I'm BAAAACK!
Mood:  a-ok
Hello :) What's going on??? OMG it's been So long! well yesterday...i hit 81 LBS!!! YAY! i'm ALMOST there!!!! i haven't figured out yet just how much i have to lose yet to meet my ultimate goal...but it will be a while i'm sure!

i really do need to get eating my protien tho! it's gonna catch up to me and when it does i'm gonna be so mad because i knew it was going to happen! it's just hard, because it all tates so yucky! i try to eat as much protien as i can, but when a food just dosent sound good, you dont want to eat it!

Long time no speak!!!
Mood:  bright
HOLY COW...it's been far too long since i wrote anything! it's almost my 2 month surgerversary! tomorrow is my weigh day, but i've lost 63 lbs so far! i'm having a hard time figuring out what foods are easyer for me to eat than others. and it really stinks when foods sound really good, but then you go and eat them, and it's so dissapointing because you have to chew the crap out of it in order for you to swallow, and then it just losses it's flavor! it's soo annoying but i thought i was doing really bad with my calories, but i'm not i'm doing very well, i'm supposed to have 300-400 calories a day, and i'm just in that catagory! and protien, i could use more of, but i'm working on it!

My One Month Surgerversary!!!
Mood:  silly
Topic: One month!!!!!
Holy Cow! I cannot belive it's already been a month!!! It went by so fast! I weighed myself today and so far since surgery I've lost 15 lbs! dosent seem like much to me, but that's ok at least it's less than what I was! and I feel great so I guess that counts twards something too! I've started going to water arobics every tuesday and thursday, which I'm not supposed to yet, because I'm supposed to have waited 6 weeks before I do any major exorsizing, and 6 weeks before I can go in the water. But...the few times I've gone have gone well, I didnt hurt myself, or push myself too far so I would get hurt. It's so much fun, I'm going to be so sad when it ends!

My eating has been going great! I eat about 1/4 of a cup at every meal, sometimes I can eat a little more, and sometimes it's a little less. but usually it's right around 1/4! which is where I'm supposed to be. I've been bad at protien however, which is going to catch up to me soon enough! Everyday I try to eat something with peanut butter on it. Because I really dont like much else with protien. I cant eat chicken and eggs everyday that's for sure! but I do try to eat my protien first before I get full of other stuff.

I get to go back to work sometime next week around the 5th I think, and I can hardly wait!

Hellllllaaaa
Mood:  on fire
Topic: Post-Op
Hey...today i went water arobicing! lol it was great! my calves hurt like heck! that's why my mood is on fire! anyway...that's pretty much all i have to say...nothing has been happening...tomorrow i'm going to weigh myself..at the beginning i was weighing myeself every day...so mom took the scale away...so tomorrow i'll weigh and see what i am...i'm going to do that every friday! so i'll let ya'll know how i do!

Here i am again!!
Mood:  hungry
Topic: Post-Op
I'm sooo sorry that I've become so bad at entering in this journal! I've been doing much better lately, I feel so tired so frequently. However not tired enough to sleep, but just *blah* feeling. I need to get out of this house, I need to see people again! It sucks HUGE that I've been stuck here! Although, now I should be able to get out and drive. I havent taken my pain pills in a few days, so therefore I can drive again. Which I'm so glad about!

I've been eating ok...I cant get myself to drink anymore of the carnation instant breakfast, however I know that I really have to drink it because it's such a good source of protien! Today I didnt drink it. I ate my protien instead. But I didnt eat all of it. I'm still working on it!!!

it's been a while hu????
Mood:  lazy
Topic: Post-Op
wow...i'm sorry! it's been sooo long since i've written! i cant say i've been busy, but i've been tired! i've been spending most of my day in my bed! lame i know, but i've just been feeling lazy! so anyways, i thought it may have been because i've been taking my b12 at night, because when i go to bed without taking a pain pill, i am very antsy, and feel like i cant get comfortable, but when i take a pain pill, it just knocks me out! so today i took my b12 in the morning instead of at night. I'm hoping that that will help, because i'm sick of taking the pain pills expecially when i dont have pain! and when i take the pills, i sleep for usually 12-13 hours!!! that's way too much!! i love it but that's just too much!

