Chapter Fourteen

Taylor

I took a slow drive back to Crystal's house, I wasn't sure of the way and Crystal had started to act so drunk she wasn't being much help, I can't remember a time that I'd seen her so drunk in fact.

"Hmmm Tay, I want you, I've been dying to have you all night", she whispered in my ear seductively, a tone I hadn't heard from her before, but I liked it. She was making light work of the zipper on my jeans, and the button was already open, I had to stop her before it went to far.

"Hmmm, baby, I can't wait", I took my eyes off the road briefly to cover her mouth with mine in a kiss that showed her I wanted her every much as she wanted me. "But we have to wait until we get home". She giggled, and slid her hand inside my open jeans, wrapping her cool fingers around my erection; it jerked even harder at her touch.

"Why wait, we can do it here", she giggled again, "no baby", I took her hand out of my jeans and kissed it, when I looked at her she seemed playfully hurt and had started pouting. "I can't concentrate with your hand on my dick baby", she smiled, and gave me a mischievous side-glance.

"Tay, you concentrate on the road, I'll concentrate on your pleasure", she was kissing my neck again, and I was losing all control, I wanted to give in but couldn't. "Baby, stop please, your driving me insane here, and it's bad enough driving on the wrong side of the road in the dark and not knowing where the hell to go, I couldn't cope with that much pleasure". She slid her hand down my thigh, and whispered, "Taylor Hanson your such a tease".

Once we'd pulled into the drive, she was out of the car and by the front door with her keys in her hand, she was swaying slightly so I knew she was really dunk by then. She was having trouble with the keys so I took them out of her hand to open the door for her. "Let me do that baby your too drunk, you little lush you", I kissed her on her cheek and started to open the door.

"Oh so I'm a lush am I", she slid her hands around my waist from behind, her hands went into my open pants, and wrapped themselves around my erection and balls again, I laughed. "Ahhhhhh FUCK, your hands are freezing, get them out or every thing will shrivel up. I kissed her neck and she giggled. "First you turn me down, then you call me a lush, Huh", she said playfully as she staggered past me into the hallway.

Once I was inside, I closed the door, she was just slipping off her shoes, I wrapped my arms around her waist, and started kissing the back of her neck, she let out a deep sigh, and turned around into my embrace. Our lips met showing our urgent passion, a wild mix of tongues lips and moans, as we virtually ripped each other's clothes off.

I wanted her so badly; once undressed I pushed her up against the wall, crushing my mouth to hers again. All the desperation we'd both held back all evening come to the surface at that very moment.

I ran my hands down the swell of her bottom and lifted her leg to wrap around my waist. I wanted better access to her warm center, my dick twitched when it came into contact with her wetness. And as it slid deep inside her, she moaned a long throaty moan, I slid a hand in her hair, to hold us both steady, already starting long hard thrusts into her. I felt my erection stiffening even harder with every thrust, I felt like I was going to explode at any second, the feel of my cold skin touching her warm insides sent my whole body into sensory overload.

I could have come from the perfect feeling of just finally being there, the place I wanted to be the most in the world. I could feel the tightening in her thighs, as I slid my hand up nearer to her hot centre. I knew she was about to come, and I didn't want this to end, not there up against the wall I knew as soon as she started coming she would bring me over the edge with her, it was far too quick.

"Baby, come here", I lifted her other leg and wrapped it around me and carried her to the stairs, laying her on the steps. I leaned down and kissed her forehead, then her nose, and finally her mouth, sucking on her bottom lip as I pulled away. "Oh god Tay, don't stop", she pulled me back towards her mouth, kissing me hard, I felt her hand wrapping around my erection at the same time.

Our tongues met in a swirl of needy lust I could feel all the blood rushing to my dick with every torturous stroke. I knew any second there would be no controlling the fountain of come that would fill the space between us, if I didn't stop it right then. I raised up from her, looking down into those deep blue pools, as if watching my reflection in the surface of a swimming pool, there I was looking at myself in her eyes. I realized then, I needed this woman more than life itself, not just now physically, but I needed her beside me always.

