THINKTWICE:

To inspire myself through myself, I choose to thinktwice.

031116- I hate the fucking-jackass-faggot loving queer. Today, our world has become flooded with openly gay homos. Fuck these people. Queer Eye for the straight gay sympethizer, Will and Grace, and all the fucking reality dating shows are all over the television. Damn, 50 years ago these people would have been shot. Fuck the disney fruits too. later.

031003- Traditional. Contemporary. How they blend is like oil and water: They do not mix, but they do complement eachother.

030812- orange. i pier out into the horizon, but know not where the world begins nor ends. this is irrelevant because the world needs none, has none. as i am swept into the grassy meadow by a light breeze -as if its sole purpose was meant to guide me- i encounter a little squirrel in front of me. he tells me that i am near the truth. and that the truth has no beginning and no end. i pluck a sour grass weed from the earth to chew on as i keep my steady pace into the meadow. trees positioned every 30 or 40 yards. sky not blue. ORANGE. it truely intrigues me how much at peace i am in at this moment. ''' im gonna go eat and orange.

030731- listen to this "I am dreaming, dreaming away � Drifting into unconscious melodies � I am drowning, in my own words � Drifting into unconscious melodies... again � Once again, I can feel this again � One more time... � It's inside of me, I sit silently as I let it all go � And it's all that I need is to not to need myself anymore � And I drift away (yeah)... drift away � I am standing, not alone � Tracing the words that I have received and I'm drifting into unconscious melodies � I am breathing in and out, hear these words come out and I'm drifting away into unconscious melodies... again � Once again... I can feel this again � One more time... yeah � It's inside of me, I sit silently as I let it all go � And it's all that I need is to not to need myself anymore (yeah) � I'm letting go - I am, letting go (yeah) � I'm letting go - I am, letting go � And I am letting go... � Once again, I can feel this again, one more time... " -jessica dobson

030729- yo waddup man, just sittin here wonderin about the truths of life. feelin really high but high off nothin wonder why. take a change. take a chance. it is there, opportunity awaits, man just don't be scared . youre not realizin. try to take the simple things in life and see beauty in them and wonder why they spark and glow with the lovely style they repreent. enjoy life u have long to live. love my family. that never thinktwice. '''';'' im cool you are too.

030727- thanks for nothing. i am thanking something for everyone. thanks for being able to feel thanks i think.
i feel low and high and the same time, why? perhaps it is that my anger presents myself shy. wonder why. never want to cry because then id loose something inside and never get by. need water. drink water. seat water, but mix it with gatorade powder. im fuckin insane, and listening to my insides scream louder. ...but i am okay, honest.
they fly away and hope they safe, they will be thats the case. kiss their face and wish them off to a fun place, when they come back then i go. then i come back then i dont know. so how's the weather, yo?
opportunities arise and i fail to do anything about it. wondering why and what if and how if and should if. could if. i wanna smoke a splif. shes just not it. i know it. and i fail to mention it. musta slipped through my head. other one isn't either so what the hell am i doing? ;'''';' later sk8ter.

030714- such a lovely voice. better make the choice. feeling it in the dreamlife, but i best be off rid one with a knife. i strive to get there, i swear, but will i ever be able to endure her stare? no way. hope it gets better in the end. no end is meant for such foolish shit anyways.
i will have to conclude that there is no end. shit, then i guess i cannot conclude. fuck the prefix "con" because it is not a pro. made no sense. yes! '''''';' happy now?

030618- switchin and twitchen and bitchin, thats all these people do. wonder who the fuck are you. switch it but don't twitch it. i once trayboarded off a tree. but that is the different opposite poin of it. not like sunny. but like mooney. i didn't moon you relax. trip. the united states that states that whatever.
but fuck it, drink till you drop, drink till you stop. stop cussin and fussin and just drop , on E. easy as it is which is not as easy as it sounds. get it? nope. i don't but this doesn't matter. when you're tweakin everyday of the weekend. thats only 2 hahaha.';'';'; love it!

030422- fucker you are a stupid fucking fucker. and fuck fucks who fuckin like your fuckin ass. you should take a good look at yourself thomas and stop fuckin around you fuck! ;;;;; fuck off!

