well, seeing as this is my first blog, i'm gonig to do a review of the happenings in my lfie which are likely to be in future blogs.
ok, during the summer i started going out with a girl that i had met the year before. (our first date just happened to be where we first met) the biggest problem in this was the fact that i was 16, and she is 13. naturally, her parents feared me. but we worked around that. anyhow, that was mid-july. the relationship lasted...until the first day of school.
that day, i got home to find a message on my machine. it was her tellnig me to go to her house. i could tell something was up by the way her voice was. i end up there, and about 2hours later, i was single. but, she didn't want to call it a breakup. she wants to follow, a "game paused" theory. that we'll get back together sometime, just not now. i respect that.
i'm hurting throughout the week at school, but i lvie through it. especially with her firned saying things along the lines of 'she's just going to see how this goes, for like a couple of weeks.' i have learned the idea of hoping for the best, but preparing for the worst quite well.
saturday of that week, i had called her and she had seemed to be avoiding talking to me. she calls me on monday, and i find out why.
she'd gotten a new boyfriend on saturday.
that's where i got my shattered is an understatement idea. you write best when you feel what your writing.
anyhow, that flopped. she recently dumped him. but there's still bumps in the road.
the one that gets me the most, is that she's had 3 reasons as to why she dumped me. 3. when there's only supposed to be one...and she never seems to be telling the truth. not neccesarily that she's lieing, but more as if she is hiding something.
oh, right, the excuses. anyhow,
#1 - she feels better as us being friends. even though this hasn't been working too well, but i promised her that i would fioght for our friendship if i needed to...
#2 - she feels i deserve better(HA!) this is where that idea that she's hiding something starts coming into play. it was far too hard for her to say that to me. her explanation of that "i lvoe you so much, i don't want to let you go"
#3 - she wants to enjoy being a kid. which is the most logical so far out of the three. problem with this one? she hasn't said that to me. i got it off the grapevine.
so, tonight i'm going to a friends birthday party(i'm going to be spinning the tunes! ) and she's going to be there. i'll write about what happens tomorow.