Her eyes were searching her brow furrowed, with a worried look, "What's wrong Tay", she whispered her hand reaching up touching my cheek, she thought I'd pulled away for another reason, other than to calm down a little. I smiled "Crystal, I love you so much", I leaned down kissed her chin, licking away the little beads of perspiration sitting there, trailing my tongue to her collar bone then to the valley between her breasts.

As I kissed my way to her navel, her muscles contorted with pleasure beneath my lips, "Oh God Tay, quit teasing, and get on with it", I guess she was as desperate as I was, sucking her navel as I travelled further. Two fingers, slid inside her as I captured her clit lightly between my teeth, sucking and flicking the hard nub with my tongue, just one flick was all it took, her hips slightly pushed forward as I felt her opening pulse around my fingers. "Oh Tay, I need you inside me NOW".

Her pussy was still contracting as I slid inside her, drawing me deep into her. As she lay there her legs still wide open, and quivering, I felt my balls starting to tighten. The muscles in my legs were contracting, Crystal was kissing my face, and licking the sweat as it trailed down my chin, I couldn't take anymore and exploded, inside her. It felt like the most intense orgasm I'd ever had, my mind was clearer than it had ever been, I was aware of every finger of her hand touching my face, as I whispered I Love You over and over into her ear. The response I got was silence as it always was.

We eventually made it to the bedroom and made love twice more before drifting off into a comfortable sleep together, her head resting on my chest, my arm holding her tightly, I'd never felt more content in my entire life.

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Crystal

I woke with the worst headache you could ever imagine, I put it down to a combination of the goings on at my friends house together with the amount of drink I'd had, part of me wishing I'd never drunk the amount I did.

Taylor wasn't anywhere to be seen, there was a strong smell of toast and coffee, making It's way up the stairs into my room, so I knew exactly where he was. I got up had a shower, and made my way down stairs, thinking of Taylor during the shower I couldn't help smiling at the thought of how he'd put Marty in his place the night before.

"Hey morning, sit down I have some toast and coffee for you, I was just going to bring it up to you". Taylor said as I took a seat at the breakfast table. I picked up the paper, he looked over and smiled slightly "don't bother reading that shit, it's nothing but doom and gloom in there". "It always is Taylor", I said as I lay the paper back down, not bothering to read it.

When Taylor sat down opposite me there was something about him and his mood I couldn't quite understand, he seemed really distant. Taylor was always the one out of the two of us to instigate conversation. I sometimes had trouble shutting him up once he started, but today he was very withdrawn, cold even. When he answered my questions and joined in with my conversation it was short and even a sharp tone I hadn't heard from him before. I just put it down to the fact he was going home that night, and was feeling sad about it.

I was feeling very unsure about us, and once again about our future together, I was scared Claire would find out about our little meeting this week while she was safely out of the way. I'd enjoyed my time with Taylor, but now as it neared the end I felt guilty about deceiving my daughter once again, I guessed Taylor must have been feeling the same.

"I'm gonna be going out later to the shops do you want anything". My eyes met Taylor's and I didn't quite understand what I saw in them. "I'll come with you, if you want", "No it's fine, I can go alone I know my way around". I just nodded, he obviously needed time alone.

While Taylor was out on his little excursion, I decided to surprise him with a little intimate dinner before he left. I cooked a lovely meal, and set an intimate table setting for two. When all the finishing touches were made, wine cooling and candles ready to be lit, I went upstairs to dress up in a sexy clingy dress.

As I came down the stairs Taylor walked through the front door, he looked up and smiled, "You look fantastic baby", he said as he kissed my forehead and walked into the lounge. "I just thought I'd make us a nice dinner before you go", he pulled his hand from behind his back holding a huge bunch of flowers grinning like a Cheshire cat. He held out his arms and all the uneasy feelings I'd had earlier just dissolved, as I walked into his embrace and his strong comforting arms wrapped around me.

We ate dinner in silence, every now and then our eyes met and Taylor gave me a reassuring wink or smile. I wasn't looking forward to our parting again, but I knew it was inevitable. When I started to stand up to clear the table, Taylor grabbed my arm, "wait Crystal, sit down a minute there's something I need to tell you, and to ask you". I looked up his face was suddenly serious, and he looked worried. I sat back down.

