"Hey LO!" He called
"Hey what?" I said back. He came up behind me and made me turn around.
"What Bri?"
"This." And he kissed me.
"Wow." I said as I pulled away.
"What?" he asked, smiling.
"Nothing, lets go watch the movie." I said walking past the bunks.
"LO, we need to talk."
"About?"
"What just happened."
"There's nothing to talk about."
"LO..."
"Brian."
"Please talk to me."
"Guys start the movie, we'll make snacks." I said walking to the kitchen
area, I popped a bag of popcorn in the microwave and started it. "Talk." I
commanded.
"LO, I like you. I think you could tell that. I want you to be my
girlfriend."
"Brian, I don't think so. I mean, I'm just starting as a musician, people
will think I'm using you, we just met and to top it off, I.... well, lets
just say I just broke up with someone." I rubbed my head. I needed to lay
down. I was making myself sick. My head was throbbing and the room was
spinning. I grabbed onto Brian's arm.
"LO whats wrong?" He asked, looking truly concerned.
"Nothing, I just got a little dizzy." I said standing "Look, I just don't
want to get hurt again. It's only been a short while ."
"OK. I understand." He said with a forced smile.
"Now, take this popcorn and pop to the starving people in the back of the
bus. I'll be in, in a minute." I said, heading to my bunk.
Dear Diary,
What have I gotten myself into? Brian kissed me again, this time it
wasn't a dare. He asked me to be his g/f, and I said no. I don't know if I am
ready for a new relationship. I mean, I know I am over John, but last time,
I went from Ben to Brett without even waiting but a few days, and I got
hurt... bad. It has been a few months. OK, so barely even a month. But I have
been through so much shit in my life that I am just used to grieving fast. I
don't think Brian would purposely hurt me... he's the sweetest guy I know. I
am sure I am ready. But I am also afraid that someone will find out. I don't
want people to think I am using Brian for a boost in my music career, I'm
not. I really do like Brian... I have since the first day I saw him, which
wasn't just this morning as you obviously know. Anyway, I am letting this
get to long so I best be going. Love ya Babe!
~LO
I walked into the room. It was a cute scene. Nick was sitting on the couch
and Jenny was laying with her head on a pillow which was on Nicks lap. Steph
and AJ were on the floor in the same position the were earlier, Howie and Kevin had gone to bed,
and Brian was leaning up against the couch. Nobody saw me so I ran back to my
bunk and picked up Patch and my Grandview blanket. I wrapped the blanket
around me, and walked back to the room. I sat next to Brian. Patch was
between my legs with his head on my leg. I must have fallen asleep, cause the
next thing I knew it was morning. I was the first one awake as usual.
So I
got dressed and ate my coco puffs. Which like Wendys frostys, I am addicted
too! After I brushed my teeth and put my hair up I decided to write some
letters.
Hey!
What's up in 'the big GH'? Nothing much here. I really need to talk to you
but I don't think it's safe to do over a telephone or letter. So, when we get
to Ohio I will tell you. We'll be in Ohio in a week, but we have to hit
Cincinatti and Cleveland the first week. The second week we hit Columbus,
then we are off for the rest of the week, so we'll be staying in Columbus.
Oh shit, Angie's awake, which means no more time to write. I'll call you later
today. Love ya!
~LO
"Aunt Warwa!" Angie yelled again.
"Angel Maria! Be quiet! You'll wake up everyone!" I said walking to her
bunk.
"I'm hungry."
"Go get dressed and I'll get you some coca puffs and toast. K?"
"K." She said sliding out of her bunk. Then Patch peeked his head out of
my bunk which was above Angie's.
"Come here baby." I said while lifting the Dalmation puppy from my bunk.
His name was Patch 'cause he had a spot around his eye which made him look
like he was wearing a patch. He was adorable, with one ear being totally
black and the other one totally white. He was a gift from Rachel and Jake
when I left. The puppy reminded me of JJ (we call Jake JJ 'cause his name is
John Jacob...) Because the puppy did stupid things sometimes. It also
reminded me of Rachel because RO loves music and so does the dog. Rach and
JJ have been together since seventh grade. And were
getting married next year. It was going to be a traditional wedding. The Bsb
were going to sing Rachel and Jake's song "I'll never break your heart."
I
wasn't taking a big part in the wedding because I wouldn't be there enough to
help plan or practice because of touring. But I am supposed to write a speech
and sing a song. Well, the group is singing the song.
"Aunt Warwa is this OK to wear?" Angie asked, breaking me out of my
thought.
"Yes, now go change." I said while setting the puppy on the floor. I went
in the kitchen and gave the puppy fresh water and food, then I fixed Angie
her cereal, toast and OJ. By the time Angie was done eating everyone else was
awake.
"Aunt Warwa can I sit in your bunk?" Angie asked
"Yea, here ya go." I said lifting her up. I walked to the back of the
bus. "Hey Nickay, when we stoppin?"
"At about two 'o clock." Nick said, not looking up from his game.
"Where's Jenny?" I asked
"I dunno."
"Gee, your a ton of help!" I said, walking to the kitchen area.
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