New Beginnings

Title: New Beginnings
Pairing: Nick/Kevin
Author: Jules
Feedback: I'd lurve feedback... keeps me from thinking I don't suck
Rating: eventually R
Disclaimer: Now I do not own, lease or rent the people of which I speak, so I can't say that it has happened. It's just a story that I made up in my mind all by myself. And I do not propose to make any judgements on the sexual preferences of these gentlemen. It's all for fun.

Chapter 5

Nick felt the bed shift and someone climb under the sheets behind him. Even half asleep, Nick could smell Kevin’s scent and it overwhelmed him. Before Nick could turn to face Kevin, he felt him wrap his arms around his waist and spoon in behind him, pressing their bodies tightly.

"Kev?" Nick asked, his voice shaky. Kevin felt so good behind him and suddenly Nick was more than aware at how naked he was. He always slept in the nude and usually there was no one there for him to worry about. He wasn’t expecting Kevin to join him, so he hadn’t bothered putting on boxers or anything.

Kevin didn’t reply but just rested his face against Nick’s shoulders, softly caressing his stomach and chest. Nick couldn’t fight the erection that resulted in Kevin being so close and prayed to god that Kevin’s hands didn’t slip and go lower. They lay there together for quite some time before Nick felt Kevin tremble and begin to shake, an indication of his crying. Not knowing what to do, Nick stilled Kevin’s hands and took them in his own, hoping to soothe the older man’s tears.

They remained silent until finally Kevin spoke. "She’s divorcing me Nicky. My marriage is over."

"I’m sorry Kevin. I’m so sorry." Nick didn’t know what to say, but he knew that Kevin was ready to talk so he just listened.

"No Nick. I’m sorry. I’ve been here for two months, didn’t even tell you what was going on. Fuck. We hadn’t even spoken since that day when everyone went their own ways and then I come here and you take me in. Not even asking for an explanation." Kevin’s arm retraced from around Nick’s waist and went to his back, tracing the tattoos he had there. And as quickly as his finger had traced them, Kevin’s tongue was there. Licking and sucking on the inked flesh. Kevin’s kisses moved from Nick’s shoulders to his neck and Nick stiffened, unsure of what Kevin’s intentions were. So many night’s he’d dreamed that this would happen. That in the middle of the night Kevin would slip into his bed and exclaim his love for him, wanting Nick as much as Nick wanted him, but never had it actually happened. Until now.

"Kev?" His voice was uncharacteristically high and strained.

"God Nick. I love you. I love you so much." At Kevin’s admission Nick turned to face him, shocked to see the depth of emotion in the older man’s eyes. Kevin’s hand raised from his waist and cupped Nick’s face, pulling him in close enough for him to feel Kevin’s breath on his mouth.

"You do?" Nick’s breathing was erratic and he was afraid if he blinked he’d find out it was just a dream.

"Oh fuck Nick. I do. More than I should Nicky. And it’s so wrong, but I can’t help it." And before Nick could respond, Kevin’s mouth was on his, prying open Nick’s lips so his tongue could explore his mouth. Groaning, Nick surrendered completely to Kevin, allowing him to explore his mouth as well as the rest of his body. He had always wondered if Kevin tasted as good as he dreamed, if it felt as delicious to touch him and be touched by him, and if even for a few moments, Nick wanted the experience. Kevin rolled so that Nick was on top of him and began to grind himself into him, rubbing their erections together.

And suddenly it was all too real for Nick and he needed to breathe. He pulled up slightly, breaking the kiss and looked down at Kevin who was gasping for breath from the phenomenal kiss they’d just shared. "Are you sure about this Kevin?" He knew that Kevin understood the weight of his question, and needed assurance before they proceeded to where this was leading.

"Make love to me Nick. Please, I need you so badly. I’ve wanted this for far too long." And with that Nick lowered his mouth back down to Kevin’s and kissed him lovingly, attempting to erase that look of pain and desperation from Kevin’s face, to replace it with love and happiness. It was all he wanted for this man, to know how much he loved him.

