Friday, August 31, 2001
Group Question
This is something that requires audience participation. Here's how it works. I pose a question and hopefully some people will answer it :) If you'd like to leave your answer (please, please, please! *begs*) then just leave a post in my guestbook.Question #1
If you could have put together a Summer Reading List for you friends, what would it have consisted of?My answer:
Drawing Blood by Poppy Z. Brite
A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
1984 by George Orwell
Our Bodies, Ourselves
The Collected Poems of Allen Ginsburg
Kiss of the Spider Woman by Manuel Puig (novel or play)
posted by SweetMaddness 11:36 PM
Thursday, August 30, 2001
Bigger is BetterA few years ago my mother's boyfriend bought her diamond earrings. It was the first time in her life that anyone had ever been given her expensive jewelry. It took her 50 years, 5 children, and 2 failed marriages before she found a man that loved her so much he'd buy her such an expensive gift.
A few months ago she lost one of the earrings while golfing. She was devistated and thought her boyfriend would be pissed off about that. After a few weeks of hiding it, she finally broke down and told him. There wasn't a fight, no angry words were flung. All he said was, "That's okay. You needed bigger ones anyway."
posted by SweetMaddness 2:54 PM
Tuesday, August 28, 2001
Knowledge is PowerI was looking around at my 300+ books and realized how few of them I've actually read. All that information just waiting to be absorbed! So I decided I'd learn something new eveyday. Yesterday I learned that One-eyed milkman is another word penis, which Romy then used in a story :) Today I learned that Anjou used to be a province of France and it's capitol was Angers. King Henry II of England was the count of Anjou before taking the crown.
posted by SweetMaddness 11:40 AM
Monday, August 27, 2001
It's not that I dislike working. If I had a job, I'd get up and go to it and work my scheduled hours. What I dislike, is looking for a job, but I guess that's the way everyone is. But, so I don't feel like a failure, let's see what I've accomplished in the past couple of days.
~Organized my book collection (which I'm guess has reached to over 300) and finally got them off the floor and onto the bookshelve.
~Cleaned up my art and writing supplies storage cabinet which. This thing has not been clean since I bought it. My move was such a rush job that things just got tossed in random containors and then shoved into the general vicinity of where it belonged in the apartment. I hadn't even dared to open the cabinet in a few months because things always fell out at me when I did. But as of two hours ago, everything is neat and orderly and easy to find.
~Got the garbage out of my hanging file folders and labelled them. Started putting things into files and found a few unfinished stories that I'd forgotten about and a poem I worte years ago. I reread it and cried.
~Finished a couple chapters on some fan fics.
~Cleaned the bathroom.
~Did all the dishes. (Okay, they are ALL dirty again, but hey, I've been busy!)
~Added some more bits of inspiration to my walls
~Saved the world by preventing the Illilliths from blocking ou the sun at Friday's Dungeons and Dragons game.
posted by SweetMaddness 6:00 PM
Sunday, August 26, 2001
Answering Questions From The Book of IfIf you were asked what to put in a new breakfast cereal box as a gimmick, what would you pick?
Hmmm. Well, considering I don't eat cereal I'd probabley put in a coupon for a free big mac or something :)
On a serious note, software is always nice. A demo of The Sims maybe. Or a music CD. Since the big market for cereal is to kids then it would have to be full Britney Spears and Backstreet Boys. If you wanted to reduce production cost then it could be a poster of a popular band. But these are all obvious answers. Let's trying being a bit unconventional. If it was something like bran flakes, then sugar packets or a bag of marshmellows shaped like Digimon to help the flavor out. If it was Fruit Loops, jelly bralets in the fruit loop colors. If it was Trix I wouldn't put the gimmick in the box, I'd put it on the commercial. I'd let the rabbit get some Trix because he deserve some after all these years and children need to learn to share damnit!
posted by SweetMaddness 3:52 PM
Saturday, August 25, 2001
There is something strangely satisfying about a good role play. Now most people would call me a loser, that I live my life through fantasy rather than reality. But where in reality would I ever get to be a cute, part Asian boy with wild hair, trained in martial arts and a talented hacker? Where, in reality, can I use magick to pull up fragments for past phone conversation or to make burning pain rip through the veins of another?
posted by SweetMaddness 5:07 PM
Wednesday, August 22, 2001
The Naked Lead the BlindLady's night at the Eclipse. It was my first time going. I've never been much of a club person. I've only been doing the club scene for a year or so and I enjoy people watching but other than that, clubs tend to bore me because I can never hear what people are saying. The Eclipse is probabley the first club I've ever gone to that I loved. It wasn't filled with gothic pretention. There were people from all walks of life intermingling in peace and harmony. The music was great, a nice variety and not too loud. Not only could I hear what people were saying, but I could actually carry on a conversation with 3 other people at once! Towards the end of the evening the DJ played Every Me, Every You by Placebo and I decided then and there that it was my favorite club in Jax. Placebo being played in America is very rare. I was so drunk I could barely move but I still HAD to dance. I went out there and made a fool of myself but I don't care, it was Placebo, it was worth it.
posted by SweetMaddness 2:51 PM
Monday, August 20, 2001
My Land's Only Boarders Lie Around My HeartMy friend J said she thought this trip back home was good for my soul. I think she's right. I feel a bit more complete now. It's like everytime I go back to the house of my childhood, I leave there having reclaimed another piece of myself. Someday I will find all the jagged little parts and fit them back together. What did I come away with this time?