i've been eating a lot of new things latey. I tried chicken like grilled chicke, then i put some cheese over the top and diped my peices into salsa. it's very good! also i really like this one...i took a half of a banana, smashed it all up with a fork, then added about 1-2 tbsp of peanut butter! and smashed it all together. oh it's sooo good and has TONS of protien! i'm having a hard time eating 3 meals a day and drinking 64 oz of water. like i said before, the waiting a half hour REALLY STINKS!!! in that hour of waiting...i could have drank about 10-15oz!! and doing that 3 times a day....that's 30-40 oz right there!!! it's nuts! but i know i have to do it that way...i just dont like it!

well as of today i've lost 38 lbs. i have to go by my scale...but if i were in the cities it would be 40 lbs! their scale is exactly 2 lbs different from mine! so anyways by thanksgiving i want to have lost 50 lbs, but thanksgiving is in less than 2 weeks, so i dont know if that's a realistic goal or not! we'll just have to wait and see!

i'm sick of counting days....so i'm not gonna anymore!!!
Mood:  chatty
Topic: Post-Op
Hi! today I did a lot more eatin than drinking! well in a way i guess! It really sucks, when you have to wait a half hour before...and a half hour after!! I HATE IT!!! it's just so time consuming! it takes me an hour to drink 8oz of water....or whatever...then it takes me at LEAST a half hour to eat 1-2oz of food! then when your drinking water every 5 minutes, or at least trying to...you have to think about when you should stop, so you can plan when you want your next meal to be! it's crazy!!! I just want all this rediculus pureed food stuff to be over with...i want to be able to eat whatever i want again, i want a soft shell taco with sour cream...and those little potato things u get at taco johns! or i want a slice of pizza with all the fixins! and i dont even like the fixins!!! i want to be able to go in the kitchen and grab a handfull of nuts and eat them for a snack...i hate this "you cant have that for a few more weeks" business!!! it's NOT fun!!! oh and ya know what else, i dont like that i feel that i have to burp...but no matter how hard i try...it dosent come out! what's with that...it's a bubble...bubbles go up...why does mine all of a sudden go down????? UHHH...today has been a frustrating day for me!!

Day 10
Mood:  caffeinated
Topic: Post-Op
I ATE TODAY!!! real food!! pureed of course! but my god i ate!!!!!!! and it was soo good! at grandma's she made this hotdish stuff. it just had noodles, tomatoes, and hamburger in it, but my goodness was it sooo good! i got to take some home !!! then mom and i went to the grocery store and i baught some baby food. it's good, i'm eating some banana's right now, but i enjoy real food! i cant wait until tomorrow, mom is going to make cheesy potatoes, and green beans! yumm!!!! oh and i'm feeling great! i have no problem with anything so far!

Day 9
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Post-Op
Hey!!!!!!! all is going well still! i feel great, i'm a little more tired today however than i have been, and i'm not sure why seeing as i havent dont anything today like i have been, such as shopping! Stacey gave me these protien things, they have 25 grams of protien in them, and they really dont taste that bad. at least i dont mind them! other than that, everything is going well! i have 6 more days of this dumb liquid diet! i cant wait until i can taste food again! i'm thinking about going for a walk around the trailer park here, before we leave for auntie carols.

One week check up!
Mood:  bright
Today was my appointment in the cities, it went well, i didnt loose anything yet, but my nurse said that that's alright because it's only the first week, and i'm still swollen from surgery. my doctor said that i looked to be doing great, my wounds healed nicely. i go back a week from today to see my dietition.

Mom and i did lots of shopping, i baught a bunch of XXL shirts at old navy...in the regular womans section! it was at the outlet center, so it was cheaper, and also on clearance! it was so much fun! i also got a few gift ideas for people!

my drinking is going good, as usual, i drink about 60-70oz a day which is exellant!!!! i get to start my pureed foods in one week! i'm soooo exited.... 3 weeks down 1 to go!!!!