My Journal

This is where I put the rantings from everyday life. I now have it all organized like it was on my friend Jenny's page, hurray to me! Click here to go back to the main page.
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Saturday, August 24th
23:02 So I feel that I ought to at least put September's files in a new document, but that would require work... then again, I need to update the frisbee and Theta pages too. Speaking of which, I got the pics from my aunt of initiation (with some GREAT shots of me and Allison), so I need to scan those and put them up here somewhere too. That will please me.
Wednesday, August 21st
Mommy's new boyfriend's name is Tim.
Tuesday, August 13th
23:11 Got back from camping with Jenny around 7:30. Had a littled dinner, but wasn't really that hungry. Before that... well, back to Monday. Got up at 6:30/6:45ish and left around 7. Drove to all of White Bear before we stopped, 'cause we needed to get food. Got muffins, carrots, sandwich stuff and water, then took off. Didn't stop again until we got to Hinkley, where we went to Tobie's on the suggestion of my father, who said they had cinnamon rolls that were a foot square. Boo to him, they were only 6" or so square. Jenny got a big cookie and I got a macaroon, which I nibbled for the next two hours, since I wasn't hungry just then. I drove after that, driving a little faster than Jenny, cruising along at 81 mph (yay cruise control!). Got through Duluth and just past Little Marais, where we detoured to see the Wolf Ridge ELC and Finland Heritage Site. Lots more driving, not much to see. Took pictures. Afterwards Jenny drove and I took a nap until the border. We were waved through without even having to show ID. Went to the Canadian tourist info and changed coins, where I got a couple "Loonies"- one dollar coins. Those were cool.
Thursday, August 8th
7:40 I was listening to the morning show on KSJN on my way to class today, and heard something really neat. When I first turned the radio on I thought to myself, "This sounds familiar. I wonder what it is." After a few more bars, I realized it was The Beatles' "Can't Buy Me Love," but done in a very nice cool jazz style. The song ended and teh DJ and singer explained that it was part of a project the singer was working on, where she had arranged several Beatles tunes into a jazz style. They the went on to play her version of "Blackbird," which was also really pretty. Kinda upset me when they said she was preparing to record all these songs, and didn't have them out yet, 'cause I really wanted to share it with my friend James who insists he deosn't care for jazz, adn whose mind I wish I could change about that. Thought hearing The Beatles done up that way might influence him a bit. Maybe I'll check the radio's site and see if they have a copy of the song. Hmmm....
Sunday, August 4th
Yesterday was fun. Went to my soon-to-be cousin's bridal shower, then the county fair with a friend of mine (and brought my little brother with). I might go into more detail later, but WSS. Simpsons is on now, so off I go, and I might forget to come back to this later. Ah, well.
Saturday
I think the scariest dreams are those you can't escape from.
Friday, July 26th
Today, my brother turns 21. Amazing.

14:56 So dad is downstairs talking to his divorce lawyer on the phone, and was throwing out numbers and discussing finance and such. I'm curious as always and want to know what he's talking about, but at the same time I wish I could remain ignorant of the whole thing. Sigh.
Wednesday, July 24th
14:44 Leo was right. I really am awfully lucky to live where I do, and it is indeed beautiful here.
July 23rd
Weight: 130 lbs. (good)
# of cigarettes smoked ever: none (v. good)
# of times I've seen/heard The Royal Tenenbaums: Countless thousands
pages of Bridget Jones's Diary read (which this is modeled on): plenty

So yeah, like I said this is modeled on Bridget Jones's Diary. So is Monday, July 22nd
21:39 So I've spent all of 45 minutes at home today, and all the time I spend away was fun. I met my sort-of friend Pritchard after class (I say sort-of becaus I technically don't know him that well, but he's a really fun guy). We talked about college and what we (he, mostly) had been doing, and about the MN Daily where he works. Spent a loooong time over lunch, I paid, and we went to the Daily so I could see his office. We ended up staying there talking till 5:30, but I got to talk all dirty with him, something I haven't really done since frisbee ended. After I finally left there, having been thourougly lewd and getting a somewhat uncomfortable invitation to visit his apartment sometime and watch a movie- not that the invitation was weird, just the context in which it was offered... I dunno. I know how I feel, and the rest of the 'net-world will just have to wonder.

When I finally left there (at 5:30) I drove back home, arriving at 6:15, and took a nap till 7. That was all I did. Got in the car at 7 and drove to Marine, arriving at almost exactly 7:30. We got ice cream (Ann paid, very nicely), and then walked to the gazebo in the park nearby. We sat there and talked for an hour and a half about a lot of things, and I felt really great about all of it. For some reason, talking with Ann always really helps. Oh, also she helped me figure out a lot of stuff about relationships, that was really really great and helpful and nice. Now I just have to act on it... but I'm still going on my date with Stefan this week, 'cause it'll be fun anyway, even if nothing serious will probably come of it.

