Title: A Phonecall Away
Series: Our Wicked Ways
Author: Aceetha/Dawn
E-Mail: shyspyke@toowicked.com
Disclaimer: This is pure fiction. Nothing in this story happened. I don't know the BSB's. If I did I wouldn't be sitting here writing this alright.
I stare over at the girl. I guess she's pretty, the kind I would usually go for. Usually, but not now. Not anymore. Now she's just another face in the crowd to me, though there's not really a crowd here or nothing like that, but I think you get my point.I don't even know why I did this.
Oh, so it was a good fuck, but nothing more than that, a fuck.
And the entire time one face kept popping up in my mind.
Brian.
It's official, I'm in love.
As if I didn't know that already.
Doesn't change a thing though.
I'm fucked, and no pun intended there. I'm in love with a guy I can never have. Even if he did love me, which he doesn't. I mean, I can only imagine what he and Leighanne did last night.
And he dares to say he love me. He kept repeating it, like he wanted to rub it in.
And the kiss, that was pushing it.
"You awake"
I turn to look at the girl, who's name I really can't remember, not that I care.
"Yeah" I say, and grab my boxers, putting them on and getting out of bed, stumbling in the general direction of where I think the bathroom is.
"You want some breakfast?" she asks, and I turn to look at her.
"No thanks" I say, as I return from the bathroom and get dressed. Right now, I just feel like getting home. I need to think.
"I'll call a cab" she says, and dissapears into the next room. I mumble a thanks, and pull on my boots, looking out the window, trying to figure out where the hell I am.
I sit down on the bed, running the coversation me and Brian had in the bathroom over and over again in my head. I can't help it, I just have to. There's this little voice in my head that says I'm missing something.
But what can it be? Brian married Leighanne, how more clear can he be that he loves her and not me? I just don't get it.
"Cab's here" she says, and I get up, smiling.
"Thanx" I say, as I walk out the door. She doesn't say anything else, and I get in the cab and give the driver my address.
What can I be missing?
*****
"Morning sunshine"
I open my eyes and stare at Leighanne.
"Morning" I say, and kiss her softly.
"Get up, we're leaving soon" she says, and I smile, getting out of bed as soon as I can.
We're leaving for our honeymoorn this morning. We just want to be alone, so she suggested going to a small cabin I bought near a year ago.
It won't be a nice travel or anything, but she says we can do that anytime we want. Right now, she just wants to spend some quiet days with me.
And I couldn't agree more. Right now, that is what I need. Time to think. Think about Nick, and what the fuck we are going to do.
Where was he last night?
He wasn't home, but I can't think of anywhere else he could be. I just hope he hasn't done anything stupid now. The way he acted when he talked, I believe he could've done anything. I just hope it's not what I think. Please God, let it not be what I think.
What do I think?
I don't wanna know, I really don't.
I hurt him, badly.
I just hope he...no...I won't think it. Nick's not the type, he's not like that. He would never.
He might!
I get up and try to call him. No answer. FUCK. I'll have to try later on, cuz now it seems like we're leaving. Damn, why did it have to turn out like this. Why did I marry Leighanne. WHY!!!!!!!
*****
I smile to Leighanne and walk outside the cabin. The weather is great, the sun is shining and it's not too cold or anything like that.
I brought my cellphone with me. Leighanne is inside, making dinner. She wanted to make something special for me, and I'm not about to stop her. I need time for myself, time to call Nick again.
I need to know that he's...alright. God, let it not be what I think.
He's on speed dial, and I hear the phone ring in the other end.
Man, if he doesn't answer, I'm calling someone to check up on h....
"Hello"
THANK YOU GOD!!
"Eh, hello Nick"
'Click'
OK, he's home. That's good. Now all I need is for him to actually talk to me.
I press a button again, and wait for him to pick up.
*****
"Damnit Carter. Why did you pick up the fucking phone?"
I believe I'm going crazy, talking to myself and all. But what else am I to do. I just realized that I might have been wrong all along.
I might have made one hell of a big mistake.
But the only way to figure that out is to pick up the ringing phone right now and talk to Brian.
"Hello Brian"
"Nick, don't hang up, please" he says.
My hand in shaking, and I do my best not to drop the phone.
"I won't." I say, sitting down in the nearest chair. I think I need to be sitting in order to be able to have this conversation.
"I'm sorry if I hurt you, but you've gotta believe me when I say I love you. I never intended for you to get hurt. I didn't think I'd be able to break up with her, but when I was standing there in front of the priest, it was you I married. I never even saw her face, and afterwards, when I turned to the crowd, and I saw you crying, I realized I just made the biggest mistake of my life. I love you Nick, and only you. And I wish I wasn't married to Leighanne. I wish I was up here with you. And last night, I wish I'd made love to you. Having your face in my mind is not the same as having you face in front of me, or under me, or above me....Nick, are you there?"
"Oh, Brian. Sorry, I think I spaced off there"
"Where Nick?"
"Right about where you said you wished you were marrying me" I say, and a tear fall down my cheek. How could I have been so wrong about Brian. How could I have been such a jerk.
Oh fuck, I need to tell him about the girl. I know I do, but that doesn't mean I want to.
"I meant it Nick. And I'm sorry I didn't realize it sooner."
"I know" I say, trying to figure out how to tell him about the girl.
"Nick, I'd like to know something. Where were you last night. I tried to call you several times"
OK, there's my chance to tell him. Damn, I hoped I wouldn't have to.
"Brian, there's something I gotta tell you. NO, don't interrupt. Last night I was pissed. So I went out, found some chick and I...there's no easy way to say thing...I"
"You fucked her" he says. "Don't worry about it. I did Leighanne as well, and I guess it's pretty much the same thing you know."
I almost drop the phone. THE SAME THING?? Is he INSANE?? I did some girl I don't remember the name to, and he did Leighanne. That's about as different as it gets. I tell him that, but all he does is laugh.
"Nicky baby, listen. I cheated on you with Leighanne, and you on me with , whoever. We both cheated, and we're both sorry. Now lets just forget about that and talk about the future"
"You said cheated" I say, a smile appearing on my face. "That means we're...in a relationship?"
"Yes Nick, we are." he says with a laugh. "You, Nickolas Gene Carter, are my boyfriend, and I love you"
"I love you too, with all my heart" I say.
"I know Nicky. You know how they say 'your home if where you're heart is'? Well, my heart it with you. And where you are, there's home"
I smile again, and I know he is as well. I love hearing his voice, and right now I'm in need of a cold shower.
Man, but I love him, and I can't wait for him to come back.
"I've never actually heard anyone say that Brian"