Is there a such thing as a normal person?? And if so where are these people and how come we judge ourselves by them?? Maybe I’m alone in this, I’m sure not everyone lives in a constant state of questioning and second guessing they’re own actions, I for some reason have been cursed with unending self-doubt. Maybe that’s what makes me abnormal, I don’t know. I went to this club on base (don’t tell anyone this) it’s called Port Side, probably the most disgusting excuse for an entertainment establishment ever to spring forth from the mind of a human being, and I see people their, they look so happy, content even, are they normal?? If so I pray to whatever religious deity you take as a higher being that I will be abnormal till the day I die, but still - I almost envy they’re ability to enjoy themselves. It’s as if they don’t care or are uninterested by how much better of a time they could be having. They seem entertained, relaxed and to an extent blissful as they scan the area for members of the opposite sex. It always leaves me with a crippling feeling of depression, I wonder, am I so fucked up that I can’t have a good time with society. It’s not that I want to hang out with these people or be part of the crowd or whatever it is they are, it’s more that I wish if I wanted to I could, I want the option and it isn't they’re. I feel that perhaps I am some how socially diffecent to the point that I won’t ever meet a young woman with whom to have a tangible future with.
Situations like this make me hate society even more, it makes me wonder why the cave men didn’t just stay in they’re caves, and say to hell with everyone else, I’m going to hunt, gather and find a female to mate with during one of my evening territory marking excursions. To hell with the social contract and to hell with whatever that guys name is that lives one valley over, he was just plain stupid to start dealing with the mass public, and to be honest with you that’s when things started to go downhill. Things like war started, one tribe against the next, organized religions which is another rant all together was spawned out of a group of peoples minds, and if they never would have bothered getting together and discussing it today they’re would be a few more altar boys out they’re that weren't up all night with nightmares of the next run in with priest Mcwhoever the cherry poppin moral leader of the community. I realize this may sound a little harsh, if that’s how I come off that’s too bad. I’m not making any public apologies for my views, but we all have to admit that the masses, or society as a whole are indeed stupider than the cave men we discussed earlier.
I wouldn’t say that society was a failed experiment as a whole I’m just saying that it really shouldn’t exist without some serious revamps. Maybe a new set of rules, the kind every intelligent human being wishes where already in place. With that in mind I am announcing a request to everyone who actually drug them selves through this shit, send me some ideas on changes we need to make to overall social interactions, something along the lines of if someone is obviously not interested in a conversation don’t talk to them, shit like that, E-mail me here and let me know what you think.
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