Back home finally (duh) and plan to do my homework and get to bed at a reasonable hour, 'cause I was up till 2 last night talking with a friend on IM. Not so smart.... And I need a shower. So it's to bed for me, quite soon. Yay!


Saturday, July 20th
Nothing much today. Slept until 1, read on the car ride to my grandmother's house, looked at all the stuff still left after the moving sale and picked out all of 5 items, I think. Dictionary and thesaurus, pair of red velvet shoes half a size too big (but nice, I can just stuff the toes), nice little cruet, demitasse set, a pack of gold stars, a little box wtih violets on it, an old box of 16 crayons from when I was a little kid, and a bottle of bubble mix. Random stuff, mostly. Also a rug for my dorm room. Dad took a lot more stuff, and we piled it into the car and came back. Played Civ 2 some, had dinner and actually cleaned my room a bit. That's about all.
Monday, July 15th
16:26 My brother is currently looking at Homestarrunner.com. I should maybe check that site out someday. Anyway.... got up my journal to say that I've decided to work on the Theta page soon, but my CuteHTML is on the other computer, and I don't want to turn that on right now. It will have frames, because I want to put in a sidebar and don't want to have to cut'n'paste the code for it on every page. So it will be framed. And non-frame browsers can suck it. Have also considered putting in a forum for all us fun Thetas to talk on, esp. during summer, but will need to find out how to use that and find one to put up first. Mostly the finding will be the hard part- they look easy to manage. But that's for when I get onto the other comp... at least I have a basic layout in mind now, tho.

In other news, I just finished the first of two four-week courses in Japanese. Haven't gotten my grade yet, but I'm thinking anywhere from B to A-. I got an 85 on my written test, and a 90 on the oral. About the same on the other two tests, so figure high B+ there. Homework is somewhere in the B+/A- range, daily participation is a low A-, and quizzes are I Don't Know. Hence, the uncertainty of my grade. But it's in that area, I think. Shall find out soon. In related news, we have three new students in our class, and John Ellis has left. He will be missed, but I know he'll be having fun teaching ESL in Japan.


Tenth
Once again: I need to wear less underwear and more shirt with these pants. Or less underwear and more pants with this shirt.

Anja leaves today. C'est triste.


Monday the Ninth
We played Simon Says in class today, 'cause we were learning how to say "Please do this/that". Ooh, what fun. Also took a vocab quiz (5/6, yay) and a kanji quiz, which I think I did well on.
Saturday, July 6th
24:55 Extremely upset and stressed out. Was trying to get to Kyle's, was late leaving, made three wrong turns and when I got there, the show was already have been supposed to be starting for 15 minutes. Plus the gas light went on about halfway there, and I had no idea where to stop for gas (or time to do so). Mapquest sucks and I will never use it again as long as I have people to tell me directions themselves. Very full of hate right now; wish I could smack something. Instead, going to take a shower and go to bed. This weekend seems to have sucked Right Royally. Am depressed. *sob*
The Second
I'm lazy. Bite me.
Sunday, June 29th
21:38 No movie tonight. Perhaps tomorrow, with Stefan. Will be fun. Blackadder on tonight. Yay! SHIP was in Como tonight and yesterday, but didn't go see it yesterday on account of being with Katie in the afternoon. However, Kyle and Allen and co DID go, and didn't tell me about it. Poo on them. Ah well. Shall see it later this summer.
12:13 Break between class sections. One every ten minutes- very nice. Very necessary, since I started nodding off during the lecture part. Took a short walk around the building, which woke me up. Was nice. Illary got a haircut and dye job. Looks very nice. Had something insightful to put here earlier, but I have since forgotten it. Sigh.

18:56 Ah yes, verbs in the passive voice. See, "I was hit" instead of "I hit", which is nice. The not nice thing was that I WAS hit, and the car got banged up a bit. Not so fun. And it was the car my brother usually drives, although my brother usually drives it and he's in college and aren't collegiates supposed to have beat-up cars? Cold comfort, I know. Perhaps the guy who hit me's insurance will cover the cost of de-banging it. Perhaps.


21:48 Chez Grandmama. Got back around 2 (walked, with Mr. Smith), sat and read for a bit, had lunch, read some more until I fell asleep. Napped from about 3:30 to 5:30. Should be just enough, since I don't plan on sleeping much more than I usually do. Although I did go to bed after 2 last night, and still got up at about 7... 4 1/2 hours, yuck. So will definitely get more. But who knows just HOW muh? Well, okay, I do. Three hours. But I'm babbling, so I will stop.

