de*flowered
[in splash of viscera fluids]

a long long time ago
before i met you
then you changed things
when you walked out that door

i was wrong
i thought you healed me
i thought you fixed things
but now i'm broken more

i was
a perfect little image
shaken
twisted
lying on the floor

i was
just the child you had to damage
corrupted
deserted

and now i'm broken more

i don't need you
i don't want you
i don't worship you because i've grown
i'm deceptive
i'm submissive

i don't fear the seeds you've sown

i am broken
it's true
but i feel whole inside of you
i am falling into you [i am a new man]

years have past
forgotten at last
but some things
they never change

who were you
to think that you
could ever
penetrate my my brain

but i let you in

i sunk into you

what was i thinking?
(it was you who brought me down)

now that i've / felt it too
now that i'm / a part of you

what were you thinking?

that into your open mouth
(i should drown)

feel the pain
that hides the anguish
behind the mask
that hides your soul

feel the rage
inside the anger
within the fist

inside of you

feel it
squeezing tighter
choking
killing
the life away

feel it
growing brighter
burning
cleansing
the hurt away

feel it
beating faster
twisting further as you heave

take it
as your master
cry relief though you can't breathe

(it glistens with our imperfections)

feel the darkness
that crawled inside you
could this be
the way you felt?

was this
your solution
your form of vengeance
to deal out what you'd been dealt?
(but there's no turning back)

find me / heal me / reach me / help me
i have seen what can become of sin

hold me / touch me / kiss me / fuck me
and pray to make me blind again

should i thank you?
should i break you?
or should i watch you as you burn?

should i wait here?
should i stand clear?
or should i scar you deeper in return?

i have
learned your lessons
i see clearly
but the world i see is gray

i don't want it
i don't want it
i really don't think it's better this way

i don't need you
i don't want you
i don't worship you because i've grown

i'm deceptive
i'm submissive
i don't fear the seeds you've sown

i am broken
it's true
but i feel whole inside of you
i am falling into you (i am a new man)

you were
so very wrong

you were
so very wrong

you were
so very wrong

but the things that you did
still remain strong

you were
so very wrong

you were
so very wrong

you were
so very wrong

but the [little bit of] life you left behind
seems so very long

-- {fist} fuck --