of the time talking to his sister. Me and Rich left and ended up at a party. I met a lot of cool people there, I dont really remember any of them except for Matt and Krystal. I didnt get home until 4 AM
Sunday
What did I do sunday? Oh yeah I went downtown and hung out, road my bike up and down the streets. I found a tattoo shop. I went in and made an appointment, I went home and went to sleep. Yeah sunday was boring.
Monday
I got up earlie and went to made myself a nice breaky. Went to the tattoo shop, got my tattoos done. One is on my back and it looks really cool, I also got one on my wrist that says "made in the 80's". Its great. I hung out with Rich for a while, he was being kind of weird so I went off and wondered by myself. I was being crabby most of the day because my tattoos hurt.
Tusday
I got up, went to Myras hung out for a little while and read a book. Rich called and we went downtown, he bought me some lunch, I would have bought it myself,but I dont spend money on tuesdays anymore. i went back to Myra's and worked for a few hours. I talked to Anna for a while and she said she was going to apply at a strip club, I went with her and decided I would apply to. We talked to a few stripers and I gave a few of them my number and Anna asked one to marry her.
Today
I got up and went to do my laundry. Anna called me because she wanted to go stripper shopping with her. We went to the mall went shopping, had lunch and Anna stole a dog from Vitorias Secret. We went riding. I pissed off some angry mexicans that live across the street.Now I am scared to walk down my street, myra gave me a tazer so that makes me feel better. Me and Anna went to the strip club, it was great. Anna was there for amature night. When she danced she was really bad,but I gave her a dollar and she put her boobs in my face. I wanted to laugh so hard, it was funny. Anyways I'm back at myras bookstore right now and I need to help seth edit the finger articals.
later gators
angela

9 mm icecream
I want to move into a three bedroom cubical and name all of my plants as i sit and grow old in front of my computer. I think I would also give my plants names and dress them up in baby cloths. For I would be working all the time and would have no time for real relationships except for the 15 minute gossip talk at the water cooler. This is where I see myself in 20 years.
Ok maybe I am not serious about that. I dont know if I am serious about anything and that is becoming a problem. Emotionaly anyways, I am to flighty and it sometimes scares me. What if I end up alone! I guess in the end we all end up alone,but I would rather be in love for someone 50 years.I dont know what love is though. I dont think anyone really does. Love is just an Idea, a dream. Its as real or as fake as you want it to be. Love is nothing more or nothing less than you make it. I just dont understand. It confuses me. I'm trying to find that emotion with people I date,but its just not there. Maybe its just because I haven't found the "right one".Maybe I am just to young, or maybe its just not ment to be for me.
Anyways, I'm excited about my trip to Seattle this summer. I decided my first legal drink is going to be at chuck e cheese. My grandma is going to fly into Anchorage with me. Jayme is coming to. I think its going to be a blast.
I have to go, I'm going over to Copes house to watch a movie and eat chilli.
later
angela

Sweat Fest!
I smell like yucky sweaty me right now, I just finished running 3 1/2 miles,lifting wieghts and doing crunches.I haven't showered yet, ewwww. I am getting so excited to go to Seattle.Just a few more weeks, about 6. Anywho, I made myself excercise because I was being a lazy bum last umm yesterday. I didn't get home until about 5 in the morning, Nicole, Netta, Matt, Janice,Cope,Dustin and I were all partying it up. Celebrating memorial day in the worst way =). I think I've been spending to much time with Nicole and other people. I am in need of some alone time, but whenever someone calls and wants me to hang out I do. Its one of my weaknesses, I have trouble saying no even though I really should. I need to stop by Dal's I haven't see her in over a week, I'm starting to miss her and cranky baby. Oh yeah, I decided I am going to move down to Washington in December. I might go on a little tour of the country first, I doubt I will but I'm going to try. I am just getting tired of being here. I need a change. Knowing me I'll be back here within a year though. No matter how hard you try you can never run away from home. I'm gonna give it my best shot though. I've got to go wash my stinky cloths and my stinky me.

until later

angela

sweaty angela

hair be gone
Today I cut my hair, I had been thinking about for a week now and during my lunch break I just cut it off.I was just standing there in the girls bathroom and just chopped away.Everyone at work was shocked when I came out but after the shock they seemed like they liked it.I decided I am going to move to Seattle in December with my buddy Nicole if she wants to come with me.It's almost 2 A.M. and I can't sleep so I'm sitting here listening to music writing about my average day. I was hung over at work today(or yesterday,whatever) because I went out and drank with Cope on monday night, I was suprised I made it to work. Other than that theres not much happening. Until next time goodnight, I need some zee's.
much love,
angela

poem i wrote today


Walked in the rain to see you
Stood outside your door
Raised my hand to knock
but I just stood a moment more
Water running down my face
A slight ring in my ears
tryed to knock but couldn't
I was drenched in fear
Looked out at the street
wiped some water off my cloths
tryed to knock one more time
Then I turned to go

Seattle's coming near!
Wow, a million things happened. I got a raise and a promotion at work a few weeks ago.So now I am CSR,teller, and vault teller.Well on my way to becoming Ops Supervisor and is such a short amount of time.I like my co-worker Cope, but just about everyone I talk to knows that fact, possibly even him. I'm a god mother! To little miss Brodie. Oh yeah, I've also become an e-bay addict.I've spent so much money on junk I don't really need,but I keep going back, that site is worse than a crack addiction. I got one of those huge 15'x15' bouncing castles, it is so awsome I've drempt about having one of those since I was a little kid.What else, my mom came here for Camaii and my little sister didn't even recognize me =(.The most exciting news is I've got my trip to Seattle planned out.I'm gonna go to a few Mariners games,the Seattle Center,hang out at the public market,go to the show box and lots of other cool stuff.Anywho I keep telling myself I am going to write in this thing more often,but I never do,but hey I've been busy.
until next time,angela



this picture was taken by my pal Miss Corinne