Anyway.... after woke up from nap, started crossword puzzle and read comics. Finished both puzzles, yay me. Had dinner AT 6 'cause Judy likes her dinner AT 6. Tuna noodle salad. Yay. (Sarcasm doesn't show in print, I know, but that was sarcastic.) After dinner watched Antiques Roadshow while completing puzzles. Did homework from 8-9, but unfortunately couldn't do one page as I needed the CDs for it, which I forgot to bring. Sigh. Read for a bit while waiting for grandmother to finish using the computer, then came in here and typed this. Ought to go over vocab. I will. I really will. Soon. Just... not now.


Sunday, June 23rd
Did NM until 7, when I went to Matt Eller's grad party with Anja. It was okay, I guess... we played ping-pong and amused ourselves at another person's house, mostly. And had brownies. Oooh, brownies. Since we were in Afton, we stopped by mom's and said hi. She was mowing the lawn when we arrived. Methinks she had been drinking at some time previous. Makes me very sad. Sat in the yard and didn't talk much, in part because I wanted to give Anja a chance to talk with her and in part because I was feeling resentful. Went to Grandpa David's after that (just next door) and did NM except talk with Anja. Was depressing. Sigh. Came back home and did HW, played games, went to bed.
Saturday, June 22nd
22:02 Should update more, but won't. Slept a lot, read a bit, went to Ayaka's graduation party and had cake. Was fun.
Wednesday, June 19th
23:33 It's blogging time!
So, I just sat through another of my fathers' not-lecture/tell us about his therapy talks. Ugh. I get so sick of those, and this is what, the third one? Sigh. I guess I really am just an insensitive bitch. But that's my call. Anyway, today's topic was destructive/harmful behavior patterns, and how certain patterns just occured over and over again as a way of coping with things. I think my harmful behavior pattern is cracking bad jokes. And it's one of those that's harmful not just to myself, like anorexia would be, but to others as well. I mean, I make others suffer as a result of what I do. Maybe I should try to stop. Maybe... nah. It's too hard.
Sunday, June 16th
18:58 So I realize now that I haven't updated in a while. Ooops. I am back home, and arrived safely and all that. Due to a wrong turn, however, there was about an hour detour. What fun. Got home at 10. Sigh. But that was then. As for now...

Got up at 11 and got ready at a nice sedate pace. Might have helped with Stuff To Do, got ready to go


Tuesday, June 11th
17:08 AAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's about how I feel. Just got done with my last final, Math 29 (foundations of analysis). The first half went well- I knew the proofs solidly on two of them, and I knew the ideas of the proofs for another two decently enough that it looks like I knew what I was doing. The fifth proof I blanked on- I knew snippedts of the proof, but couldn't organize them into any coherent statement, so I ended up leaving the problem blank. Sigh.

The second part was the real killer. After trying to organize what I knew of #5 for half an hour I gave up and moved on to the last two questions, complete-the-proof excercizes. I had an hour and a half, and in that time I put down four lines of supplementary material. The thing was, the bloody proof was already complete! WAAH! What are you supposed to do with something like that? IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE SENSE! GAH!!!!!!

As I said, I added a few lines of supplementary material, so at least I have something. And it's over now, so I can sit back and try to relax. Deep breaths....


Monday, June 10th
11:20 Well, my first exam is over and done with. I think it went well. There were 10 multiple choice, most of which threw me for a loop to start out with, but I got most of them the second time through. I was still a little confused by one, because it asked for the accountant's profit of a firm and I wasn't sure if equity was inclueded, or interest paid. I said they both weren't... I hope I'm right. Didn't get my paper back, but then, I didn't ask. The nice thing was that I had plenty of time for both parts, and I even got out of there half an hour early. Which means I have a full hour to chill before meeting Tasha for lunch and studying. Sigh.

Oh yeah, and because I promised I'd do this...

Erin Sullivan is a filthy slut whore!

Sunday, June 9th
24:34 I can't believe it's so late in June already. Where did all of May go? But school is almost over- finals are tomorrow and Tuesday. Studying with Tasha tonight in a few minutes. Right now I'm just finishing up my half of the study guide, and it might help to read over my notes tonight before I sleep. I still haven't done a thing for econ, and I'm wondering if I should. But a scan of my notes should cover most of that. I think. I hope. I've done well so far, though, so a quick review should about do it. And I get substitution and income effects, which I didn't on the midterm. So I'm good. I'm solid. Back to East Asia...
Saturday, June 8th
15:25 So I updated my page a bit today, by changing the backgrounds for some of my old journals (not all, but some), and by putting May's journal in its own page. I'll need to work with that more soon, though, because it's almost a year since I started this page and the lineup at the top of the page is getting kind of full, as I bet you've all noticed. But major revamps can wait until I get home, which occurs in four days. Yay!

23:50 Just got back from naked frisbee not too long ago. We played at the bottom of Union Hill, and started out with half of us nude and half semi-dressed. Every time the naked team scored, someone on the clothed team had to take off an article of clothing. I was shirtless, but that was all. By the end of the game, everyone was either completely naked or wearing only underwear. Not a single bra, even. Of course, I had already left by that time, but I had heard, you know. After that I came back and tried to study a bit, and then at one went over to the radio station to be a guest on Erin's show. Twas fun.


