ritz crackers instead of pineapple pizza
tom and i strolled down the snow covered path to go to Pizza Bill's, after all we have nothing better to do anyway. We get there, and as usual, it's closed. We always stoll down these snow covered paths, psh in the spring, get that, on these weekdays expecting one day for pizza bill's to be open. It usually never it except on weekends, when we all have time to think.
So instead we went to the old tathered gas station next door that sold packages of old cookies for thirty cents, fishing tackle, and the only soda that it has in it's large glass refrigorator doors in this room that smells like gasoline and fish bait, is TAB, a coca-cola company soda that i think had been discontinued years before.
on the way back tom told me he was going to stop talking forever.
whatever.
I study extensively in the library, the one on the third floor in the cubical in the corner of the staley qyuet part of the library. One the cubical I have written one of my favorite modest mouse lyrics, "Dig Hard, or don't try at all." I hammer my studies into my head under florescent lights.
harder.
HARDER.
From behinde me I can hear a guy and a girl rustling around the forest floor of the library under the treetop shades of fiction and poetry books. They whisper thinking no one can hear them, but I can. Tenderly kissing silently, as their annoying loud issonances of pang staking electrifyinh discords of their saliva exchange keeps making me read the same words over and over and over and over again on the white piece of paper, and in a breif moment I decide to go to India one day, and I know that paper cranes will not pay my way there, but that I will have to make money selling toys to children at some corporation store like Toys R' Us or KayBee Toy Store.
I read some of these blogs and is it just me, or are they really lame. People talk about whether or not they went to the gym to work out this week, if they got into a fight with their boyfriend, and that they got made fun of that day. I don't even want a boyfriend, none the less talk about him online. I love people when I get boerd, when life in a school zone. When you are alive, there is no need to fall in love. When I am doing ...whatever...with someone, it is all for the rush, the show, the fucking musical finale in my head, and the satisfaction of playing pretend. Maybe if I am lucky, I can find someone to play pretend with until I die.
Are we all really that shallow that we need to post what we ate for lunch online? I guess so, after all, even I'm writing. The whole reason people ever write diaries is because they secretly want people to read them. I guess all of us want to prove that we exsist, even if our exsistence is buried under piles of electrical wires and hopefully holds a spot somewhere in the ancient archives of the future.