030320- im worried, scared, and skepticaly. wanna wish this shit away, okay. gotta final tommorow day, what can i say. i spit shit like this and get it on the point dont miss.
gotta go, gotta run ''';' bye bye.

030317- WAR. here it comes and no one cares. mind nothing and please dont mind me but i am still undecieded about it, but if someone where to ask me, i would say i am gainst it, merely because i have not yet been convinced that there really is a threat. you laugh at how easily i said that sitting comfortable in your , my room with your thermal and heated warm and cosy house away from the terrors of the world, yet could be so very close. don't thinktwice about not reading this last paragraher . unless you wanna thinktwice twice.
i am sleepy and i cannot wait until friday when i can drink freely and get drunk of my lazy ass. i need to start working out. fuck man, despite the wonderful day it was today i still managed to write such a downer. this entry is really NEGATIVE. ';';'''peace in the middle east!

030316- man oh man. can i just fail? beacause i often find my mind i call mine slower than a snail. whatever. what is successful life anywayz? why just cant we be lazy in a fazy for the rest of our dazy? member the days of donald and daisy? duck that is. fuck what is? im stuck on is, or is not shit i get hot and can't spit it out?
what a crazy world we in and we will one day blow it up. shit . fuck man, we were all put here to love-cherish-lure-endure-toy-hate-kill-and destroy eachother. not in that order sometimes. but sometimes in an way too late to do the others on the list. u get it thomas? thinktwice. got it now? yes i did, i do. yes you i got it. i still love you thomas ;';;';; take care of yourself!

030302- yesterday was in a blank snow state today im in a different mind state. Ed messed himselfs shin yester. and i knocked the wind outta my myslef. but it was a good day of snow powder style.
lets think to today time. cuz today is where i need to say FUCK get to work! ;;';; late.

030226- i take 2 mintues to show you myself who the thoughts i spew. just a few jotted down that i spotted round in my pillow sound alseep through. by the way congrats mom!
im drawing a blank i thank none. ';';;'peace out my hommie.

030225- back again. agian no time to think either. either right nor correct. correct me if im wrong. wrong enough ive had enough. enough of what. what you ask. ask me once and ask me twice. twice is nice when you like to thinktwice.
today i will count how many green lights i stop to think if i should go at yet.
its amazing how my mind understands nothing and everything of this like jumbled so. ';''';'i love you!!

030224- now i can say to myself anything i want to and not trip over it. maybe maybe not. can this be the beginning of something rather peculiar? i hope not, because i have always been against these online journal things. i actually do not hate them. just love them. whatever...
i understand where my life is headed right now, but i also know where my life might veer off and into what i do not know. sometimes i feel like this is it for me. sometimes i feel like ill live to be 93. lets see . i was born in 83 so add 93 then ill be sure to be livin to see 2070. where? who knows? might have a beach house in arizona.
im feelin down feeling low. need to be feelin the ceilin high. wish i tried. to discover an alpine high. to peer through my lenses and cleanse my soul through the yellow orange sky. that id climb so high to be too shallow to wonder why i did not try before. but fuck it. nows the time and day i say that itll all come out my way. it may. so rather than stay tight i sway right. get out of my way i say nothing today. to make no sense and make nonsense and at the same time trying to make 10 dollars and 4 cents. its rotting away at my scenses like an irritating incense. so whether im in scense or outta scense i dont make sense since i was tense i just let it out. :: horrible paragraph
something that catches my attention is the ability to.. wait. i need some time to think.
tomorrow i cannot dream because my dream time starts at the time i start to oversleep. i need to get off the sheets before 6 i think. i truely hope that one day i will figure out the hidden meaning that lies behind every single one of my dreams since the time i first dreamed dreamt dream$%............ shit. its late and i have still to write a proper sentence or one worth of reading. or writing then reading back for my reassurance.
i hate the way i have come to sell myself short. in short. i believe that we were all meant to serve one of two purposes. it just depends on which one we choose. we can choose the incredible outstanding one, or the sell-yourself short one. fortunately for me, even though i would sell myself short-- thomas you know just stop writing.
thinktwice for myself because within myself i can understand what others cannot. that might come after twice around time. ;';';;'; goodnight!