Wednesday, June 5th
13:19 In the computer lab before math once again. Quite possibly the last time this will happen this year, as we have one more class and then the final. Oooh. Had lunch with Bill and Andy- that was an experience. Thought about weirdness of mom being there last night most of this morning, but also about coolness of being one now. So mostly balanced out. Except that- whaugh! woah, weirdness bad no augh! okay, now I'm good. But now I must to math. Later, 'net-world.
Tuesday, June 4th
25:18 Okay, so it's the fourth and I really should move all the May stuff away. So sue me. I'll do it soon.

So tonight was my initiation... I was stressing out about what to wear, and if what I was wearing was formal enough. But then it turns out I needn't have worried at all and that I could have worn jeans had I wanted to. Sigh. Would have been better, in light of the things that were to follow. Anyway, I was taken down to the basement where all the secret rites of Theta are apparently performed, and participated in a sacred rite. What fun. I wasn't overly worried or stressed going in, because despite all the talk of fainting goats and secret painful initiations (think back to "Animal House"...) I knew there was really nothing bad they were going to do, no curve balls they were going to throw at me. Yeah.... Turns out there's this big dramatic moment, and the first half was going ok, nothing overly weird, all sort of expected things with expected people, all whom I know, and then suddenly out of nowhere my MOTHER, of all people, appears. WOAH! WTF??? Where the heck did SHE come from? I could sort of see the reason for her being there, though, and the thought had crossed my mind that she might try and come as a surprise. So I guess I was okay with that. But then my aunt Alice did the same dramatic bit, also appearing unexpectedly. MORE unexpectedly than my mother, though, as I had no idea she was going to show up. A second later I realized that my other aunt ought to be there and did an almost double-take to look for her. Sure enough, she was there, and did the same little dramatic bit. It weirded me out through the entire next phase, and only when we moved on to the next-next bit did I recover somewhat. I mean, none of them were supposed to be there, it was supposed to be this private thing with my college friends and they weren't supposed to see me looking all nice (or trying to, though I always fail), they were just supposed to encourage and support me from afar. It was weird. But I eventually recovered, and managed to have fun and relax and be my semi-usual self during the after-party and Big Sis Rev (at which I got presents!) Then we went out to dinner and they dropped me off before going to their hotel room. Also, they took some of my old books and dresses back with them, which was nice. Now I'm typing this, soon I shall go to bed.


Monday, June 3rd
20:00 Just got back from bonsai club. It was really cool, we trimmed down the trees that we had gotten two weeks ago. I worked with two of them today- I thought I had gotten three to work with, but now I'm not so sure. So I worked with the two I was sure were "mine," one with Drew's help and the other mostly on my own. I think I messed up a little bit on the one I did alone, but I didn't take off overly much, and I think it should be savageable. Yay! Before that I had dinner with Dan and Damaris- nothing interesting to report- and before that I went to my Theta test and initiation. I passed the test with flying colors, thanks to the wonderful support of my Theta sisters. Then I pledged my loyalty to them, although I don't really recall most of what I said or what went on. Oh well. I got the gist of it beforehand. Before that was class, which was nothing memorable, and before that I got up at 8 to write my econ paper, which went well enough. Though of course my grade is the real reflection of that. WSS what that is later.

22:35 Tee hee.... even though I'm a total bitch to her sometimes (like whenever I intentionally make her cry) I really love my lil' sis.


Sunday, June 2nd
16:22 I have realized, with so many unknown people randomly visiting my page, that I might not want to put the extreme personal details of my life up here. But then again, I might. Taking down my contact info might also be good, but then again, if you knew where I went to school from 7th-11th grades you could easily find my home address and phone number, which is even more frightening. Still, is my safety at stake... WSS.

Got up at some indecent hour and played the Sims until pretty much now, or a half hour or so ago at least. IM'd a few people, told Tasha I still hadn't started my 8-page EALC paper, realized I also hadn't started my 6-page econ paper and decided that maybe I should go to the library after dinner to do some undistracted work. Yeah, that sounds like a good idea. But not until after dinner.

For those of you who haven't been doing so, you should sign my guestbook.


Saturday, June 1st
20:50 Just got back from "The Panama Deception," possibly one of the best movies I have seen this year. It was about the invasion of Panama by the US military in 1991 and how the media, while not exacly lying to the people, was definitely complying wholeheartedly with the government, who most definitely was lying. Made me want to get up and protest in front of the mayor of Appleton's office.

So having checked my s3kkrit l33t t00lz, I know that someone at home, most likely my little sister, and someone at MIT, most likely Galen, check my page fairly regularly. Is interesting to know.


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