~A sunrise in Kentucky that will be painted across my dreams for years to come
~The long and winding road that leads to their doors
~A car load of old books that had to be left behind during my first move
~Countless hugs from my Nephew where he held me tight and never wanted to let go
~The look of love in the eyes of my mother's fiance: the only man who has ever been worthy of a woman that great
~My Niece being able to pronounce my name and telling me about the Happy Chicken
~My brother singing Freebird
~How sexy Alan Cummings looked in Josie and the Pussycats
~My mom stubmling to the bathroom in the middle of the night with her eyes scrunched shut
~The Niece running to her bedroom window to watch us pull away
~The Nephew jumping onto the front porch and waving good-bye with all the energy in his body
~Fog in the mountains of Tenessee making it feel like driving through a dream
~The incredible sense of freedom and independence to be back in Florida
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These are the memories of this trip I will carry with me always.
posted by SweetMaddness 7:22 PM
Sunday, August 19, 2001
If You Give a Dog a Chip
This is something my nephew wrote when he was 7If you give a dog a chip he'll probabley ask for some dip.
After his chip is gone he'll probabley ask for the whole bag of chips.
If he eats all the chips and dip he'll probabley have a stomach ache and he'll probabley go to the vet.
At the vet the doctor will give him a dog pill to make his stomach ache go away.
Then he'll want to walk home.
When he gets home he'll probabley be hungry and want another chip.
posted by SweetMaddness 9:35 PM
Friday, August 17, 2001
Blue BallsMy mom has bought an exercise tape series called Walk Away the Pounds and they come with these special weights. Basically they are rubber balls about the size of grapefruits that weigh about a pound each and are, of course, blue. It was my first day back home and everyone was playing with the kids. My siblings, my nephew, and my neice are all on the floor fighting over who gets to play with mom's blue balls and I'm sitting off to the side trying not to crack up laughing. Am I the only one in this family that has a dirty mind?
posted by SweetMaddness 1:08 PM
Tuesday, August 14, 2001
All Come to Look for AmericaHere I am in exciting Indiana! (did you catch the sarcasm?) I made the drive in fifteen and a half hours, used 4 tanks of gas, and only made 5 bathroom breaks. I ended up leaving Florida at 9p.m. instead of midnight, which was bad because it was dark all through Tenessee which is the most beautiful part of the drive. The fog was terrible in the mountains and I had to drive through them while pitch dark outside. Remind me to NEVER do that again. But there was no traffic and the drive went fast.
Music:
I started out with the Moulin Rouge soundtrack. Mom and I were going to see it when I got here since we both loved it so much, but it's no longer playing.
In Georgia, Placebo's Black Market Blood went in.
Merry Widow's Ties That Bind and Placebo's self titled took me into Atlanta.
After that was Placebo Remixes
Tori Amos cd I made of her doing cover songs was playing as I entered Tenessee
My Placebo cd of b-sides (another home made goodie) kept me sane while navigating the mountains.
In Kentucky, I switched to Simon and Garfunkles Greatest Hits and let them be the soundtrack to the glorious sunrize (all in purples and blues, it was breath-taking!)
Listened to that one about three times then put in Beatles One as I passed the bridge into Indiana
I tried the Forrest Gump Soundtrack, disk 2 but only listened to a few songs
Switched back to Moulin Ridge as I entered the last leg of my journey.
posted by SweetMaddness 10:11 PM
Friday, August 10, 2001
Huddled in the Corner
When I go out to a night club, I often find myself huddled in a corner, sipping a drink and scribbling away at whatever piece of paper is handy at the moment. Here's some of what I've written there.Am I unaprochable? I seem to exude this natural, "Don't touch me!" attitude. I think that's my downfall with the whole meeting people thing. I mean, I'm somewhat attractive, mildly sexy, sweet, sometimes I can even concoct an air of mystrey. Of course, the not bing able to hear people over the music thing tends to get in the way. The bartender is pretty cute, he bought me a drink tonight. But what I really want is a relationship. I think it's about time.
Calling all sweet, intelligent, available men and women (internet addicts and role players a plus). Lonely, exotic, like nothing you ever experience before female just yearning to start a fulfilling relationship full of great sex and stimulating conversation. Can you handle it? Must be able to love and enjoy glam rock. Bisexuality a plus and appreciation of slash even better! Race not an option. Age, I'd prefer beteen 21 and 25 but up to 29 is acceptable (unless, of course, you're David Bowie or a member of Placebo). Appreciation of the arts and enjoyment of writing a plus. Must have own job and be self-sufficiant, I'm no sugar mama. Racists and bigits need not apply. Must be able and willing to fall in love and recieve love in return.Okay, the above is a joke! Don't start sending me marraige proposals. This is not a real personal add! It's just a wish sent out into the universe with hopes of crossing paths with that perfect someone.
posted by SweetMaddness 2:07 AM
UpdatesSlipping of the Tongue
Fuel Injection
New Chapters added to:
Test in Men
Fear and Bullets
New Stories:
Waiting for the Man
Untitled
Black Market Blood
A Cocktail Before Dinner
Cyber Sex
Fade Away Never
The Morning After
You Are the Sunshine of my Life
posted by SweetMaddness 1:57 AM
Friday, August 03, 2001
Run AwayI get a call Wednesday morning. "Our company is closed. Go up there and turn in your badge and they'll give you your last check and severance." No warning. Just, Tuesday I had a job and Wednesday I didn't. Tuesday I left work telling everyone "See ya tomorrow" and then when tomorrow came there was no work to go back to. It's messing with my head. I've never been laid off before.
So that night we had a an unemployment party. I got drunk beyond belief. Since then I've just been floating in the void. I'm trying to ignore the problem. Pretend everything is just peachy. But, you know what, everything feels peachy. I feel like it's going to be okay, I'm going to get through this and everything will turn out fine. I'm not going to think about it until Monday. This is my mini-vacation, I'm just going to relax.
posted by SweetMaddness 3:26 PM
