Have you seen Gwen Stefani's video "Cool"? She's gorgeous there. I want a body like hers. It's very thinspiring to watch MTV...

My mother made me eat "normal dinner"!!! Why?? I did quite well and she spoiled it all. I feel so full and fat.. Hate it. Tomorrow will be better.

I decided to try to become a model after losing some weight. It's a good motivation. I spend a lot of time on the pro-ana sites, it really helps. And I'm going to write a food diary...

I feel really good these days. I no longer care for my ex... But my goal stayes the same...

I met one friend from Saudi Arabia, whom I haven't seen for 2 years and he told me I had changed a lot and I had put on much weight. Well... he shouldn't be that honest... But it's motivating...

I've passed my exam today, I'm so happy. I can concentrate on my diet now. My mom gave me a weighing machine for my birthday so I kno now what's my weight: 68,6kg. I was happier no knowing.

Just came back from the vacation. I've gained 2kg there!!! I must lose it... and much more. Now. I have to go to my drandmother for the lounch. I don't know what to do. I heard that it helps to eat 2 or 3 spoons of apple vinegar before food... I'll try that if I have to eat something...

My father enforced me to eat a salad. My first and last food today.
It's so hot. I don't feel hungry in this heat, that's great....

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This is the D-day! I'm going to meet HIM. I can't eat today!!!!! Last time I saw him, he was with his girlfriend. I know nothing about her, only how she looks like and her voice Wish I was her....

But today he's going to be with me. It must be perfect.