By Me | The Beast | Give Yourself A new One | Right Here | Vain |
I’ll kill you
I’ll spite you
I’ll curse you
I’ll wrap my hands around your neck
And I’ll strangle you
There’s nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
Not this day
Not to change my ways
And it’s your face
The helplessness in your eyes
Of what is being done to you
By me
Where you had your trust
Where you were safe
Won’t change a damn thing
I didn’t want to do this to you
But I had to
By me you’ll be violated
By me your trust will be denied
By me you’ll be devastated
By me you’ll release your final sigh
You’ll cry and you’ll die
By me, by me
I’ll try not to hurt you
I’ll try not to spite you
Not to curse you
Keep my hands off your neck
Not strangle you
There’s nothing to keep myself
There’s nothing I can do
Not now
Not ever
And it’s your face
I try to keep sacred in my mind
So I don’t do these things to you
By me
I love you so much
You love me so much
But it won’t change a damn thing
This is not me…this is not me…
Please don’t look at me like I’m crazy
It won’t stop until it’s finished
I won’t get peace until it’s completed
Why you? You’re so precious
So innocent to this perverted selfishness
Why you? Because you’re precious
I didn’t want to do this to you
But I had to
By me you’ll be violated
By me your trust will be denied
By me you’ll be devastated
By me you’ll release your final sigh
You’ll cry and you’ll die
By me, by me
I can’t have you
I can’t keep you
Such a treasure
Such a pleasure
So sacred
And it’s my conflicting desire
You must be tainted
You must be tainted
By me, by me
And you’ll be violated
By me your trust will be denied
By me you’ll be devastated
By me you’ll release your final sigh
You’ll cry and you’ll die
By me, by me
Ripping my flesh
Drenched in sweat
Tensed in agony
Screaming no regrets
Claw myself to the bone
Scream in anger
Yell in pain
Holler in vain
The tears burn the flesh
Wither the eyes
And scar the soul
Unleash the anger
Set free the sanity
Let loose the rancor
Set myself free
Keeping still in the dark
I have found myself alone once again
Naked in filth
Lost yet found
Bewildered and bound
Nothing can keep me
Nothing can beat me
So be still your whips
Hold your fists
Plant your kicks
Hold your spears
Hear me scream
Hear me howl
Hear me yell
See my scowl
I’ll show my teeth for every blown dealt
And you’ll see the fire inside
The beast that hides
The lashings of demons I have inside
The mere mark of Satan thrives within these scarred tissues
My primal wound
A mortal blow cannot compare
To the beating I’ve given myself
The beating inside
Where the beast lays and hides
Where his demons confide
A man of no peace
For I am my own beast
Bite my lips. Hold my fists.
I can take so much
But you suckers made me bleed.
All this anger, all this hatred
Has brewed a fight.
Sweat and blood, cuts and bruises
All this because you’re arrogant.
Go fuck yourselves a new one.
All you fucks, All you bitches
Need to learn to crucify your ego
Or I might just crucify it for you.
All this hate, all this anger
Comes from you.
All this spit, all this blood
Comes from you
All these cuts, all these bruisesComes from you
All these fights
Are from you.
All this anger, all this hate
Makes me tired
Too tired to keep holding my fists up
Too tired of all these fights
All you do is make me angry
All you do is make me tired.
I’ve grown too tired.
Bite my lips. Hold my fists.
I can take so much.
I can’t take anymore
From all of you
So go fuck yourselves a new one.
For me.
I love this place all too much
But there are times that I feel
I can’t be here anymore.
It’s all I know. It’s all I’ve been.
I’ve lived through many memories.
But this could be the last if I stay.
Everyone I know is here
But sometimes I feel I don’t belong here
Because I’m bored again…I’m bored again.
I can’t be sober…I can’t be sober
I need to get away from this.
So I’ll drink a little
Because I can’t be sober.
I’ll sleep a little
So I can get away.
I’ll stay up at night
To escape the day.
Because I see my life fading away like a sigh.
I can’t be here anymore
I can’t get away.
It’s killing me. It’s killing me.
Maybe I’ll never escape
Never escape this meaningless life I live
My pitiful existence
My pathetic excuse for living
Just a parasite
Feeding off this world
Without a purpose
Just to feed
Just to take
There’s no point in the life I lead
There’s no point in the life I live
This life has forsaken me
This existence has forsaken me
Condemned me
Punished me
Draining me
Killing me
I’ll never escape
I’ll never escape the feelings
The remorse
The resentment
I have towards my existence
Why do I belong here?
I never chose to exist
Why has this life been shoved upon me?
My life is meaningless
My affections are meaningless
What I do
And What I say
Are meaningless
In the end I’m useless
To everything
And everyone
My life isn’t permanent
And neither are you
Sooner or later
What I’ll say to you will be forgotten
What I’ve done for you will be forgotten
My love for you will be forgotten
So will my life and my memory
Sooner or later my life will become
VAIN
