the worst pain yet
Today was horrible. I am finally learning how to keep everything inside. Its bad for me (thats an understatement). But its good for everyone else and thats all that matters. I don't think that I've ever actually tuned out the whole world before....especially my best friend ever. I think Im getting worse because I didnt want ANYTHING to do with ANYONE today. I sat there, blasting my rock music, scribbling the words from my mind to a piece of paper, and wanting to just drop dead right at that spot at that moment. After a little while, the only thing going through my head was "They beat me, I've lost".....