I'm in no mood to spend any time on this just read it,And if you're wondering this one deals with the horror of child abuse and the suckers who fall for it

WarriorofDred: you seem really interested, really careing...why?
LoudButLuvable9: i've been there
LoudButLuvable9: twice
WarriorofDred: what were your reasons...if you don't mind my asking
LoudButLuvable9: its nto fun
LoudButLuvable9: not*
WarriorofDred: you tried to kill yourself?
LoudButLuvable9: my parents, and my friends had all back stabbed me, in reality i didn't have any friends
LoudButLuvable9: yeah, twice
WarriorofDred: I'm not in it for the fun, I'm doing it to end everything
LoudButLuvable9: so was i
WarriorofDred: my father stabbed me in the back...so to speak
LoudButLuvable9: This part is personal, and I feel that the only way to keep from going to hell tomarrow, is to make up this next part "My Parents sucked" Thats basically what she said in a nutshell. NOW**** WarriorofDred: my parents don't even pretend to love me. My mother left about 4 years ago, when the real trouble began
WarriorofDred: she left my father because she found that he was rapeing me. I couldn't go with her because he threatened to kill us both if we say anythnig
WarriorofDred: and he could
WarriorofDred: did you leave too?
LoudButLuvable9: no
LoudButLuvable9: never had a chance
WarriorofDred: sorry, I just...I was beginning to think I could talk to someone.
WarriorofDred: maybe convince myself...no, it's okay, I shouldn't be putting this on you
LoudButLuvable9: you can
LoudButLuvable9: talk to me
WarriorofDred: ..................
WarriorofDred: i hope there's some way I can thank you
LoudButLuvable9: don't even worry about it
WarriorofDred: brb...my dad's coming!
WarriorofDred: back
WarriorofDred: he's been drinking again
WarriorofDred: he's gonna want more tonight...but It'll be no more!
LoudButLuvable9: why haven't u ran away yet
LoudButLuvable9: go to cps
LoudButLuvable9: serisously hun
WarriorofDred: I've tried, he keeps me locked in the house
LoudButLuvable9: if hes drunk he won't know what the fuck is going on
LoudButLuvable9: are there bars on your windows?
WarriorofDred: no, just dogs in the yard
WarriorofDred: I havn't been outside in months
LoudButLuvable9: are there dogs in teh front and back yard?
WarriorofDred: as far as the town's concerned, I left with mom. dad tells me I'm free to go. MY room has no bars, but the others do. he thinks it's za game
LoudButLuvable9: so why don't u leave thru the windows
WarriorofDred: the dogs
LoudButLuvable9: whats in your room, exactly
LoudButLuvable9: just like a bed and a comp or what
WarriorofDred: that's my luxuries
WarriorofDred: but he moniters my internet use after I go to sleep
LoudButLuvable9: o ok
WarriorofDred: you know what
WarriorofDred: I've had enough
WarriorofDred: to hell with suicide!
LoudButLuvable9: whats your new plan
WarriorofDred: he's so fng dead!
WarriorofDred: I"LL FIND A WAY!
LoudButLuvable9: oh god
WarriorofDred: damnit...I'm gonna live!
WarriorofDred: and vengeance will be mine
LoudButLuvable9: oh god
WarriorofDred: thank you...thank you sooo much. even if I don't get him. I'm gonna live, and I'll get away...someday
WarriorofDred: I have hope now
WarriorofDred: :')
LoudButLuvable9: k
LoudButLuvable9: good
LoudButLuvable9: i'm happy
WarriorofDred: thank you
WarriorofDred: thank you...I can never thank you enough...I don't even know where to begin
LoudButLuvable9: i didn't do anything, it was u decidin ta live
WarriorofDred: buy you listened when no one else would
WarriorofDred: but
LoudButLuvable9: ok
WarriorofDred: I cnat' type straight. The tears...you know..
LoudButLuvable9: yeah
WarriorofDred: oh, I have to go...he's coming back. thanks again!
LoudButLuvable9: k byebye
WarriorofDred: bye, I'll be back in a while
LoudButLuvable9: k
**ten minutes later
WarriorofDred: I DID IT! I DID IT!!!
LoudButLuvable9: oh god
WarriorofDred: I took the jaggad piece of concrete I was gonna use on myself and I cuty hiss thrroat when he triedd to rapte me again!
WarriorofDred: I'm free............free
WarriorofDred: OH, GOD!
WarriorofDred: I have to leave
LoudButLuvable9: ok
LoudButLuvable9: byebye
WarriorofDred: I have ott getttt out oh heere!
LoudButLuvable9: ok
WarriorofDred: thank you again, I'll leave a notteee iff they ccome looknig for him
LoudButLuvable9: ok
WarriorofDred: bye
WarriorofDred: you are my hero
LoudButLuvable9: byebye
LoudButLuvable9: u don't even know my name
LoudButLuvable9: k byebye
WarriorofDred: bye

I feel sorry for this girl, I really do, but thats just how life goes. Now this next one...