"There's something I want to say", he looked at his hands not daring to look at me. He pulled a square box from his jacket pocket that was hanging over his chair behind him. "I want to give you this, it's a symbol of my love, I want you to think of me every time you look in the mirror and see it hanging around your neck". He pushed the box across the table.

I opened the box he'd left in front of me. The necklace was beautiful, it was a gold chain with two hearts entwined into each other, held together with a huge diamond. "Taylor, this is beautiful, I love it, I…..I'm sorry, i didn't get you anything". "That's okay baby", he kissed my neck as he put the necklace on me and fastened it. "I don't need a present, I just want you to tell me something", I swallowed hard, I knew what he wanted to hear, this time there was no getting out of the situation.

"What time is your flight", I tried to change the subject. He held my hand and I looked at him, his eyes searching and somewhat accusing. I couldn't cope with the hurt in his eyes, so I stood again "I better clear the plates away", I said with a shakey voice and equally shakey hands, he looked away his eyes closing as he blinked back the pain I'd caused.

As I placed the plates in the sink, he was behind me, leaning around me, he placed the glasses into the sink. He wrapped his arms around me, kissed my neck and whispered I LOVE YOU. I turned around our eyes meeting, he was waiting, searching for the reply I wasn't willing to give, and he was starting to realize

I leaned in and kissed him, when I pulled away, his hand brushed strands of hair away from my eyes, "I need to know you love me too baby, because when I leave it's the only thing that keeps me going". I looked away, I could feel my eyes filling with tears, I didn't want to hurt him but that was one commitment I couldn't make. When I didn't say anything he pulled away slightly, "Baby, you do love me……..don't you", his tone sounded hurt and even slightly shocked.

I looked at him, the tears ran free, and he looked away then back again. "You don't love me, I thought you did, the way you acted, the signs were there but… you don't do you". He was backing away then. I walked forward reaching out for him, "Tay, I didn't say that, it's just there's no point in this we can't be together so why make it harder".

"Because, all this is worth it if I know you love me, all these secret meetings, all the lies to our families and friends, it's all worth it if I know you love me as much as I love you". His lip was quivering as he spoke, and it made my heart crash into my chest I felt like I'd physically pushed my hand into his chest and ripped his heart out.

"Taylor, if I tell you I love you we'll never be able to move on, you'll never want to stop the sneaking around behind your brother's backs. You've taken a real security risk coming here on your own, could you imagine the trouble we would be in if everyone found out. No…. If I said I love you I'd want to keep you in my life, and that's never going to be an option is it". Somewhere during that little speech my voice has raised to an unbearable level of anger I was shaking, mainly because I knew that I was about to lose the only man I could ever love.

"Do you love me, I want to know!", he was angry now, I didn't know what to say to make this all right. "What makes you think I don't love you, you should know the answer to that, as you said the signs are there". "Then why can't you just tell me", he was shaking and shouted through gritted teeth. I tried to reach out and hold him, but he kept on backing away. I looked him in the eyes he was so hurt, his eyes were usually so full of love but at that point they were just empty and cold. "I can't Tay", the word slipped from my lips before I could stop them, I regretted not telling him I love him, but holding that back was the only safety net I had, to keep me from falling apart every time he left.

"Then there's nothing more to say", with that he flew up the stairs two steps at a time to pack his things.

Thirty minutes later he was standing in front of me as I sat with my head in my hands crying. He didn't look at me, just stood there, it became obvious he wasn't going to make the first move, so I stood up. He reached his hand out and wiped the tears away with his thumbs, cupping my face with his hands.

"Don't cry baby", he said before kissing my forehead. "I'll always love you Crystal, please remember that, but this is only worth it if you love me too". He ran his fingers down the side of my face, picked up the necklace in his hand as it hung loosely around my neck. "I think just one heart would have been more appropriate". I blinked back the tears as they stung my eyes, "Tay don't do this". I said clutching him tightly, holding on desperately as if for dear life.

He took my arms from around his neck. Stepped back looked me in the eye and whispered "I have no choice", his tears fell as he crushed his quivering lips to mine, for a brief but potent kiss, then ripped him self away. He left me standing there numb, I realized at that moment, I'd just made the biggest mistake of my entire life.

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