Guilty Pleasures

Title: Guilty Pleasures
Pairing: Brian/Nick/AJ/Kevin
Author: Jules
Feedback: Yes Please
Rating: R
Disclaimer: So didn't happen that it's not funny...

CHAPTER 10

~Brian~

Oh my god. I can’t believe I just told him that. I also can’t believe what he just told me too. I know it will never happen, but the thought of it just gets me so hard. So hot and excited. I know in that moment I need to tell him everything. Not just that fantasy but the other one as well. "Alex?" He moans his response against my chest where he’s currently sucking on my nipples, tonguing my scar.

"There’s more." That stops him immediately and he looks up at me, face neutral.

"What more Bri?" He grabs ahold of my hand and leads me into the bedroom, sitting me on the bed as he crawls in behind me, wrapping his arms and legs around me. I can barely think with him there, licking and kissing the back of my neck, his hands wandering down my chest into my boxer shorts. "Tell me baby....tell me everything."

There was no way I could deny him anything at this point. God he felt so good, smelled so good. "Well... I told you one of my fantasies, but there’s another one. One I don’t think you’ll really appreciate."

"Bri. I first thought that you wanted a threesome with Nick and Kevin and was fine with that. Nothing you tell me is going to make me angry."

~AJ~

I was trying to keep myself from laughing. I know exactly what he’s going to tell me and I also know why he’s so afraid of telling me. He and Nick have always been close. For a while I had always wondered if anything happened between them while we were in Europe that first tour. They’d always sneak to the back of the bus and we’d find them tangled up in each other in the morning, sleeping so soundly together. I had asked Brian about it one day joking and he got red and didn’t want to talk about it. If nothing actually happened...I’m quite certain that he wanted something to happen. But felt bad about it and so is trying to repress the thoughts. I wish he’d just spit it out so we can get on with everything. What I want is for sounds like the ones coming from Nick and Kevin’s room to be coming from our room!! If he actually tells me his fantasies, maybe I’ll give him a little treat tonight. But we’ll see if he’s a good boy first. "Bri.. Just tell me."

"Nick." It was just a whisper. His head rolled back onto my shoulder and he relaxed completely in my embrace. As if saying his name out loud lifted the weight from his shoulders.

"What about Nick Bri?" God I wanted to hear him say it. Wanted to know what it was he wanted when he thought about Nick.

"I want to feel his mouth on me. Feel his tongue on every inch of me, I want to know what it feels like to be Kevin. To be able to make love to Nick, have Nick make love to me." As he told me what he wanted I couldn’t help but start to stroke his cock encouragingly. His hips lifted from the bed meeting the rhythm of my hand as his eyes were slightly closed.

"How long Bri? How long have you wanted him?" My voice was soft and loving, I needed him to know that I was okay with it. Thinking about it in all honesty, I was okay with what he was saying. I loved and trusted him enough to know where his heart lay, where his home was. We’d gone through too much for him to leave me for Nick. Not when he knew how much in love Nick and Kevin were.

"So long. God...AJ.. He was just a kid." Brian paused to let a tremor pass through him and he continued talking, getting everything off his chest. "He was just so beautiful, so sweet. My best friend. I shouldn’t have thought about him like that but I couldn’t help it. Made me feel dirty..that I was doing something wrong."

"Brian...it’s not wrong baby. Those feelings weren’t wrong..."

"I never did anything about it AJ... God how I wanted to, but I couldn’t." He opened his eyes to look at me, biting his lip between his teeth. "AJ...... I just want to know..just once...what it’s like to kiss him...touch him...have him be mine for one night and know that I’m the one that’s making him feel like that."

"I know baby... I know..." I murmured kissing him and turning him so that he was facing me. We fell onto the bed, hands wandering and caressing one another. I moved so that I was on top of him and looked down at him. He stared up at me, his eyes full of lust. "Brian... I think you’ve been a very good boy tonight. We had slipped back into our roles so easily, sometimes we did it without even realizing it.

"Well sir," he asked, giving me an innocent smile. "What do I get as a reward?"

"Well my pretty little slut. What you get," I began to rock my hips against his and feel him react underneath me. "Is the chance to fuck me. I’m going to let you fuck me tonight Brian. What do you think about that?"

His mouth forms into a sexy grin and I know immediately that he likes his reward tonight. He’s definitely earned it. "If that’s what I get for telling you my fantasies Bone... Tomorrow when we’re alone, we’ve got a lot of talking to do."

~Brian~

I think that had to be one of the most intense experiences of my life. He let me take complete control. Not just pretended I was in control but gave me control. Just surrendered himself to the moment. Now we’re just lying here, both not completely awake but not asleep either. He’s curled up in my arms and I’m holding him closely, protectively. Running my fingers through his hair I feel him shiver and I pull the covers up tighter. "You know Brian..." He starts, his voice thick with sleep.

"Yes lover?"

"I understand what you were saying about Nick. It’s okay with me."

I don’t know whether or not I should say what’s on my mind to that. I figure I’d been honest all night why stop here. "I know you understand AJ. It’s exactly how you feel about Kevin." I feel him tense and I tighten my grip on him. "Shhhhhhhh. Baby it’s okay."

"What do you mean Bri?"

"I know how close you and Kevin have been these past years. I know nothing’s happened but that doesn’t mean that you haven't wanted anything to happen. That you haven’t fantasized about the moment when something could happen. It’s the same thing AJ. And it’s okay."

~AJ~

I don’t know how he knew, but he was right. God how I wanted Kevin. Wanted to feel him completely surround me, where all I could feel, smell taste and hear was him. I loved Brian, but there was just something about Kevin that I couldn’t get from under my skin. "Thank you baby."

"You’re welcome" I heard him say as he softly kissed the back of my neck. Now only to get Nick and Kevin to agree.