Title: Maybe.. Just Once
Pairing: Kev/Nicky, AJ/Brian
Author: Jules
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Rating: Im'a say R... don't understand that NC-17 stuff
Disclaimer: If the first part never happened... then this part sure as hell never happened... Just something I came up with while in an elevator and ran with it...
Chapter 22~Brian~
I can tell it's morning. The sun is shining through the window right onto my face. I opened one eye and tried to move but realized I couldn't. Someone was wrapped around me like a cocoon. Turning my head I saw AJ lying beside me. Watching me with a dreamy look on his face. Or more so like a tired look on his face. Looks like he hasn't slept all night.
"Good morning love." I say softly caressing his face. I love how he leans into my touch, definitely one of my favourite things about him. He lowers his face down to mine and kisses me, sighing into my mouth as I flick my tongue out to meet his own. When we break our kiss I maneuver so that I'm half lying on him.
"You look like you haven't slept."
He looks almost guilty as I point this out. "I haven't. I just stayed up all night and watched you sleep."
That woke me up pretty quick. "Why baby?"
I think I saw him blush. "I was afraid you'd bolt after last night. I wanted to memorize you just in case. Just in case I never got this chance again." A single tear rolled down his cheek. "You are so beautiful Brian. I love you so much."
"Oh Alex." I could feel tears of my own threaten.
"Don't ever doubt how much I love you. I'm sorry that I've made you think that I'd leave...I'm just..."
"But what if you decide you've made a mistake? What are you going to do when she comes to work things out?" His hands were shaking so I took them into my own. I had to make him see that I wasn't going anywhere. It was my fault he was so insecure and I was going to do whatever I had to to reassure him of my love.
"She's not coming back Alex." I had to tell him everything. "That night when you came to my room and I asked you to make love to me. When you turned me down I thought about things. Thought about my life and what I wanted and needed. I realized that no matter what happened, things were over with Leigh. If someone could make me even want to cheat on her, it wasn't meant to be. I love her too much to do that to her." I saw him cringe when I said I loved her. I couldn't lie, it wouldn't be right. "I'm sorry if it hurt you baby, but I can't lie to you. Not about this. I do love her. I'll always love her. But... I'm not in love with her. She doesn't have my heart. My soul. YOU do." We were both crying at this point.
"You mean...you broke up with her. For me?"
"No Alex. I broke up with her for me. For us." It was the truth. I only realized it just this minute but better late than never I guess.
We laid there holding each other for the longest time. Just touching and kissing. Taking our time. "I love you Alex." I ran my fingers through his hair and took a deep breath.
"I love you too Brian."
I began to giggle and sat up, moving so that I was straddling him.
My laugh must have been contagious because he started to giggle too. "What?"
"Oh nothing." I gave him an evil smile and leaned down so that our faces were inches apart. "Just..." I pretended like I was thinking about something.
"Just once?"
I saw confusion cross his face and then finally recognition.
He laughed rolling his eyes. "Or twice."
"Nah." I had to correct him. "Always."