Darkest greetings and welcome to my home... I will now introduce myself to you and tell you something of my aims of this site.

I was born on 26th July 1968 in the city of Bristol, England and I was born both a vampyre and a Satanist. I come from a supposedly 'normal' family background - my parents are normal middle class, respectable people and I have one sister four years my junior, who, to my knowledge, is not a vampyre.

I didn't actually realise I was different until about the age of 7 when I started becoming interested in the darker side of life. Until then, I thought everybody's father's could bake and sew and everybody's mothers could drive. I spent many happy hours watching the Addams Family, The Munsters and the horror movies of the 30s. At age 11 I saw the BBC production of 'Dracula' starring Louis Jourdan and was hooked on vampyres and the supernatural in general. I would sneak downstairs, after my mother and sister had gone to bed to watch the late-night horror double bills on TV each Friday night with my father.. I loved all the movies of Bela Lugosi, Boris Karloff, Basil Rathbone and later on Christopher Lee, Peter Cushing and Vincent Price so started my own Junior Count Dracula Society at school. It only had 3 members, all of whom were my closest friends, and outcasts themselves. To be allowed to become a member, the prospective 'vampyre' would first have to pass an initiation test which was to allow me to drink a tiny bit of their blood (from the index finger) and to eat a piece of raw meat.. All the members allowed me to taste their blood, but only one agreed to eat the flesh, and even then, only ate a small amount.. While the other kids at school were drooling over Wham or Haircut 100, I was enthusing over Christopher Lee and Peter Cushing. I persuaded my mother to join the local video club so I could devour all the horror tapes they stocked.. I was about 13 when my vampyre nature truly began to surface. By then, I was doing regular rituals, offering my blood to the vampyre entities, which, I was sure existed and asked them to enhance my dark nature and give me the strength to be myself amongst the herd. They obliged by suddenly making my skin unable to tolerate direct sunlight. When exposed to it, without protection, my skin would turn red, crack and start to weep - within minutes. It was very painful and worst of all, it was mostly on my face so I had to be off school for sometime until the steroids I was taking reduced the swelling and discoloration. Around that time I also became unable to stand the taste or smell of garlic. Even if sat in a restaurant where someone was eating it at another table, the smell would make my retch and if I consumed any, would suffer from a burning face, nausea/vomiting and palpitations.. all these effects still being as strong today.

It was also at that age I really got seriously interested in the occult, and, luckily with having such open-minded parents, managed to acquire many books on the subject for my Xmas and birthday gifts. I read the books by Dennis Wheatley and decided I wanted to find out more about Satanism.. I started doing small candle rituals and trying to broaden my knowledge although it wasn't easy to get hold of any material on Satanism.

My life proceeded pretty much the same way, at 17 I left school and went on a training course in fashion and drama, for which I designed a Satanic nun's outfit that won a lot of praise at the fashion show we did.. I had my first serious relationship at the time too, although none of my partners at that time knew of my vampyric nature. By that time I was drinking my own blood regularly and eating raw steak and black pudding (a sausage made from pig's blood and spices) at lest once a week. My sun sensitivity continued to advance and I was now classed by the doctor as being 'photosensitive'.

I got a job as a secretary at age 21, after going on to college to study art and became accustomed to having to wear dark glasses when using the VDU and having all the lights off in my office, which, luckily I could do, with having an office to myself. I was also having to wear total sunblock everyday of the summer, no matter how thick the clothes were that I wore. to go outside I would have to don hat, gloves and scarf to cover any exposed areas. My inability to sleep at nights was also getting more pronounced. No matter how tired I was, I could never fall asleep until the early hours of the morning, meaning that I was suffering constant fatigue at work. I soon began to suffer mental confusion and couldn't even speak properly when in bright light of any kind and had to quit my job in 1994.

As for relationships, people came and went. I never told any of my partners about my true self until I was 21. When I then told the woman I was seeing, she totally freaked out and couldn't bear me near her for feat that I'd attack and kill her. She, like most people did not realize that vampyres DO NOT EVER drink enough blood to kill their human donors. A few ounces will suffice. It was in 1991 that I met my true soul-mate and now 'wife' Zann. She had known me for about 6 months before she worked out for herself what I really am. We were on vacation in the famous Yorkshire town of Whitby (as mentioned in the novel 'Dracula') and on a bus tour, at night of sites mentioned in the book. The man leading the tour was dressed as Dracula himself, complete with denture fangs and was giving a running commentary as we passed the various sites. He told of 'real' vampyres - humans who need to drink a little blood now and then to survive and Zann turned to me and said, "You're one of them aren't you?" to which I agreed. Later on she offered her blood to me and cut herself on the wrist with a scalpel blade and allowed me to drink. It was the first time ANYONE had actually offered me their blood and I felt very privileged. I have fed from her ever since.

I had my teeth permanently capped with porcelain veneers at age 22 - to enhance my vampyric nature that I was learning to accept, and then, had them re-mad before my 30th birthday, they are now 5mm longer than in the photos on this site.

Around that time I manage to get hold of a copy of Anton LaVey's Satanic Bible and when I read it I cried, it was like coming home... I had always felt the way described in the book and it was so reassuring to know that I wasn't the only one. I then bought the rest of LaVey's books and started practicing as a Satanist. For information on Satanism, please see my Satanic page.

Every summer I am visited by my best friend, Triskell and her maid, my little sister, Charlotte, from Poland. Charlotte allows me to drink from Triskell, for which I hold eternal gratitude to her as it is a truly magical and invigorating experience that I cannot live without.... They are the light of my darkness and I love them both very very much. Without Charlotte's kind permission, and acceptance of me, it would not be possible and I will never forget what she has done, and how much she means to me.

Well, that's about all there is to tell about me. Please enjoy my website, I hope you will find it interesting and educational and don't forget to sign my guestbook before you leave.

With my blackest wishes
Lucienne LaCroix
(Click my name to hear how to pronounce it)