Aranda 001: they didn't communicate wit you at all?
WarriorofDred: not that I could understand
Aranda 001: so they tried to talk to you?
Aranda 001: becuase they didn't really talk to me
Aranda 001: it was like telepathy
THAT REQUIRES A MIND TO TALK TO
WarriorofDred: they seemed frustrated and beat me because of my inability to communicate
Aranda 001: they beat you?
WarriorofDred: several times
Aranda 001: geez..
Aranda 001: how'd they beat you?
WarriorofDred: with a fist-like think while I was tied down
WarriorofDred: thing*
Aranda 001: what were tied down with?
LEATHER BONDAGE EQUIPMENT...NO, WAIT...THAT WAS THE STRIP CLUB
WarriorofDred: metal straps

Aranda 001: and you don't remember what they look like?
JUST LIKE A GREY, OLD, BOB DOLE
WarriorofDred: bound by the wrists and ankles
Aranda 001: any vague recollection at alll?
BEATINGS...AN PLENTY OF 'EM!
WarriorofDred: and I couldn't see through the blood in my eyes
Aranda 001: geez..
Aranda 001: how big are the marks?
Aranda 001: the marks you were telling me about
WarriorofDred: between the size of golfballs and baseballs
Aranda 001: damn..
Aranda 001: baseballs??
Aranda 001: that's huge
WarriorofDred: yeah
WarriorofDred: I have scars from the beatings as well
Aranda 001: did you wake up with blood?
WarriorofDred: I couldn't see, I felt some warm liquid creeping along my body, but I don't know if it was blood or not
Aranda 001: so you had blood in your eyes when you woke up?
WarriorofDred: I also have a 1 1/2 foot long scar from one of the experiments
Aranda 001: where?
WarriorofDred: down hte c enter of my chest
Aranda 001: ouch..
WarriorofDred: I remember that one clearly...but I'm hesitant of speaking about it...most people think I'm nuts or lying
I'M LYING
Aranda 001: tell me about it..
WarriorofDred: they opened my rib cage
Aranda 001: did you feel it?
Aranda 001: or were you paralyzed?
WarriorofDred: I was conscious the whole time...couldn't even scream
Aranda 001: oh my god..
WarriorofDred: I don't think they use tranquilizers to numb the pain
NO, THEY USED A METAL PIPE ACROSS THE HEAD
Aranda 001: what did they do?
WarriorofDred: they manipulated several of my organs including my liver and small intestines

Aranda 001: what do you mean manipulated?
WarriorofDred: several electrodes and probes doing God knows what
Aranda 001: you didn't pass out from the pain?
WarriorofDred: I've never felt pain like that...it wasn't like anything I ever felt before
WarriorofDred: it was extreme...I was beyond shock
WarriorofDred: I think they kept me awake. as punishment
Aranda 001: for you not being able to communicate?
WarriorofDred: That's the only conclusion I can come to
WarriorofDred: The one thing I know...I believe that they want us dead.
Aranda 001: hold on...
Aranda 001: if you can't communicate with them
Aranda 001: how'd you know they got mad at you for not being able to communicate?
BEATINGS! REMEMBER THE FUCKING BEATINGS!!!!!! THOSE WERE'NT HITS OF LOVE AND COMPASSION
WarriorofDred: that's Okay...I need to wipe away the tears anywas
WarriorofDred: I think the beatings took care of that
WarriorofDred: that and the empty, pityless stares from their cold black eyes
LIKE LOOKING AT A GOOD SET OF BOOBIES YOU KNOW YOU CAN'T HAVE.
WarriorofDred: hello?
Aranda 001: yeah
Aranda 001: just wondering..
WarriorofDred: oh...sorry
WarriorofDred: It seems like, maybe, your experiance was better than mine
Aranda 001: yeah...
Aranda 001: well i passed out
Aranda 001: at least i think i did
Aranda 001: they definitely did something though
Aranda 001: because i have the scars
WarriorofDred: I would've prayed for consciousness to leave me
Aranda 001: yeah...
WarriorofDred: but my prayers were'nt answered
WarriorofDred: I was put out when they wanted me out and was woken by large ammounts of pain shooting through every nerve in my body
Aranda 001: how long were your experiences approximately?
WarriorofDred: they kept me awake for 14 hours and let me "rest" for 10
WarriorofDred: but that's just an estimation
WarriorofDred: I thinktime movs differently for them...or at least, they run on a different schedual than we do
Aranda 001: most likely
Aranda 001: i'd assume so
Aranda 001: whens they last time they came to you?
WarriorofDred: maybe that's why people are so disoriented...but I have a strong mind and managed to deal with the difference. OR maybe, they made me able to deal with it
WarriorofDred: It's harrd for me to keep a job because of this
Aranda 001: why?
WarriorofDred: people think I'm insane and that I'm a liability.
Aranda 001: well why do they think you're insane?
Aranda 001: because you tell thim this?
Aranda 001: them
WarriorofDred: In my hometown. everyone knows my "story" and rumors follow me
Aranda 001: geez..
Aranda 001: that blows
WarriorofDred: IT started with me telling my parents, then them telling friends who told friends...those friends sent letters to friends...and it just spread
WarriorofDred: that's why I moved out here. I've had my job out here for a while
WarriorofDred: and nobody knows out here...except those who I can tell
Aranda 001: your recollections are very vivid
WarriorofDred: as I said...I was conscious the whole time
WarriorofDred: and it's something you just don't forget willingly
Aranda 001: when's the lsat time they visited you?
WarriorofDred: about 4 months ago
WarriorofDred: they stopped by to check on my progress
Aranda 001: what did they do?
WarriorofDred: they issued a couple more beatings and adjusted the electrodes
Aranda 001: so they opened you up again?
WarriorofDred: not this time. They used somethnig of a scanner
WarriorofDred: it burned
Aranda 001: how many usually attend to you?
WarriorofDred: 4 or 5
Aranda 001: well i have to go
Aranda 001: i'll email you sometime though
Aranda 001: thanks for sharing too
WarriorofDred: Alright. Thank you for listening
WarriorofDred: and believing me. I'm glad there's someone out there who believes me