Title: Maybe.. Just Once
Pairing: Kev/Nicky, AJ/Brian
Author: Jules
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Rating: Im'a say R... don't understand that NC-17 stuff
Disclaimer: If the first part never happened... then this part sure as hell never happened... Just something I came up with while in an elevator and ran with it...
Chapter 7~Brian~
I can't believe I told him that. I never told anyone that. Never. No one would believe me if I did. But that's not the point. I told him. I had thought of kissing another man before. Wondered what it would be like to be with him. To feel his muscles underneath mine, to know what it would be like to have someone make love to me like only a man could. Own that little piece of me that no woman could, would, should. And in telling AJ that, it brought me to where we are now. Looking around I surveyed the room around me. I had never been to a place like this before and honestly never thought I would. It has been a week since I told him, and since then things have gone back to a normalcy we haven't had in a while. Things were weird between us but it was an exciting weird. A different weird. We had a secret that no one else knew. Something between just us. It was a bond. I ran into him earlier today and asked what he was up to tonight. He said he was going to a gay bar and I had an overwhelming sense of deja vu.
"So..where were you guys going that night?" I asked. I had to know the answer, either way.
Of course he knew instantly what I was referring to and laughed. "Honestly?"
I nodded.
"A gay bar."
I KNEW IT! I knew it! He saw the expression on my face and laughed harder.
So he told me he was going to a gay bar and said he didn't want to go alone. He didn't want to go with Nick or Kevin, but didn't want to go alone. I told him that I'd go with him. For his sake. Not for my own, because I wasn't interested in it at all. Just because I've thought about kissing another man, doesn't mean I'm gay. I'm just...open minded. I didn't want him to know that I was secretly excited about going to this place with him. Seeing what it would be like.
Well nothing could prepare me for the sight we were met with when we came in. It was normal. There were men and women, standing around, dancing, drinking and talking. Nothing too out of the ordinary. Just like any other bar. I looked around stunned, my mouth agape. AJ noticed and laughed. "What were you expecting Bri? The Village People?" I blushed knowing what he meant.
"I had just... I thought..." I laughed when I realized he was kidding. I was so freakin nervous, barely knew what to do with myself. AJ grabbed my arm and dragged me to the bar, ordering us two drinks. I was sure as hell going to need something to loosen me up. We got a few shots of tequila and downed them immediately. After a few songs he stood up and told me he was going to go and dance. I'm too self conscious dancing, so I thought it would be best if I just stayed at the table and watched him. It was better for me really because I could watch him move without anyone knowing and just calm my nerves a bit. This was all a little overwhelming.
~AJ~
I wonder if he knows how sexy he is just sitting there watching everyone. He doesn't have to do anything and he's the most beautiful person I think I've ever met. I love that he's watching me dance but doesn't want me to know he's watching me. I want him to come and dance with me. If he's over here, there's a better chance that I'll get to feel him against me, that we'll touch and I can at least pretend that he feels the same way about me that I feel about him. FUCK IT! I'm waving him over.
~Brian~
Fuck. He's waving me over. He wants me to come and dance. If he only knew how much I wanted to dance with him. Grinding. Touching. Feeling. What am I thinking. This is just for me to prove that I don't want him. That I'm not picturing us both naked and sweaty in the same positions that I caught Nick and Kevin in.
Shit. I forgot. I can't really dance.
~AJ~
He's really nervous about his dancing. He's better than he thinks, but still... Not really that coordinated. But it's sexy as hell. I figure that if I show him what to do, he'll be more comfortable. So I pull him closer to me. And fuck me six ways to Sunday... What does he do? He snakes his arms around my waist. What the fuck is going on? He's grinding with me. He's fucking grinding with me! Why aren't I moving? I'm just standing here like a dolt while a hot guy is all up on me. I think I need to have my head checked. So I do what any red blooded person would do when Brian Littrell wraps his arms around them and starts grinding... I grab a hold of his waist and grind up on him back. And if that wasn't enough...there was more.
"How's this?" Shiiiiiiit. I know he was talking about the dancing, but his breath on my neck, his lips so close to my ear completed the fantasy and I moaned loudly, biting my lip and throwing my head back just a bit.
"Unbelievable Rok." I whispered back, holding his hips tighter, sandwiching us even closer. I felt my cock press up against his and moaned. Fuck. He was hard. Brian Littrell was dancing with me...really dancing with me and was hard. He looked me right in the eye and I saw a flash of uncertainty cross his eyes. He stopped suddenly and looked around frantically. As if everything around him was sinking in. Where he was. What he was doing. I think my heart actually broke at the look of shock on his face, the confusion etched there.
~Brian~
What the hell am I doing? I need to get out of here. I knew I shouldn't have gone but I thought it was going to be okay. Looking into AJ's eyes I recognized the hurt there. Hurt I caused. I had to go before something happened. Something wrong happened. "I'm sorry". I whispered as I ran from the club.