Oh Lord, something tells me I screwed things up royally.Me and my over active imagination. He replied my email in which I called him "a coward of the worst kind". Said I was trippin and he wasnt refering to himself and I got him wrong. I'm always jumping to conclusions and accusing him of stuff. said dint need to reply. I still did and I apologized, I said goodbye though. He's more trouble than he's worth. He may have been telling the truth but in my heart,I dont completely believe him. I shouldnt have called him a coward cos in everything I do, I try to be a lady to the end and name calling just doesnt cut it. But put urself in my position, if u found out something like that, I'm sure u would have said a whole lot more. I wanted to but I just held myself.But fuck it, its over now and I think its for the best.I just hate the way it ended, I probably seem like a psycho to him. It would have been great if we could have remained friends just as we started out . Well life goes on.
I did some fashion thingy for this online magazine where I got to choose a couple of outfits for different occassions and she really liked it. I'm so surprised.I dint think it would be that good. At first i wanted 2 use some pics of me but its just as well I didnt. Maybe I'm a little too hard on myself, but what can I say, I'm a virgo. Perfectionists to the last. I'm always the last to say anything I did was good , even with my poetry too. I'm just so critical and i want to give only the best. That reminds me, I should put some of my poetry up... I've been falling behind on my writing. I've got so much to do and I just dont know where to begin. I hope I get back to Washington ASAP cos I need 2 get back to school. I feel like my brain is slowly dying sitting over here in London. Enough of it already. Hopefully, Marh/April I'll be back home just in time for the new semester. I better get on with my business. Later.