Bleed

Where am I going? What am I doing?
He's so difficult to reach sometimes. Jon's so busy thinking about everything else...EVERYONE else.
His past is full of abuse, by his friends and family. His future is so bright...but he doesn't care about the here and now. If he's not thinking about months gone by, he's thinking about weeks down the line. I don't even think he knows I exist...unless I try really hard, like I am today.
But it's not like I think he does it purposely. Deep down inside, I know that he loves me. I just need to bring that out of him. I need to work hard in bringing that out of him. He's too stubborn for his own good.

So now I focus on today...and finally getting his full attention.

[Fade in. There I am, strumming away on the guitar. I've really picked it up since I moved in with him. What am I playing? Our song, of course..."Everywhere". I know he's walking in, and he's suprised too. I love doing that to him. I like to throw him off guard, if only to help him stay on his toes. Is that a crime? Yep, I knew it. I'm getting a kiss on the cheek. What an anti-climatic moment. I was suspecting him to drop on the floor in shock. It's okay...I like him when he's happy instead of suprised.]

"Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
you're always there."

Jonathan Storm: Hey you...I didn't know you played guitar.

Helena: I don't. I've just been watching you...picking up the little things.

Storm: I didn't know you were that into what I do for a living.

Helena: Jonathan, I'm into everything you do. I want to take interests in your hobbies...because I like you. Jonathan, you've been nothing short of spectacular to me since we met a couple months ago. I was hoping maybe...maybe we could finally talk about us finally getting together.

[He's crumbling...I know it. I love it. Today's the day he's going to tell me he loves me. Oh, you think I don't know it, Jon? I do. I've seen through you before, haven't I? God, there's so many little quirks you have that make spending time with you worthwhile. I love every little bit of you...so just tell me you love me and get it off your chest! Please? For me? Jonathan? HELLO?!]

Helena: Jonathan...are you all there right now?

"Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone."

[God, I hate when he tries to sing his way out of these things. I love it when he sings that song to me that he's playing right now, but I know what it means...and I don't like the fact he's skirting around the issue. Don't you care about you or me, or us? Christ, Jon...you really confuse me...but I know what you like...I know what melts your heart. I'm going to get to the center of you yet, Jonathan Daniel Collins...]

Storm: I hate it when you do that, Helena...it throws my concentration off.

Helena: I know, Jon...*smiles* that's why I do it. I also know that you're changing the point. I'm going to be honest, Jonathan. I love you. With all my heart. I want to know the truth from you.

[Five bucks says he lies through his teeth.]

Storm: You want the truth? The truth is this. I just don't have time for work and a relationship right now. I've got the biggest match of my HWF career coming up, and you want me to worry about falling in love? Helena, you're great, but I just don't have the time!

[Liar. Told ya.]

Helena: Well...thanks for attempting to put me into your priorities, Jonathan. You know, I understand that you want some space. You got used by Ashlee and Suzy, but I'M NOT THEM! Jon, if anything, I'm trying to help you get over all of that...but you don't care do you? You're so...so...full of yourself! I can barely stand it!

Storm: Helena...*goes to hold her, but she brushes him off*

Helena: Think about your priorities...honestly. What's going to be around all this time? Who is going to be the one person willing to put up with your shit night after night? ME!

"I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me."

Helena: Jonathan...I know that Sunday is a big day for you...but you can't be alone forever...and that's exactly what you're going to be if you don't wake up and realize that standing in front of you is someone who cares for you very much. I don't want money like Ashlee did. I don't want fame and career advancement like Suzy did. What I want is you. What I want is to see you happy...and for me to be someone who makes you happy.

Storm: Hel...you do make me happy. I just...I just...*sighs* I don't know. Helena, you're something else, you know that? Why do you even bother seeing to the bottom of me?

Helena: Because you're worth it, Jonathan. You're very worth it...and I know you're going to win on Sunday, whether or not you focus on us.

[That's a pretty paper thin excuse, Jon...I can see that too. You're way too busy trying to convince yourself you don't need me, aren't you? I know you need me. I know you want me too. If not, you wouldn't have spent all this time, developing a relationship with me! If you can't look me in the eye and be honest, who could you be real with? Jonathan, it's time for you to bury the little bits and pieces of your past and time for you to accept the future. In a few days, you're going to be World Champion...start the chapter with me. You deserve happiness, and that's what I want to give you! I love you, Jonathan...I really do.]

"And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so."

Storm: But this is only for now...tonight, it's us. It's you and me, enjoying the sunset and our company. Tomorrow, I have to get back to work...*smiles*

Helena: I'll take whatever time I can get...

[I know you will, babe...you deserve more, but it's something I can't give you. That girl's taken you somewhere else. She's got you so far away, even I don't recognize you...and this is worrying me. Jonathan, just relax...it's you that I want...I want you to see that.]

[So tell me...do you see me?]

I hate her. I hate her with a passion.
The man I love is pulling hair out, because this woman is abusing him mentally, claiming that he's significant...that his accomplishments are paled in comparison to her's. What a bitch. I know...you're suprised I feel that way, aren't you? Well I do, because this is directly effecting my relationship with Jonathan. I could be patient and wait for Jon to win at Indecent Exposure, or I could kill her!
I don't see the latter being the option I'm taking.
This is all or nothing. Tempest wants to beat Jonathan Storm? She won't. He's fighting for his sanity, and our future. This is a lose-lose battle for her.

No matter what point of view you look at.