I close my eyes and settle down
Regress into my past
Speeding back through all those years
Then so slow, now, too fast

Falling back into my fears
Of a childhood long gone
And in my girlhood clothes I dress
And then the former me, I don

A room alone is full of fear
I cannot scream, nor shout
For making noise or moving ‘round
Will all the horrors summon out

The darkness of closed eyes
The scare they bring about
“Mommy” running through my head
Still too scared to shout

The oddity of seeing
Through eyes so tightly shut
As if the scares outside me
Can never from my mind be cut

Anything can bring these moments on
Even now, when I have grown
Certain things can trigger them
As if my maturity is merely a loan

And then as I remember
I see I never screamed
And all of the release
It would give, I never dreamed

Perhaps if I can scream now
And let this terror go
Perhaps my horrors will not keep me
Down, imprisoned, feeling low

So come and help me scream now
And hear and let me shout
And with each cry of terror
My fear will leave, will out

And then I might just be at peace
Might close my eyes and feel secure
So now, just let me scream
And cast out this evil cur

That hovers deep inside me
And feasts upon my heart
And then of happy life please help me,
Let me take my part

back to the highway that never ends