Bleed

Where am I going? What am I doing?

I figured I'd talk about the past, present, and future. If anything, that makes the best sense. I dealt with the past by reimagining Moira.

The present is so much more stranger. In my past, I had friends and family. These days, I'm lucky to have anyone but Helena talking to me. She looks beautiful, doesn't she?

But it's not like I could ever be with her...she's so different than me. Not to mention I don't have the time. It ruins that whole badass motif I got going for me.

So now I focus on today...and my day off.

[Fade in. There she sits, watching at the window, a new guitar in her hand. She picked up tunes quite well since spending time with me. I didn't even know she played guitar. You learn those little things by listening, right? I love the way her hair glistens in the sunlight. Where would I be without her? I'm just glad to have her around today...]

"I'm feeling crossed
I take it inside
Burn up the pain
My thoughts are strange
Just like the things I used to love
Just like the tree that fell I heard it
If art is still inside I feel it ."

Jonathan Storm: Hey you...I didn't know you played guitar.

Helena: I don't. I've just been watching you...picking up the little things.

Storm: I didn't know you were that into what I do for a living.

Helena: Jonathan, I'm into everything you do. I want to take interests in your hobbies...because I like you. Jonathan, you've been nothing short of spectacular to me since we met a couple months ago. I was hoping maybe...maybe we could finally talk about us finally getting together.

[Oh shit...I knew she'd bring that up. Everyday, it's always "Let's talk about you and me as a couple!"...but I'm crumbling. I think she's fantastic. I just can't say anything. My mind's on Sunday. My mind is on victory. I must win that title.]

Helena: Jonathan...are you all there right now?

"I wanna bleed show the world all that I have inside
I wanna scream let the blood flow that keeps me alive."

[God, I hate when she gets like this...maybe if I pick up the other guitar, I can take her mind off of it...what subtle hint can I use? I know..."Bleed" by Cold! Strum a little bit, sing a bit...wait...why are you coming closer? Dammit, I hate it when you do that, Hel! You know I love it when you hold me!]

Storm: I hate it when you do that, Helena...it throws my concentration off.

Helena: I know, Jon...*smiles* that's why I do it. I also know that you're changing the point. I'm going to be honest, Jonathan. I love you. With all my heart. I want to know the truth from you.

Storm: You want the truth? The truth is this. I just don't have time for work and a relationship right now. I've got the biggest match of my HWF career coming up, and you want me to worry about falling in love? Helena, you're great, but I just don't have the time!

Helena: Well...thanks for attempting to put me into your priorities, Jonathan. You know, I understand that you want some space. You got used by Ashlee and Suzy, but I'M NOT THEM! Jon, if anything, I'm trying to help you get over all of that...but you don't care do you? You're so...so...full of yourself! I can barely stand it!

Storm: Helena...*goes to hold her, but she brushes him off*

Helena: Think about your priorities...honestly. What's going to be around all this time? Who is going to be the one person willing to put up with your shit night after night? ME!

"Take all these strings They call my veins
Wrap them around
Every fucking thing
Presence of people not for me
Well I must remain in tune forever
My love is music
I will marry melody."

Helena: Jonathan...I know that Sunday is a big day for you...but you can't be alone forever...and that's exactly what you're going to be if you don't wake up and realize that standing in front of you is someone who cares for you very much. I don't want money like Ashlee did. I don't want fame and career advancement like Suzy did. What I want is you. What I want is to see you happy...and for me to be someone who makes you happy.

Storm: Hel...you do make me happy. I just...I just...*sighs* I don't know. Helena, you're something else, you know that? Why do you even bother seeing to the bottom of me?

Helena: Because you're worth it, Jonathan. You're very worth it...and I know you're going to win on Sunday, whether or not you focus on us.

[How does she do it? She always sees through me. I can't tell her anything. She doesn't understand though. I can't get close anymore...at least not until I have what I want...that World Title. It's so close, I can taste it. This is different than any other title though. I don't just want to win, I want to humiliate her. I want to make her pay for her little arrogance in thinking she's better than me. She's no one. Tempest is a worthless piece of pondscum, that's hindering the growth of this relationship. I think even Helena sees that. Everyone who knows me understands that I have to cure this obsession, and winning that title is the only way. Tempest is the disease, and I am the cure...and when it's over, I can be with Helena finally. We can be together...but first, I must complete my task. Is it obsession? Of course...]

"Won't you let me take you for a ride
You can stop the world try to change my mind
Won't you let me show you how it feels
You can stop the world but you won't change me
I need music
I need music
I need music, to set me free
To let me bleed."

Storm: But this is only for now...tonight, it's us. It's you and me, enjoying the sunset and our company. Tomorrow, I have to get back to work...*smiles*

Helena: I'll take whatever time I can get...

[I know you will, babe...you deserve more, but it's something I can't give.]

[I need glory to set me free...to let me bleed.]

It's not like I hate her...it's just the opposite. I adore her.

I just have an undying obsession. One that's going to have to be cured with either a victory, or death.

I don't see the latter being the option I'm taking.

This is all or nothing. Tempest wants to try to play the star...but she won't.

No matter what point of view you look at.