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today turned out pretty cool..cause i had a minimum day and i didn't have to deal with all the people at my school.......just one more year and i'm out of there...things at home hasnt gotten any better ..i just don't understand this whole thing with my mother and this lady...they are at each others throat and its stupid..but hey! what do i know right??? i got my guitar fixed a while ago but yeah i'm thinking about practicing a lot more....i've gotten pretty far on my own i just need a little bit more practice...but it is so hard when you don't have someone helping you and telling you what you did wrong...i have to figure that crap out on my own and it is hella hard but i guess i'm doing good....i got a tuner so i can be precise on what i need to be listening to...people are all like oh you don't know how to tune on your own..does it really matter....i want it to sound perfect when i play so yeah i guess i don't know how to tune dumb asses ....any way i dont see things getting better at home i feel another move coming along....maybe we'll move to africa or something...i don't know but when things get like this we move.....like always...

And the cycle will never stop........
so uh..is this the way things are suppose to turn out for my family...bad luck streak is killing me.....maybe it is just the people my mother has to associate with....i rather have a friend who can hardly help me out than a friend that would turn their bsck on me in a sec...damn see thats way i dont keep friends the only real friends i have are in sac and it is only about three people ....in general people are unworthy creatures...they lie...they deceive...manipulate...people are bad.....i mean i do the same exact things so its not like i'm saying i'm perfect and i never fucked anyone over cause i have and yeah i feel sorry about it but it is in our human nature to do evil stuff like that...i don't know but all i really know is i am having a horrible month..........this month is horrible.......every month is horrible.........my life is horrible....urgh!!!!!

uh???
the party is finally over.........every one went home..........thank god.....i didn't know any one there and the party was at my home.....shouldn't it have been my friends at my party??.....oh yeah that's right i have no friends........ah....too bad..any way i talked to my buddy laurice kinda miss her okay i do miss her....there is actually a soft spot in me believe it or not......any way i feel sorry that she has so manuy problems to deal with...but everyone has problems some more serious than others..........uh but the party stank...i had one friend there jen, yeah she got bit by a dog some lady had and i was embarrassed like a fool.....other than that uh yesterday suck and today i'm tired hehehehehehehehehehehehe narf

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
grrr.....this damn streak of badluck is killing me................saw this hot dude this week and i was tellin my friend that he is pretty hot and so dayz pass and then i find out somehow that the hot dude is good friends wit my old object of affection.....gah!!!!!!!that sucks booty....any way talk about a small world eh??? uh well i just got off da phone with smelly janelly hehe....haha you broke your finger....get over it!!! yeah she told her friend david that I think he is hot....uh he is boy he is......damn.......I so wish i was back up in cali so I could do janelle's friend david...hey david if your reading dis....hotcha hotcha..hehe :D

Geez...Everyday is like YUCK
So Today didn't go to school cause of fcat so I slept pretty good..I'm serious, I really have to stop being nice to people cause man they suck..Like they really suck...Take today as an example...I get up so I could help around the house(Did I have to get up?...uh NO) My mother asked me to write an email to this one guy and I'm still tired but I go "okay"...so I think my mother is going to tell me what she is going to say...but she doesn't even know so I help her out and I end up writing the damn email my self and Then she gives me this totally bogus email address and I just don't understand her after that...Then it is all my fault that I don't understand her....I'm trying to cooperate with this lady and her personal problems and she is all "I'm going to slap your face" and then she totally pulls the plug on my computer..seriously..does that make sense..Well I don't think so.......gah!!!PEOPLE

Just one of them boring, sad, sad days
I'm so bored right now I feel like I'm going to jump off my bed just get a tiny amount of adrenaline in my body.....gah!!!! I went to wal mart today and everyone is all in my way to get to the toilet paper cause it was on sale..poor, cheap people...whatever happened to the toilet paper that was sold only by single rolls?? what is this world coming to every one one needs more of every thing...food( that's why we're so fat), money (thats why we're so fat), Sex( that's why we're so fat) uh...I don't know..I'm so bored

Label Me and call Me a Sucker
>So today is not turning out okay...My mother she is pissed about something...I don't know..but uh..she is making me miserable!!!!!!To many people come to my house and I'm tired of them cause they are all old and they don't do shit but complain and talk bad about everyone... But that doesn't matter but Janelle If you are reading this you are probably at school so call me and tell me what you think... god everyday so far I feel like ripping out my hair and rubbing shit on the walls...Jealousy sucks butt..maybe I'll get over it..I know I will but damn it's not me
I'm so nice and I just wanna scream I'm so nice that I annoy myself...Gosh!!!!!Why do I even bother with people cause all they do is treat me like shit then they dtep all over my fat body and I'm all"it's Okay.." IDIOT!!!!Really I was never like this before..Like I said I will never get the satifaction of things going back to the way they use to be

everything is not right
Everyone needs to be accepted..so it seems like it...usually it turns out okay and everybody finds their groups...or whatever..they find people they get along with, who they each share something in common... but then there is the people who just don't fit in no matter how hard they try or not try...the people who people ignore until they find out something cool or dishy...whatever...God I hate those people...I don't know..Maybe I'm too wrapped up in the fact that I don't have a life and I'm not accepted that I wanna catergorize myself. I know that I won't ever get the satisfaction that things will go back to the way they use to be..I know that life isnt about getting what you want it is about getting what you deserve BUT, DAMN!! Can someone tell me why the hell so I deserve the shit I'm going through?? I'm nice to every one but I just don't get the same attitude back...I really don't get it, I just have to pay attenion to my self now and not worry about what the hell other people are doing cause they sure in the hell don't care about me or any thing going on in my life...Seriously I need something more...