bobocaprend
Mood:
crushed out
Topic: black drama
alam nyo ba kung gano kahirap titigan yung taong mahal mo.. pero.. wala kang magawa.. hindi mo masabi.. yung as in, para kang dinidikdik ng langit at lupa tuwing knkwento nya yung mahal nya.. at sobrang, ikaw pa yung tumutulong para mas maging okay sila.. gano kasakit un..
wala kang karapatang sabihin sa kanyang, "hoy mahal kita.." sa tuwing mkikita ka nyang nakatingin ka sa kanya..
wala kang karapatang sabihing, "wag ka na malungkot, andito naman ako.." sa tuwing nalulungkot siya dahil nasasaktan siya ng mahal nya.. prang, kahit sobrang gusto mo na siyang angkinin, hindi pa rin pwede..
wala kang karapatang sabihing, "iwanan mo na siya, mas sasaya ka sa'kin" sa tuwing hindi nya ma-let go yung taong yun..
yan ang hirap eh.. kaibigan ka lang..
10 things i hate about you
Mood:
hug me
Topic: post..lang..
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
Black Heart
Mood:
blue
Topic: tangatula
Do you know how it feels
to be alone here in my head
knowing how much i love you
and knowing how much
you really don't care
done everything
just to see you smile
I've said everything
just to here you laugh
but every time I'm here with you
it feels like the doors are closing in
windows fade and slowly darkens
how could you not see that
loving you is no regret
falling for you is not something to forget
though i know you'll never feel the same
I'm still glad, somehow you came
i will follow you into the dark
Mood:
silly
Topic: black drama
I Will Follow You Into The Dark
Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark
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haha.. okay so, let's say i'm in love with this person.. and yet, that person still doesn't know how i feel.. i can't imagine, me.. being in love with certain people which in a fact.. i cannot really love.. prang i don't have the right to love them, eventhough i really want to.. being ME.. is really hard, sometimes.. no matter how many friends i have with me.. yet.. it's still incomplete.. ikaw ba naman, main-love ka sa kaibigan mo.. how hard can it be..
no one.. as in NO ONE in my school, or even my best friend.. doesn't know this blog.. and if ever you'd realize na, this is ME.. just stay quiet with every post of mine.. no one really knows who I am.. alam ko, marami akong kaibigan.. true friends.. friends that would never leave me.. kaya lng, ako yata ung hindi true friend.. i don't want them to know every part of me.. parang, this person.. knows this part of my life.. but the other doesn't.. walang kompletong impormasyon silang alam sa'kin.. minsan, kahit ung.. araw-araw kong kasama.. hindi nila alam.. kung gano ko sila kamahal..
i have this classmate.. when i was in first year.. we were seatmates.. and i guess we really bacame close.. pero.. un.. as expected.. haha, mahal ko xa.. i mean.. minahal ko xa.. pero, me.. knowing myself.. tnry kong pigilan ang lahat.. into falling deeper in love sa kanya.. dahil, kilala ko sya.. kilala ko kung sinong mahal nya.. xempre, on my part.. knowing na mahal ko ung tao.. masakit sa'kin yun.. imagine, your love talking about his/her love.. gano kasakit yun di ba.. and until now, fnfight ko pa rin ung feelings ko for that person.. i am doing everything, para.. sumaya siya.. kahit sobrang sakit.. pero, wala naman kasi akong karapatang masaktan..
eto pa.. tnry kong ibaling ang puso ko sa iba.. i ended up, having feelings sa classmate ko.. hoping that person WILL or somehow, kahit papano may gusto rin siya sa'kin.. but, then i was wrong.. again.. syempre masakit.. hello.. hindi ka gusto ng gusto mo.. naman.. para kang dinikdik ng langit at lupa..
i know i'm still young.. and i can still search for someone better than those past love lifes of mine.. kaya nga eto.. kupido ako ng iba't ibang tao.. un yung masakit dun eh.. i am the one giving advice.. pero, bakit sila sa'kin nagpapa-advice? kasi, wala akong puso.. puro utak ang ginagamit ko.. in reality, i guess ang mga advice ko ay tama.. pero, kung ako ung nasa katayuan ng taong un? i wouldn't listen.. kasi, alam kong mas matigas ang ulo ng puso (wow, may ulo ang puso.. kamusta naman un) yun.. ewan ko.. i guess it's not the right time for me to love.. kaya eto, antay antay lang..
who will follow me into the dark..
caffeinated
between me and you
don't ask