Nick reached down between them and slowly pulled off Kevin’s pajama bottoms, looking at Kevin this way for the first time. This man was absolutely beautiful and he had waited so long to show him how he felt about him. He trailed a line of kisses up Kevin’s chest, stopping to lick and suck at his nipples, making Kevin’s hips buck off the bed and a loud cry to escape his mouth. As Nick was licking at Kevin’s collar bone, he felt Kevin grab at his head and bring him up to his mouth, attacking him with a bruising kiss leaving Nick breathless. "Please Nicky. Don’t tease me, I want to feel you inside of me. Please baby... Now." Hearing Kevin beg for him and seeing the look in his eyes, Nick reached over to the tight table and blindly searched for a condom and some lubricant, cheering when he came across it. Pulling them out, he sheathed himself in the latex and squirted the lube onto his hand. With one hand, Nick worked the jelly onto his cock, moaning at the friction his hand was creating for his painfully hard erection, while the other hand gently prepared Kevin for his intrusion. He inserted one then two fingers into him, amazed at how good he felt. Kevin watched, eyes wide and mouth open, and Nick wondered if Kevin had ever looked more beautiful than he did at that moment. With two fingers working inside of Kevin, Nick grazed his prostate and smiled as Kevin’s eyes fluttered shut and his head rolled back. Nick knew that it was time and crawled up Kevin’s body to place himself at his entrance. With a soft kiss to Kevin’s lips, he began to slowly push his way past the tight barrier of Kevin’s ass. It was like nothing Nick had ever felt before and he had to force himself to take this slow. He wanted it to be good for Kevin as well as himself, and if he just slammed himself into him, he knew Kevin would be in too much pain to enjoy it. So inch by inch, Nick made his way inside of Kevin, stopping to kiss him as silent tears fell from Kevin’s eyes. And finally, Nick was in as far as he could go.

"Wait a second Nicky." Kevin asked softly, trying to adjust to Nick’s size.

Nick paused and rested his forehead on Kevin’s chest, attempting to hold onto the little reservations he had. And after a few moments, Kevin gave him a sign to continue. He raised his hips a little so that Nick slid out just slightly and Nick groaned, instinctively pushing himself back in and hitting Kevin’s prostate. "Oh god Nick.. Do that again.." Kevin’s voice was hoarse and he grabbed onto Nick’s biceps for leverage, his legs wrapped around the younger man’s waist. So Nick began to move, pulling out and then thrusting back in, careful not to hurt his lover. After a few minutes of this slow pace, Kevin reached down, grabbing Nick’s hips and pulling them hard, forcing Nick to slam into him with more force. "Harder Nick. I want to feel you harder..faster..... Please..."

And Nick couldn't help but comply. He firmly grabbed onto Kevin’s hips with one hand while the other found it’s way to his cock, stroking and pulling with each thrust, bringing Kevin close to the edge that he himself was standing at. He knew it wouldn’t be long before they came, their bodies were moving rapidly and frantically. Nick leaned down and kissed Kevin forcefully, sucking on his tongue as they moved, the final straw being when Kevin's' anal muscles clenched around Nick pushing him into his orgasm. With a loud cry, Nick came hard, his back arching and his head thrown back. Watching Nick cum caused Kevin’s orgasm to slam into him, cumming on himself as well as Nick’s chest. With one last kiss, Nick rolled off of Kevin and tried to regain his breath, unable to comprehend what had just happened between them. He didn’t entirely know what to make of it all, but it was late and he was too tired to sort everything out tonight. He sighed when he felt Kevin curl up against him, wrapping his arms tightly around Nick’s waist and tucking his head under neath his chin.

"I love you Nicky." Kevin mumbled before sleep claimed him. Nick was asleep before he could return the sentiments.