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downSo, here's my dilema. I've got this Friend/Ememy problem. Everyone knows what I'm talking about, I don't know whether to call her my "friend" or my "enemy". Before I go off on why I'm in this state of confusion, let me give you the details.
It started around the end of our spring break "04", my friend (at the time) and I had been stuck in the house for the entire break. At least that's what I thought. My F-a.t.t, had secretly gone out with some of "our" other friends, who were also my F-a.t.t. But, any way, so she goes out and leaves me home. Excuse me, but if you had a friend who had a car, and a brand new truck, wouldn't that person with the transpo be the first person you called to see if they wanted to roll? See what I'm sayin? So she goes out and calls me like three days later, invites me to go, but says she dont know if their still going to do it, but indeed they do, and does the chic call, hell m.f naw. Now aint that some bull isht. So, I'm like "ok, I see how it is, and im like buckit man. Then, she pulled another fast one. Now, it starts off as both of us going out job hunting together. I know what they mean when they say dont take a friend cuz they can skrew up everything. This chic and I go to "Berz" (thats all im gone say) we start the kiosk, dont finish and go home. No one has applied for the job. Humph, guess again. Home girl calls me a little while later. "hey, guess what, u cant be mad, i got the job at "Berz", they called me 3 days ago" !3 damn days ago, aint that some bush it! Oh and she never told me that she just went online to apply, she aint let a nigga, her dog, know this, but she can tell her lil new friend, before she tells me. See what I mean, that wasnt right. I've never done anything behind her back, or left her out of any kind of event or social activity or gathering. But she was quick to leave me out. Her excuse is that I got a man now, and im paying more attention to him then I am to her. Hell M.F yeah. You cant do for me what he can, of course I'm gone pay more attention to him, but in the process I never left you out. As many times as I could have left you at school all day to walk in circles, what did I do, I took you with me to my mans house, you chilled, met some new people, made some friends, they even showed you how to shot gun, and made you some drinks. And lets not forget I always brought her ass home. I accepted her into my home, invited her to my table, and thats the thanx i get. F-that.
Yeah so, thats my story, I dont know whether to hate her for lying or to forgive her for being stank about my happiness and selfish because I for once got a chance to be happy. I havent talked to her about it yet, because I dont know how to say it, do I be mean about it or do I be kind. I was in so much pain, I lost a friend, a sister, over jealosy. Now you know what my dilema is, so what do you have to say about it.